My 31122007 offering
God already knew that the day or was it the split second that I pronounce that my greatest desire is to have and maintain a healthy and intimate relationship with my Essence I was in for the long haul all because my humanness would be seriously competitive with Divinity, to no avail. God also knew that I would not yield in to the temptation of giving up on God or myself. That’s what keeps my life flames ablaze; well, besides engaging my dream of the recording-breaking goal of living as long as Job!
In order to accomplish that, I have to continue leaving life’s tangles in God’s basket and since God is at the helm of my life and the one sincerely admiring my heart and keeping it in fine condition; in fact, my whole person is being attended to by God; this is the best wining strategy... giving God my all! Well then and again, it is God's in the first place!
It is this nugget of truth that keeps me confidently offering life’s frays back to God because though matter what comes my way God knows how to handle it, fix it, adjust it, restore it, recreate it back to its original mould even after the moulding no longer seem serviceable backed up by an iron clad guarantee and above all God always knows what's coming, what is, what has been.. the who's , how's, where's and my favourite, the why's. That is what I call God’s in charge or my money back! Since God always works this is more than product warranty and that makes me wanna shout Hallelujah because had there been an expiry date or additional payments required for extended warranty, I’d be long mulched!
So no matter how I moan and groan about; and, battle with God’s plan and purpose, I will keep offering a humble heart to the One who knows how to handle me with care. God already knows that is as good as it gets!
Hearts off to God and that’s my daily offering: a heart… my heart!
I say thank you to 2007 and all its shebang and say 2008, ready or not... I am ready!
Thanks to all my loved ones and fellow sojourners who over the years have help me more than they can ever imagine; and for even the simplest dialogue- spoken or unspoken that keeps on common grounds...on higher grounds. Kudos!
December 31, 2007
December 30, 2007
Advanced Appreciation
Giving thanks is one of the great qualities of the heart that the mind still finds Its self expressing with a bit more queasiness than it can handle when life’s test quizzes it and squeezes it so as to honour its intention to resonate with heart ability.
The heart fully understands and respects the way the mind responds when it acts and reacts with God and life situations therefore heart continues to give and receive genuine thanks while mind does what mind can to prevail practicing gratitude of faith in things unseen, unrecognized or not yet received and for things already received and not yet seen, recognized or understood. Talk about confusing and unconfusing; infusing, re-fusing and fusing enthusing
Suffice to say, I am choosing to already congratulate mind for wanting what heart is offering- the choice to experience its full enlightenment
The heart fully understands and respects the way the mind responds when it acts and reacts with God and life situations therefore heart continues to give and receive genuine thanks while mind does what mind can to prevail practicing gratitude of faith in things unseen, unrecognized or not yet received and for things already received and not yet seen, recognized or understood. Talk about confusing and unconfusing; infusing, re-fusing and fusing enthusing
Suffice to say, I am choosing to already congratulate mind for wanting what heart is offering- the choice to experience its full enlightenment
December 29, 2007
Optimal Options
How God uses life and its fullness of categories to choose knowing when to back off and when it is perfectly safe to step up the front line and count myself as one of its worthy creatures took a lot of do it again until every fibre of your being feels connected with all of life as I endowed you.
I thought God’s sense of humour is becoming increasing more humourous. Although this great creature and creator of potency informed me that it had already taken the responsibility to ensure that it anointed soul’s shebang with Grace and guaranteed it full restoration of its passion, mind was still too overwhelmed by the swelling up of its memory of carrying crosses too many at once to even begin to trust God on that assurance. the body still recovering from its battery of bruisers boldly stood in front of God with such confidence, resilience pumped it with oomph that made mind go, “wow” holy “wow”
Suffice to say this body which is my body knows its full worth
I thought God’s sense of humour is becoming increasing more humourous. Although this great creature and creator of potency informed me that it had already taken the responsibility to ensure that it anointed soul’s shebang with Grace and guaranteed it full restoration of its passion, mind was still too overwhelmed by the swelling up of its memory of carrying crosses too many at once to even begin to trust God on that assurance. the body still recovering from its battery of bruisers boldly stood in front of God with such confidence, resilience pumped it with oomph that made mind go, “wow” holy “wow”
Suffice to say this body which is my body knows its full worth
December 28, 2007
Miracle and Magic
When everywhere is nowhere and nowhere is everywhere ghosts amuse themselves in the visible realm of invisible.
The mind participates and even contributes to the weirdness. Scattered bits of soul come together to use the avail of this party to solace itself and find matching pieces and release what is not a perfect fit for it. Willingness to fully honour its agreement with Universe requires soul to match with its cosmic characteristic compatibility
This can go on while the waking world is on hectic running or the sleeping universe is on auto pilot duty. What I enjoy most is the fact that this can also happen back to the future tomorrow yesterday moving at warp speed or sludge style and now is either a dèjà vu, past life, real-time or surreal rendezvous. The even most comforting confusion is when I feel like I am dead and alive in the same instant playing the star role. I call this the HOLY WOW EFFECT of reality and continue letting life and death and everything in between keep me sane in a style that is unmatched and can never ever be imitated, repeated or duplicated.
That also defines magic, miracles, and wholeness.
The mind participates and even contributes to the weirdness. Scattered bits of soul come together to use the avail of this party to solace itself and find matching pieces and release what is not a perfect fit for it. Willingness to fully honour its agreement with Universe requires soul to match with its cosmic characteristic compatibility
This can go on while the waking world is on hectic running or the sleeping universe is on auto pilot duty. What I enjoy most is the fact that this can also happen back to the future tomorrow yesterday moving at warp speed or sludge style and now is either a dèjà vu, past life, real-time or surreal rendezvous. The even most comforting confusion is when I feel like I am dead and alive in the same instant playing the star role. I call this the HOLY WOW EFFECT of reality and continue letting life and death and everything in between keep me sane in a style that is unmatched and can never ever be imitated, repeated or duplicated.
That also defines magic, miracles, and wholeness.
December 27, 2007
God's sense of humour
The more I acted as though I had everything including God under control the more I struggled to make sense of the evitable and inevitable. And you know, God let me!
What a sense of humour God has.
Meanwhile…
Tangible evidence made no sense at all and intangible evidence just smiled along mockingly. Night or day made no difference; hope and despair meant the same thing; still I held on to this heart of mine while losing the firm grip of my mind.
Talk about holy tension…
I could hear God laughing his head off from his throne high above the heavens. I began to laugh too as I handed my 'something for God to do' box back to God.
What a sense of humour God has.
Meanwhile…
Tangible evidence made no sense at all and intangible evidence just smiled along mockingly. Night or day made no difference; hope and despair meant the same thing; still I held on to this heart of mine while losing the firm grip of my mind.
Talk about holy tension…
I could hear God laughing his head off from his throne high above the heavens. I began to laugh too as I handed my 'something for God to do' box back to God.
December 25, 2007
Unambiguous Ambiguity
December 22, 2007
Thank you, God for Inquisitiveness
It is none of my business to know your plan
Or the purpose for which you formed my life
I didn’t need to know much about the teachers
Whom you sent with your oil, lamp and lanterns
You just need my assistance to fulfill your will
How you chose to do it was none of my business
You created my curiosity and my inquisitiveness
But the reason for that is none of my business
Still I am curious as to why…answer me, God!
Or the purpose for which you formed my life
I didn’t need to know much about the teachers
Whom you sent with your oil, lamp and lanterns
You just need my assistance to fulfill your will
How you chose to do it was none of my business
You created my curiosity and my inquisitiveness
But the reason for that is none of my business
Still I am curious as to why…answer me, God!
Pretty Please!
I know you will, still I am curious as to when and how
Although I know that this is none of my business...
I'd still like to know
December 20, 2007
My goal in life
I have gone all over the world of my mind in search of my ultimate goal and purpose… something that would stay with me in abundance, though matter what.
Of course I have God’s promises, love, mercy and grace… but I wanted a little something more… you know! Something when the void feels too big a vacuum to contain my wilderness wonderings.
And then I heard a drum roll in heaven. I stood at attention… I know it is coming. I know the answer to my finding purpose in life is approaching; that which, if all it’s what I accomplish and desire will be like seeking first the kingdom of God…
And there it arrived with a fanfare that makes me grin with glee … right on time. Heaven’s biggest jackpot and I did not even have to enter a contest or lottery!
Nympha Angeal-Eyes Francis, seek peace, harmony, laughter and love, as a daily requirement of your fortune and all the rest will fall in line. Make no mistake about that because as scripture warns, your treasure will be where your heart is.
Well say no more!
Of course I have God’s promises, love, mercy and grace… but I wanted a little something more… you know! Something when the void feels too big a vacuum to contain my wilderness wonderings.
And then I heard a drum roll in heaven. I stood at attention… I know it is coming. I know the answer to my finding purpose in life is approaching; that which, if all it’s what I accomplish and desire will be like seeking first the kingdom of God…
And there it arrived with a fanfare that makes me grin with glee … right on time. Heaven’s biggest jackpot and I did not even have to enter a contest or lottery!
Nympha Angeal-Eyes Francis, seek peace, harmony, laughter and love, as a daily requirement of your fortune and all the rest will fall in line. Make no mistake about that because as scripture warns, your treasure will be where your heart is.
Well say no more!
December 16, 2007
Nine one one…..nine eleven
Something struck me in my writing tracks while scripting the previous blog and captured every cell in my brain.
Was the twin tower bombing a strategic plot to indicate the poor planning of state security? Was that a wake up call to implement effective emergency? Was that an attempt to heed the danger of manmade solutions to address injustice, greed and hate? Was that an eye-opener for governing bodies to acknowledge the consequences of their discrepancies?
I sit there and I wonder why this struck me so hard long after the bomb demolished the twin towers and ruined countless lives.
My heart continue to go out to the people who paid the price and those who continue to foot the bill for the lives consumed in such a reckless act which also seem to have been a rude awakening of the price of a human life and crucial need for respect for all life.
Was the twin tower bombing a strategic plot to indicate the poor planning of state security? Was that a wake up call to implement effective emergency? Was that an attempt to heed the danger of manmade solutions to address injustice, greed and hate? Was that an eye-opener for governing bodies to acknowledge the consequences of their discrepancies?
I sit there and I wonder why this struck me so hard long after the bomb demolished the twin towers and ruined countless lives.
My heart continue to go out to the people who paid the price and those who continue to foot the bill for the lives consumed in such a reckless act which also seem to have been a rude awakening of the price of a human life and crucial need for respect for all life.
December 15, 2007
Moonlighting for God 24/7
I still do not know exactly what God did for the three Hebrew brothers prior to the ‘tried, tested, true rendezvous in the fiery furnace or what they promise Yahweh to do after rescue 911 in heaven and as much as I ‘d like to know for sure, I think I have a pretty good idea; maybe God will explain while I still have breath or maybe he already did. As long as I continue to choose a deep desire for life, fiery furnaces and rescue 911 chambers are inevitable.
In the meantime I will continue moonlighting for God… 24/7.
In the meantime I will continue moonlighting for God… 24/7.
December 14, 2007
Moseying Moments
December 13, 2007
That's the Spirit!
Angeal-Eyes:
I must commend you for doing the easiest hardest thing, which can also be deemed the hardest easiest risk- taking a chance on me and, as you always like to say in your disclaimer, even yes, even when you do not like the way I, God, does things!
I call that total surrender and of course this is my definition of humility not helplessness or losing the battle. After all how can you lose the battle when you choose to hand them over to me just like you handed me back your mangled heart!
That's a girl!
I know that you have to work much harder at listening and holding your tongue or as you like to say watching your tongue and so far so good; your heart is resting and working much more optimally and so the mind will follow its lead! That too is surrender a kind of death, if you will!
Believe that, Angeal girl; believe that!
Over! Roger.., roger... ten four
OmniGod...
p.s. you know Angeal-Eyes, I love that term you created to personalize my name.. OmniGod!
Thanks
OmniGod!
I must commend you for doing the easiest hardest thing, which can also be deemed the hardest easiest risk- taking a chance on me and, as you always like to say in your disclaimer, even yes, even when you do not like the way I, God, does things!
I call that total surrender and of course this is my definition of humility not helplessness or losing the battle. After all how can you lose the battle when you choose to hand them over to me just like you handed me back your mangled heart!
That's a girl!
I know that you have to work much harder at listening and holding your tongue or as you like to say watching your tongue and so far so good; your heart is resting and working much more optimally and so the mind will follow its lead! That too is surrender a kind of death, if you will!
Believe that, Angeal girl; believe that!
Over! Roger.., roger... ten four
OmniGod...
p.s. you know Angeal-Eyes, I love that term you created to personalize my name.. OmniGod!
Thanks
OmniGod!
December 12, 2007
Clarification for the fray
Dear God I am so glad that you clarify what the biblical scholar meant when he said that when I do not use your gift, I lose it!
You must really know that this made me very despondent. After all why guard my life and talent only for you take it away and give someone one else the talent or credit- for lack of a better expression. If you created me to accomplish certain tasks that you specialized me to take on. Why then, would you threaten to take it away? I came to one conclusion: that you are big joker!
Well thanks for setting the record straight. That is more than a sheer consolation. This is a great hallelujah mountain-crushing Alleluia. You know how relieved I am from the dread of working in vain figuring out your purpose for creating me. Every day I still need to know why I am here. Needless to say my heart was crushed by the thought of you changing your mind on your endowment bestowed on me even before I was born. You know I do not want to die with my music still lodged in latent land.
I am so happy that instead of throwing in the towel on your promises I decided to level with you and disclose all that cause such a rift between wanting you and dissing you. Oh for crying loud, God I am sorry for calling you a joker and thank you for not taking my heart’s cry as a joke on you.
Thank you so much for fully understanding me just as much as you lovingly created me!You must really be in love with me and want me to always come to you and be with you just as I am sincerely. I may never fully comprehend you enough to love you back just as you love me, still I am brazen enough to attempt to renew my commitment to let you use me to do your best. I cannot imagine a better way that you choose to honour me, and it is not yet even Resurrection Day or is it what you mean by raising the dead to eternal life… for my sake I hope so. I know I can count on you to explain this to me too!
Until then I vow to continue to press on.
You must really know that this made me very despondent. After all why guard my life and talent only for you take it away and give someone one else the talent or credit- for lack of a better expression. If you created me to accomplish certain tasks that you specialized me to take on. Why then, would you threaten to take it away? I came to one conclusion: that you are big joker!
Well thanks for setting the record straight. That is more than a sheer consolation. This is a great hallelujah mountain-crushing Alleluia. You know how relieved I am from the dread of working in vain figuring out your purpose for creating me. Every day I still need to know why I am here. Needless to say my heart was crushed by the thought of you changing your mind on your endowment bestowed on me even before I was born. You know I do not want to die with my music still lodged in latent land.
I am so happy that instead of throwing in the towel on your promises I decided to level with you and disclose all that cause such a rift between wanting you and dissing you. Oh for crying loud, God I am sorry for calling you a joker and thank you for not taking my heart’s cry as a joke on you.
Thank you so much for fully understanding me just as much as you lovingly created me!You must really be in love with me and want me to always come to you and be with you just as I am sincerely. I may never fully comprehend you enough to love you back just as you love me, still I am brazen enough to attempt to renew my commitment to let you use me to do your best. I cannot imagine a better way that you choose to honour me, and it is not yet even Resurrection Day or is it what you mean by raising the dead to eternal life… for my sake I hope so. I know I can count on you to explain this to me too!
Until then I vow to continue to press on.
December 10, 2007
When patience turns to idleness!
Enough speculation God… where are you and what am I to do now… How am I holding up? I still do not know you very well or as I want to. Every day I wake up with the intention and willingness to follow you and honestly in the end of most days I wonder where I have been.
Truth is, if wherever I go there you are why should it matter if I go nowhere, now here or somewhere and is there even a nowhere? Why do hard times tease and taunt me about where you are and where you are not when all I want is to know you like you know me as I continue to let you reveal your reason for creating me.
Maybe you have already addressed this nagging question. Why am I here, God… why? Maybe I do not like the way you do the things you do and if this is it then make me understand the way you do the things you do. Some times I am afraid to even ask you to take over. I dread the way you do the things you do yet since you know best why you do things the way you do the things you do I will not settle for less than the way you do the things you know how to do. So here I grow again... here I groan again.
Truth is, if wherever I go there you are why should it matter if I go nowhere, now here or somewhere and is there even a nowhere? Why do hard times tease and taunt me about where you are and where you are not when all I want is to know you like you know me as I continue to let you reveal your reason for creating me.
Maybe you have already addressed this nagging question. Why am I here, God… why? Maybe I do not like the way you do the things you do and if this is it then make me understand the way you do the things you do. Some times I am afraid to even ask you to take over. I dread the way you do the things you do yet since you know best why you do things the way you do the things you do I will not settle for less than the way you do the things you know how to do. So here I grow again... here I groan again.
December 09, 2007
Walking on God's tightrope... priceless!
When the disciples volunteered to follow Jesus, he told them a few things that seem to be in sync with God's "all or nothing" requirement:
foxes have holes; let the dead bury the dead ... and that he was about his father's business and I wondered; what on earth is up with this Jesus. I know now that Jesus did not mean the physically dead when he addressed them... this Jesus and all his parables; he always answered the question and, not necessarily what the words implied.
I ask God to help me make sense of this Jesus and the easiest way is to do the hardest thing... think like a child! Now I understand why Jesus used a child to make a point to the disciples and his parable of a camel going through the eye of a needle and better to make it to the pearly gates with one eye and one hand...
WOW God! Thank you for 'fresh eyes'!
Who taught Jesus all this analogy?
Don't answer that! I already know!
Thank you that with you, this too is possible... you know that my adult body is full of cells that need to go back in time to when there was no time. That calls for courage, wisdom, trust and I mean, God-size trust!
So why didn't Abraham ask you questions when you made no sense in the scientific world (in his mind)?
You must have put some instructions in his heart and he, Abraham, though it made no sense to him, followed them as best as he could, is that it?
Don't answer that either! I am figuring it out!
You told me that you will explain later so as much as I would like to ask you when, I will just do what Father Abraham did.
That's why I wanted you to loan me Abraham's faith however knowing you, you would rather that I ask you for my very own mustard size faith to start blooming and flowering and of course, yield multitude of blessings.
Alright, alright let's continue crossing your tightrope! I am right behind you holding on for, dear life!
And the best part is, I am hitched to your yoke!
Thank you
foxes have holes; let the dead bury the dead ... and that he was about his father's business and I wondered; what on earth is up with this Jesus. I know now that Jesus did not mean the physically dead when he addressed them... this Jesus and all his parables; he always answered the question and, not necessarily what the words implied.
I ask God to help me make sense of this Jesus and the easiest way is to do the hardest thing... think like a child! Now I understand why Jesus used a child to make a point to the disciples and his parable of a camel going through the eye of a needle and better to make it to the pearly gates with one eye and one hand...
WOW God! Thank you for 'fresh eyes'!
Who taught Jesus all this analogy?
Don't answer that! I already know!
Thank you that with you, this too is possible... you know that my adult body is full of cells that need to go back in time to when there was no time. That calls for courage, wisdom, trust and I mean, God-size trust!
So why didn't Abraham ask you questions when you made no sense in the scientific world (in his mind)?
You must have put some instructions in his heart and he, Abraham, though it made no sense to him, followed them as best as he could, is that it?
Don't answer that either! I am figuring it out!
You told me that you will explain later so as much as I would like to ask you when, I will just do what Father Abraham did.
That's why I wanted you to loan me Abraham's faith however knowing you, you would rather that I ask you for my very own mustard size faith to start blooming and flowering and of course, yield multitude of blessings.
Alright, alright let's continue crossing your tightrope! I am right behind you holding on for, dear life!
And the best part is, I am hitched to your yoke!
Thank you
December 08, 2007
It boils down to God or nothing!
When I asked God to go ahead and show me what is this gap that separates me and God, that must have put a great big smile on God's face. All I know is that we hit the highway and knowing how God does God-size things I held on to my seat even though my seat belt was secure... I wonder if that is the reflection of the size of my faith.. well given my own explanation of things, I am inclined to say that it also rocked my patience tank...oops God, it is empty and the sad fact is I am patient with everyone and everything else except you. Why is that? Never mind that... I need to be a little more direct with you here, God. What is that suppose to mean when I have given you the right of way!
When it is not one thing; it is another and I am sick and tired of justifying what you have not given me an answer to... do you get that?
I mean common; all because you know that I let you take charge you just want to reap my heart apart or ...take that back... I better ask you a question. Did I rupture my heart again since you last mended it?
O Evay... another serving of Haphak please.
I better go take a nap then I can be quiet and all alone with you, no need for an anaesthesia; I get your answer loud and clear.
Leave everything to you!
You got that right; that is all I have to do!
So I finally arrived at my greatest destination on the road least crowded and as lonely as this end of the road is, it boils down to God or nothing; and, I choose God!
Kind of scary; yet this is what it takes when God says that it is all or nothing.
Father Abraham, I need you; never mind you, I need to loan your faith!
Hannah, Leah, Esther, Kings David and Solomon, Nehemiah, Daniel, the three Hebrew brothers-Hananiah, Mishael, and Azariah; and of course, among the countless biblical mentors, Jonah I must admit that I am beginning to understand your stories.
I still have a bit of a shadow feeling about Jesus death, burial and resurrection story... the miracle working part and taking his cue from you seat well with me. I need to understand the real message behind the whole life story of Jesus even if that mean that I may take on studying the original language in which the bible was inspired to the writers because the translation process seem to have watered down the substance.
I can read and, above average, understand the English Language and considering all the room for misinterpreting, I got to go with my gut on that one... God it is either that or you speak up a little more in a way that my heart can convince me that my faith is sound and well grounded in you, God; otherwise you lost me, again and I cannot afford to lose you now or ever and I dare say you cannot afford to let me out of your sight!
When it is not one thing; it is another and I am sick and tired of justifying what you have not given me an answer to... do you get that?
I mean common; all because you know that I let you take charge you just want to reap my heart apart or ...take that back... I better ask you a question. Did I rupture my heart again since you last mended it?
O Evay... another serving of Haphak please.
I better go take a nap then I can be quiet and all alone with you, no need for an anaesthesia; I get your answer loud and clear.
Leave everything to you!
You got that right; that is all I have to do!
So I finally arrived at my greatest destination on the road least crowded and as lonely as this end of the road is, it boils down to God or nothing; and, I choose God!
Kind of scary; yet this is what it takes when God says that it is all or nothing.
Father Abraham, I need you; never mind you, I need to loan your faith!
Hannah, Leah, Esther, Kings David and Solomon, Nehemiah, Daniel, the three Hebrew brothers-Hananiah, Mishael, and Azariah; and of course, among the countless biblical mentors, Jonah I must admit that I am beginning to understand your stories.
I still have a bit of a shadow feeling about Jesus death, burial and resurrection story... the miracle working part and taking his cue from you seat well with me. I need to understand the real message behind the whole life story of Jesus even if that mean that I may take on studying the original language in which the bible was inspired to the writers because the translation process seem to have watered down the substance.
I can read and, above average, understand the English Language and considering all the room for misinterpreting, I got to go with my gut on that one... God it is either that or you speak up a little more in a way that my heart can convince me that my faith is sound and well grounded in you, God; otherwise you lost me, again and I cannot afford to lose you now or ever and I dare say you cannot afford to let me out of your sight!
December 07, 2007
War disguised as peace...peace disguised as war!
Nympha Angeal-Eyes Francis!
I know that you took the bravest step that you will ever take in life and this is the best move you ever made and I am right in with you the whole nine, ten or infinite number of steps you take from then onwards so long as you continue to let me call all your shots. I know this is scary and I know that your heart is racing and pumping at a neck breaking pace. The thing is you heart is so excited even though on the outside you feel like you are putting it in overdrive... that is not your doing so relax... slow down...all is well.. all is well!
You wish things were done easier and more comfortable.. as you know I, God does not work that way so you are right when you say that things are not what they appear to be on the surface.
Peace, my child, peace!
I will explain later...
I know that you took the bravest step that you will ever take in life and this is the best move you ever made and I am right in with you the whole nine, ten or infinite number of steps you take from then onwards so long as you continue to let me call all your shots. I know this is scary and I know that your heart is racing and pumping at a neck breaking pace. The thing is you heart is so excited even though on the outside you feel like you are putting it in overdrive... that is not your doing so relax... slow down...all is well.. all is well!
You wish things were done easier and more comfortable.. as you know I, God does not work that way so you are right when you say that things are not what they appear to be on the surface.
Peace, my child, peace!
I will explain later...
December 06, 2007
The Joy of thinking for one's self... priceless
it removes...
... the burden of judgement
...the risk of condemnation
...the boundaries of imported beliefs
...eliminates striving and toiling in vain
...consciousness from the closet
...it erradicates disease and unneccsary stress!
it flourishes...
...the freedom to remain accountable
...going the extra mile, cheerfully
...keeps a clear vision and perception
... change of mind over change of heart
makes you know God first hand- up, close and personal!
encourages to hold on to the very end
it defines the difference between selfish and respect
WYSIWYG- what you see is what you get!
these are a few things that make the Joy of thinking for one's self...
... priceless!
... the burden of judgement
...the risk of condemnation
...the boundaries of imported beliefs
...eliminates striving and toiling in vain
...consciousness from the closet
...it erradicates disease and unneccsary stress!
it flourishes...
...the freedom to remain accountable
...going the extra mile, cheerfully
...keeps a clear vision and perception
... change of mind over change of heart
makes you know God first hand- up, close and personal!
encourages to hold on to the very end
it defines the difference between selfish and respect
WYSIWYG- what you see is what you get!
these are a few things that make the Joy of thinking for one's self...
... priceless!
December 05, 2007
The danger of ignoring underlying issues in the face of change
Dear God:
When I start taking you more and more at your face value, at your word and your promises everything seem to fall apart and I feel so much like I want you to leave me alone.
Is that your way of leading me on or testing my faith to follow my heart's desire?
Don't you think that it would be nice for me to not have to explain what I feel you should be explaining?
The bottom line is I am not very impress with your stunts; is it okay if I call them stunts?
I know that things are not always what they appear to be so what do you want me to see; I think I need to ask for a pair OmniGod eyes and even that may not be any more help than my Angeal-Eyes so open the eyes of my heart and then again I am not sure if that is the limitation here. What are you up to, my trusted one?
I do not want to ignore what you are saying to me so keep me in tune with you, I only want to hear your voice, though matter what the source... okay!
Needless to say that I am very anxious now that I have finally let go of the training wheels and in case, I make a boo boo I am getting on your case now, so please do not fail me now.
I want to trust you... is that a deal?
Thank you in advance!
When I start taking you more and more at your face value, at your word and your promises everything seem to fall apart and I feel so much like I want you to leave me alone.
Is that your way of leading me on or testing my faith to follow my heart's desire?
Don't you think that it would be nice for me to not have to explain what I feel you should be explaining?
The bottom line is I am not very impress with your stunts; is it okay if I call them stunts?
I know that things are not always what they appear to be so what do you want me to see; I think I need to ask for a pair OmniGod eyes and even that may not be any more help than my Angeal-Eyes so open the eyes of my heart and then again I am not sure if that is the limitation here. What are you up to, my trusted one?
I do not want to ignore what you are saying to me so keep me in tune with you, I only want to hear your voice, though matter what the source... okay!
Needless to say that I am very anxious now that I have finally let go of the training wheels and in case, I make a boo boo I am getting on your case now, so please do not fail me now.
I want to trust you... is that a deal?
Thank you in advance!
December 04, 2007
Letting a breakthrough run its full course... priceless!
I am getting more and more in tune with how God works even though still, mostly in hindsight, after a poent dose of mindset renewal.
Too many stop signs in what seemed like a right of way intersection. I can only imagine what the motorist feels like when the light turns red and what is on the pedestrian’s mind when the light turns green at the most inconvenient moment!
Does that analogy make sense to you, God? That is how I have been feeling when, in the last little while all roads seem to have a closed or detour sign. I thought what the heck?
I was wondering what you were up to and which of my numbers of prayers came out your bingo bag. Whichever it is, the signs of the times did not seem any where close to sensible for a win.
What I have learnt from all the previous breakthroughs is that when I make even a small and sometimes-dangerous curve on the road, I am not the one driving. So instead of trying to help you steer clear, I just rest according to your definition of rest and development. I have to hand it to you though! I did not see that curve ball, well I have been sensing that you are getting in your I have to get to Nympha somehow gear; and, wham…bam…A breakthrough moment!
What I figured out is that everything I have ninety-nine reasons to call God a lunatic, I have just one reason to hold my tongue… and enjoy God's sense of humour. That does not always stop the mind from rumbling on and on; I just learn how to still listen, trust and obey my heart.
Bull’s Eye… that’s the answered prayer… help in trusting my heart! I tell you that was a hard act to follow and as usual it is very rewarding.
So I will continue to be still; and, know God in still in charge and has the final word!
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart .… In all your ways acknowledge him.”—Proverbs 3:5-6
Too many stop signs in what seemed like a right of way intersection. I can only imagine what the motorist feels like when the light turns red and what is on the pedestrian’s mind when the light turns green at the most inconvenient moment!
Does that analogy make sense to you, God? That is how I have been feeling when, in the last little while all roads seem to have a closed or detour sign. I thought what the heck?
I was wondering what you were up to and which of my numbers of prayers came out your bingo bag. Whichever it is, the signs of the times did not seem any where close to sensible for a win.
What I have learnt from all the previous breakthroughs is that when I make even a small and sometimes-dangerous curve on the road, I am not the one driving. So instead of trying to help you steer clear, I just rest according to your definition of rest and development. I have to hand it to you though! I did not see that curve ball, well I have been sensing that you are getting in your I have to get to Nympha somehow gear; and, wham…bam…A breakthrough moment!
What I figured out is that everything I have ninety-nine reasons to call God a lunatic, I have just one reason to hold my tongue… and enjoy God's sense of humour. That does not always stop the mind from rumbling on and on; I just learn how to still listen, trust and obey my heart.
Bull’s Eye… that’s the answered prayer… help in trusting my heart! I tell you that was a hard act to follow and as usual it is very rewarding.
So I will continue to be still; and, know God in still in charge and has the final word!
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart .… In all your ways acknowledge him.”—Proverbs 3:5-6
December 03, 2007
Enjoying my relationship with God even more readily!
I take God’s promise of “Come to me all you who labour and are heavily burdened. Take my yoke let me ease your burden because my toke is easy and my burden light”
At first when I kept rolling back into the precipice-wilderness- I thought yeah right! This had to be a false call. For a good while, more than I care to confess and still brazen enough to document I thought this offer from God was contradiction in terms because many of my biggest ouches seem to have worsened after exchanging vows with God, woyoyoy- talk about for better or worse in sickness and health till death do us part.
Forget about the marriage God; just forget it! Is that you idea of unconditional love and lifetime guarantee?
God decide to contest my divorce and took on my challenge and I am alive and ouchy to testify that though the worst may not be over, the best is at hand to enjoy… my attitude…my perception…my courage to take on God
No wonder God did not say anything… instead God just showed me!
A real Mc Coy, if you ask me. A God who is humble and willing to do what it takes to love me and help me love God back! Is that what unconditional love is! I betcha! I am in for the long haul! So far I promise to not turn away and instead just talk to God straight from the heart and expect things resolved in ways that no human help can suffice!
The serenity prayer must have really helped all who meditated and medicated on it and I am passing on this powerful baton to anyone who cannot find anything to hold on to when hope seems frail!
Listen, trust and obey the heart’s murmurs; that is what scripture means by listening within for all the answers are somewhere in there!
The confusion will dissolve, fade and return from whence it came.
It appears as though I have it easy and this is because I am determined to help myself stay focus on my attitude for this is what God uses to gauge my multitude of blessings! God will continue to provide. I suppose that I’d rather die and realize that my effort to be welcomed in the afterlife was already rewarded on earth than to leave this world and realize there’s no eternal life to reward me for all my dutiful deeds on earth. So I live as though heaven, earth, hell, resurrection and the Revelation are here and now and so I do my best to please God with every breath I take. Some days the breaths are more laboured than easy still the burdens it taken care of and that’s good enough!
That oughta keep my consciousness out of the closet and in God’s face. Psalm 139 must have been written to encourage me to do just that and now I can pray Psalm 32:8-9 without a fist fight with God.
At first when I kept rolling back into the precipice-wilderness- I thought yeah right! This had to be a false call. For a good while, more than I care to confess and still brazen enough to document I thought this offer from God was contradiction in terms because many of my biggest ouches seem to have worsened after exchanging vows with God, woyoyoy- talk about for better or worse in sickness and health till death do us part.
Forget about the marriage God; just forget it! Is that you idea of unconditional love and lifetime guarantee?
God decide to contest my divorce and took on my challenge and I am alive and ouchy to testify that though the worst may not be over, the best is at hand to enjoy… my attitude…my perception…my courage to take on God
No wonder God did not say anything… instead God just showed me!
A real Mc Coy, if you ask me. A God who is humble and willing to do what it takes to love me and help me love God back! Is that what unconditional love is! I betcha! I am in for the long haul! So far I promise to not turn away and instead just talk to God straight from the heart and expect things resolved in ways that no human help can suffice!
The serenity prayer must have really helped all who meditated and medicated on it and I am passing on this powerful baton to anyone who cannot find anything to hold on to when hope seems frail!
Listen, trust and obey the heart’s murmurs; that is what scripture means by listening within for all the answers are somewhere in there!
The confusion will dissolve, fade and return from whence it came.
It appears as though I have it easy and this is because I am determined to help myself stay focus on my attitude for this is what God uses to gauge my multitude of blessings! God will continue to provide. I suppose that I’d rather die and realize that my effort to be welcomed in the afterlife was already rewarded on earth than to leave this world and realize there’s no eternal life to reward me for all my dutiful deeds on earth. So I live as though heaven, earth, hell, resurrection and the Revelation are here and now and so I do my best to please God with every breath I take. Some days the breaths are more laboured than easy still the burdens it taken care of and that’s good enough!
That oughta keep my consciousness out of the closet and in God’s face. Psalm 139 must have been written to encourage me to do just that and now I can pray Psalm 32:8-9 without a fist fight with God.
December 02, 2007
Right before your very eyes, Angeal-Eyes...
Hello Sweetheart, this is God here!
Remember you ask me to give you a sign that would make your hairless head of hair stand as though you were going through a high powered tunnel or the world's highest roller coaster on the world's highest mountain?
Well what happened, so far, this morning was just a glimpse the size you asked for. Seat tight, there is much more coming your way! Much more of things that money cannot buy. That has been your most sincere request ever!
You see, I had to wait till you could handle it, and your patience paid off.
As much as I make no sense to you trust that I will make you into the best 'damned child' that I created in my image and likeness... and this is where all your ouches come into full spectrum!
If you believe nothing else, you better believe this!
There are lots of things you may be able to do much better now that I have given you your very own thorn in your flesh! Do not be deceived by the conditon of your flesh, becasue as you already know, I take close look at the condition of your heart- your spirit, not your flesh.
You promise me that you would not run away even though you hated the way I was proving my love for you and you know what? You are a girl after my very heart and that pleases me more than you will ever know or comprehend. That's is why I kept reminding you of the desires of your heart. That too is something I needed to establish, or rather, reestablish; by renewing or as you put it reprogramming your brain cells so you can continue to look on the bright side of the road.
You make me proud, girl you really make me shine and smile!
Tried tested and true; and remember, the rest is still unwritten and the power to help me is your gift of free will!!
Kudos!
God
Remember you ask me to give you a sign that would make your hairless head of hair stand as though you were going through a high powered tunnel or the world's highest roller coaster on the world's highest mountain?
Well what happened, so far, this morning was just a glimpse the size you asked for. Seat tight, there is much more coming your way! Much more of things that money cannot buy. That has been your most sincere request ever!
You see, I had to wait till you could handle it, and your patience paid off.
As much as I make no sense to you trust that I will make you into the best 'damned child' that I created in my image and likeness... and this is where all your ouches come into full spectrum!
If you believe nothing else, you better believe this!
There are lots of things you may be able to do much better now that I have given you your very own thorn in your flesh! Do not be deceived by the conditon of your flesh, becasue as you already know, I take close look at the condition of your heart- your spirit, not your flesh.
You promise me that you would not run away even though you hated the way I was proving my love for you and you know what? You are a girl after my very heart and that pleases me more than you will ever know or comprehend. That's is why I kept reminding you of the desires of your heart. That too is something I needed to establish, or rather, reestablish; by renewing or as you put it reprogramming your brain cells so you can continue to look on the bright side of the road.
You make me proud, girl you really make me shine and smile!
Tried tested and true; and remember, the rest is still unwritten and the power to help me is your gift of free will!!
Kudos!
God
November 30, 2007
up, up and away: Rational-emotional lifestyle...when the head joins the heart!
Another quality that flourishes in the garden is understanding; with time comes total acceptance of what is; something that baffles consciouness killers.
I cannot help stop anyone from torturing the mind; and abusing the physical body; their fear of approaching me or assuming that they know me without knowing me. The buck stops when anyone, and I mean anyone including myself, torments the spirit. That’s one of the reasons why I am constantly knocking heads with God. If I have to give up all what money can afford so as to preserve my soul then God had better bring forth all the promise of milk and honey, green pastures, still waters, food that nourishes, my very own heart's purpose and a suite in one of the many mansions that Jesus went ahead to prepare before he died ...
I have made it across the Rational-emotional Bridge; yet another answered prayer
There may be many, many more of those bridges to cross and I cannot stop right now... I am on a roll or in airline terms...up, up and away!
It was not too long after accusing my heart of being not so smart that I realize that I was not giving my heart the chance it needed to help me trust it because my mind was busy interfering with the heart’s signal. I ask God to help me to trust my heart a little more because though it may not always be so smart it was nothing that it did wrong… after so many bruises I thought that my heart was causing me, I stopped listening to it and it was then that my mind began its twisting and turning of the message that my heart was delivering pure and simple. Well no more of that as long as I continue to remain uncensored while I listen to my heart.
God said "BINGO! Another light bulb moment!"
I gave God a high five, then two thumbs up and said...
God works!
And God was pleased with my attitude of gratitude! After all God knows that is better than tithing money that I do not have and help that I cannot give or offer; for God loves a cheerful giver!
God smiled! No words necessary!
I cannot help stop anyone from torturing the mind; and abusing the physical body; their fear of approaching me or assuming that they know me without knowing me. The buck stops when anyone, and I mean anyone including myself, torments the spirit. That’s one of the reasons why I am constantly knocking heads with God. If I have to give up all what money can afford so as to preserve my soul then God had better bring forth all the promise of milk and honey, green pastures, still waters, food that nourishes, my very own heart's purpose and a suite in one of the many mansions that Jesus went ahead to prepare before he died ...
I have made it across the Rational-emotional Bridge; yet another answered prayer
There may be many, many more of those bridges to cross and I cannot stop right now... I am on a roll or in airline terms...up, up and away!
It was not too long after accusing my heart of being not so smart that I realize that I was not giving my heart the chance it needed to help me trust it because my mind was busy interfering with the heart’s signal. I ask God to help me to trust my heart a little more because though it may not always be so smart it was nothing that it did wrong… after so many bruises I thought that my heart was causing me, I stopped listening to it and it was then that my mind began its twisting and turning of the message that my heart was delivering pure and simple. Well no more of that as long as I continue to remain uncensored while I listen to my heart.
God said "BINGO! Another light bulb moment!"
I gave God a high five, then two thumbs up and said...
God works!
And God was pleased with my attitude of gratitude! After all God knows that is better than tithing money that I do not have and help that I cannot give or offer; for God loves a cheerful giver!
God smiled! No words necessary!
November 28, 2007
God-qualified...Working for God- fulltime ministry
The God of my understanding continues to keep me going strong, resilient and courageous by guiding me to envision and dream.
So long as my choices align with God I remain determined to move forward living and enjoying a life of accomplishment in God’s light of things that matter. I intend to continue to use my God-given talents to contribute to good; always keeping in mind, that God watches my motives and will compensate me accordingly. This is enough to make me do my work here on earth, fairly and cheerfully. To everything else I say no, thank you!
When I choose to see all things from this sacred perspective, I am living without limits and I am worth a lot, a lot more than the sparrows and the beautiful flowers that put King Solomon’s best outfit to shame! Is it any wonder God looks on the inside! God knows that on the outside a whole lot of people would not fit the bill.
I am not worthless. I am God-qualified… I am a child of God and I take this title very seriously!
True leadership does not need a clanging cymbal or skin-tearing whip to make a point.
WOW!WOW!WOW, God!
So long as my choices align with God I remain determined to move forward living and enjoying a life of accomplishment in God’s light of things that matter. I intend to continue to use my God-given talents to contribute to good; always keeping in mind, that God watches my motives and will compensate me accordingly. This is enough to make me do my work here on earth, fairly and cheerfully. To everything else I say no, thank you!
When I choose to see all things from this sacred perspective, I am living without limits and I am worth a lot, a lot more than the sparrows and the beautiful flowers that put King Solomon’s best outfit to shame! Is it any wonder God looks on the inside! God knows that on the outside a whole lot of people would not fit the bill.
I am not worthless. I am God-qualified… I am a child of God and I take this title very seriously!
True leadership does not need a clanging cymbal or skin-tearing whip to make a point.
WOW!WOW!WOW, God!
November 27, 2007
Sweet Silliness
Long-standing ploys of stupid suffering and shadows of foolish fear retract their drama from the ingredients of eternal life. The mascot of hereafter happiness removes its costume and continues its silic frolicking just the way the spirit likes it.
Maintaining an objective mind and sustaining a subjective soul have helped ease the impatience with universe timings of right conditions. Clarity amidst the seemingly increase in topsy-turvy happenings improves how I choose to go with the flow. Finding meaningful solutions to recover from rolling with the punches has contributed to my optimism.
Waiting and wishing for certainty of favourable ideas and outcomes no longer bust my trust in taking the first step, taking a stand, and going all the way with perseverance, inspiration and enthusiasm cheering on the radical, respectful, responsible pioneering prodigy- here and now.
Encouraging the acceptance of what is, as what is make it easy to courageously make patience a tool for knowing when the dots are ready and how I choose to join them to make everyday living precious though matter what appears as uncomfortable encounters or difficult transitions.
Maintaining an objective mind and sustaining a subjective soul have helped ease the impatience with universe timings of right conditions. Clarity amidst the seemingly increase in topsy-turvy happenings improves how I choose to go with the flow. Finding meaningful solutions to recover from rolling with the punches has contributed to my optimism.
Waiting and wishing for certainty of favourable ideas and outcomes no longer bust my trust in taking the first step, taking a stand, and going all the way with perseverance, inspiration and enthusiasm cheering on the radical, respectful, responsible pioneering prodigy- here and now.
Encouraging the acceptance of what is, as what is make it easy to courageously make patience a tool for knowing when the dots are ready and how I choose to join them to make everyday living precious though matter what appears as uncomfortable encounters or difficult transitions.
November 26, 2007
Pruning the dry foliage, a must!
There is a saying that goes 'with God it is all or nothing"
Wow God!
What do I still need to let go to satisfy this condition? You got to help me with this one, buddy.
In case you are waiting for my permission to give you the right of way even when you are the one in the driver's seat then I command you to take it away, whatever is in my mind that is still holding back from totally surrendering and where you are concerned I dare say submit to you, you have my permission to remove; and in its place replace what you intended to be there.
Just hold my hand so I do not freak out so much when I feel like I have fallen and you are not there to pick me up... okay? Okay, there is still a bit of trauma every time I know it is time to continue life with you by my side as Almighty God! There, I admit it!
So I am all for you pruning out the dry foliage! I don't know what I am getting into buddy so forgive my dread of what if...what if!
Sorry, and thank you for understanding that I still want to go on where you lead me even though I do not like the anxiety that roars it ugly head each time I decide to follow my heart.
You know that too!
Wow God!
What do I still need to let go to satisfy this condition? You got to help me with this one, buddy.
In case you are waiting for my permission to give you the right of way even when you are the one in the driver's seat then I command you to take it away, whatever is in my mind that is still holding back from totally surrendering and where you are concerned I dare say submit to you, you have my permission to remove; and in its place replace what you intended to be there.
Just hold my hand so I do not freak out so much when I feel like I have fallen and you are not there to pick me up... okay? Okay, there is still a bit of trauma every time I know it is time to continue life with you by my side as Almighty God! There, I admit it!
So I am all for you pruning out the dry foliage! I don't know what I am getting into buddy so forgive my dread of what if...what if!
Sorry, and thank you for understanding that I still want to go on where you lead me even though I do not like the anxiety that roars it ugly head each time I decide to follow my heart.
You know that too!
November 24, 2007
Crazy, radical or assertive: God's take on the matter
Angeal-Eyes, You know that I am ready when you are and that even though I am God I need your okay each time I put you in the refiners fire. I gave you the choice to decide... I gave you your freedom and I cannot take that back.
I am patiently waiting until you back off and let me take you where you want me to take you. Now that seem like a bind right there, because even though I gave you that much liberty, I as the loving God I am will not let you go astray because of the free will. I know you must hate me for that and I understand your plight, so just like a child is totally dependent on its caregivers help so I know you depend on me and you want my word that I will never fail you!
Okay, the truth is, I do not want to lose you either so I will do as I intend. You are not off the hook though... you have to let me do things my way when I take over when I know that if I don't you won't make it alone.. that's why I am always there!
I know that you sometimes feel like you failed me, even after I told you that nothing you do frightens me.. you still have a hard time trusting me on that one. I am sorry that you feel that you have been told that you are coo coo- trust me when I say that you are not! One day you will be so glad that you gave in to me that you will totally reclaim your authenticity and that is all I want to encourage you to do... not to doubt yourself... not to doubt me so much and so I will give you good reason, measured tight and still overflowing.
I can only keep reminding you that I intend to always honour my guarantee... all my guarantees!
Your hero,
God!
I am patiently waiting until you back off and let me take you where you want me to take you. Now that seem like a bind right there, because even though I gave you that much liberty, I as the loving God I am will not let you go astray because of the free will. I know you must hate me for that and I understand your plight, so just like a child is totally dependent on its caregivers help so I know you depend on me and you want my word that I will never fail you!
Okay, the truth is, I do not want to lose you either so I will do as I intend. You are not off the hook though... you have to let me do things my way when I take over when I know that if I don't you won't make it alone.. that's why I am always there!
I know that you sometimes feel like you failed me, even after I told you that nothing you do frightens me.. you still have a hard time trusting me on that one. I am sorry that you feel that you have been told that you are coo coo- trust me when I say that you are not! One day you will be so glad that you gave in to me that you will totally reclaim your authenticity and that is all I want to encourage you to do... not to doubt yourself... not to doubt me so much and so I will give you good reason, measured tight and still overflowing.
I can only keep reminding you that I intend to always honour my guarantee... all my guarantees!
Your hero,
God!
November 22, 2007
Extreme Faith: setting the tone for the rest of my life
Dear God
The struggle to overcome losing my mind is raging like an earthquake measuring '50' on the Richter scale. I know that you are carrying me- after all no human strength can protect me or anyone else for that matter, from life's tempest.
I have a lot of faith to trust that you are shielding me and I am almost ready to admit that you have taken over the battle- then and again you constantly remind me that the battle is yours so I back off and this is the most solacing move I make and conversely it is that choice which is the most nerve wrecking.
And then all kinds of questions, yes, myriads of question dialogue with doubt about God and they use my mind as the battleground.
Does that make sense to you, God?
Then please share with me your ways of overcoming these feelings that your truth is not farfetched. I so want to continue believing that you God have set me free to choose life; yet, I feel that the road less traveled is a choice that keeps me feeling like I made a serious mistake when I chose you, God.
I have made a whole lot of progress in defining my concept of you, God, and that decision is very consoling as I continue to transform my mind and create my own idea and belief of who you are. Please, please, God hang in there with me as I continue to decipher and shred the false notion of you. These myths of who you are seem to the hardest brain cells to reprogram... so help me God!
Thank you for the events that seem to be taking me back in time so I can readdress the phony description of you, OmniGod.
Promise me that you will help me to see your purpose in every joy, challenge, broken dreams- that’s if they are broken- whatever you choose to remove, repair, restore, replace or sever, strengthen, sooth and save; I accept your deal for I believe you know what you are doing and why.
I feel that even though I seem to be brashing you, I am nowhere close to turning my back away from you or even entertaining the thought of letting you off my sight. So I am holding my end of my promise, come hell or high water. If anything I will hold you hostage until you answer all my prayers- I know you will so I will release you from the cage in my mental faculty in order for you to complete the work you started. I surrender to you… like I have learnt: when I am weak you are strong!
So it is!
The struggle to overcome losing my mind is raging like an earthquake measuring '50' on the Richter scale. I know that you are carrying me- after all no human strength can protect me or anyone else for that matter, from life's tempest.
I have a lot of faith to trust that you are shielding me and I am almost ready to admit that you have taken over the battle- then and again you constantly remind me that the battle is yours so I back off and this is the most solacing move I make and conversely it is that choice which is the most nerve wrecking.
And then all kinds of questions, yes, myriads of question dialogue with doubt about God and they use my mind as the battleground.
Does that make sense to you, God?
Then please share with me your ways of overcoming these feelings that your truth is not farfetched. I so want to continue believing that you God have set me free to choose life; yet, I feel that the road less traveled is a choice that keeps me feeling like I made a serious mistake when I chose you, God.
I have made a whole lot of progress in defining my concept of you, God, and that decision is very consoling as I continue to transform my mind and create my own idea and belief of who you are. Please, please, God hang in there with me as I continue to decipher and shred the false notion of you. These myths of who you are seem to the hardest brain cells to reprogram... so help me God!
Thank you for the events that seem to be taking me back in time so I can readdress the phony description of you, OmniGod.
Promise me that you will help me to see your purpose in every joy, challenge, broken dreams- that’s if they are broken- whatever you choose to remove, repair, restore, replace or sever, strengthen, sooth and save; I accept your deal for I believe you know what you are doing and why.
I feel that even though I seem to be brashing you, I am nowhere close to turning my back away from you or even entertaining the thought of letting you off my sight. So I am holding my end of my promise, come hell or high water. If anything I will hold you hostage until you answer all my prayers- I know you will so I will release you from the cage in my mental faculty in order for you to complete the work you started. I surrender to you… like I have learnt: when I am weak you are strong!
So it is!
November 21, 2007
Healing versus Cure: Staying Strong
One thing that I can see being repetitious on every miracle Jesus performed was his primary objective for doing it… he was always concerned about the spiritual condition. It was only after he worked on their mustard size faith and even gross disbelief as in the case of the rich man whose son was ill, did he attend to their direct request.
Well I am a girl after God’s own heart and so I accept the healing without even knowing for sure that my sciatic nerve will regenerate enough cells to manifest a cure.
With or without anyone else at my side, I am determined to accept my life in full, yes the whole package from God; and this is certainly well with my soul!
Thank you God for the serenity to accept the things that I cannot change; courage to change the things that I can and the wisdom to know the difference!
Well I am a girl after God’s own heart and so I accept the healing without even knowing for sure that my sciatic nerve will regenerate enough cells to manifest a cure.
With or without anyone else at my side, I am determined to accept my life in full, yes the whole package from God; and this is certainly well with my soul!
Thank you God for the serenity to accept the things that I cannot change; courage to change the things that I can and the wisdom to know the difference!
November 20, 2007
Rendering to Caesar what is God’s
Rendering to Caesar what is God’s
Any deed or even faintest idea that tempts or forces mankind to constantly comply, compromises the command of render onto Caesar what is Caesar’s and render onto God what is God’s. After all God owns everything and only loans it to us while on earth! God request the first ten percent of our returns and all we have left after Caesar dips its hand in our pockets is crumbs- a symptom of one of the many modern-day plagues. Knowing God she does not want crumbs! After all can we not give to Caesar after we give God? Caesar is so afraid that there won’t be any left over after we give God that they override God’s Law and expect God to hold back its wrath when the ‘empires’ are falling!
The day is coming when all those who sow in tears and hungry bellies will reap and keep the cream of the crop!
I do not know when, all I know is that God is a just God and justice is served!
Any deed or even faintest idea that tempts or forces mankind to constantly comply, compromises the command of render onto Caesar what is Caesar’s and render onto God what is God’s. After all God owns everything and only loans it to us while on earth! God request the first ten percent of our returns and all we have left after Caesar dips its hand in our pockets is crumbs- a symptom of one of the many modern-day plagues. Knowing God she does not want crumbs! After all can we not give to Caesar after we give God? Caesar is so afraid that there won’t be any left over after we give God that they override God’s Law and expect God to hold back its wrath when the ‘empires’ are falling!
The day is coming when all those who sow in tears and hungry bellies will reap and keep the cream of the crop!
I do not know when, all I know is that God is a just God and justice is served!
November 19, 2007
Winter’s Warranty
Winter’s Warranty
Snowflakes and flurries
Heralds the start of winter
Cold days are ahead
We fall back in time
And wait patiently for spring.
Snowflakes and flurries
Heralds the start of winter
Cold days are ahead
We fall back in time
And wait patiently for spring.
November 18, 2007
A glimpse of Heaven:organized chaos-How God Works
Isn’t interesting how people’s impression of me changes when I prove that action is really louder than words. So many decades of writing what’s in my heart has made me not care too much to justify what God already knows!
So many decades of writing what is in my heart continues to encourage me to speak the truth with love…
I am the first one to admit that the side effect of my domesticated tone needs a lot of improvement and it is not for lack of wanting to speak composed and poised. The truth of the matter is I just rather have my feelings and expression very congruent and God fully understands at all times!
Many people’s genuine care and understanding sprout, bloom, grow and some continue to develop understanding even though it is after they walk in another person’s moccasins. This is the best barometer that indicates how genuine someone is- they speak the truth without omission or act contrary to the truth.
It is not easy, Solomon himself proclaimed in Proverbs 10: “someone who holds back the truth causes trouble, but the one who openly criticizes works for peace.” He also states in Proverbs 16: 23 that insincere talk that hides what you are really thinking is like a fine glazed on a cheap pot. These are words to live by as I continue to own my truth and take charge of my accountability and speak the truth with love, justice and equal rights as my motives.
Sadly, yet very true, is the proverb which Solomon acclaims in Proverbs 20:30: “Sometimes it takes a painful experience to make us change our ways.’ And I add... to make people submit to the one true God.
Since I know how dangerous it is to be concerned with what others think of me instead of trusting God I better spend the rest of my life with God giving God first place in my life… after all that is what God ask of me; then trust all things to work favourably. The things in and of themselves were the very things that I almost use as excuse to call God a liar only to find that it was my pants that were almost on fire!
So many decades of writing what is in my heart continues to encourage me to speak the truth with love…
I am the first one to admit that the side effect of my domesticated tone needs a lot of improvement and it is not for lack of wanting to speak composed and poised. The truth of the matter is I just rather have my feelings and expression very congruent and God fully understands at all times!
Many people’s genuine care and understanding sprout, bloom, grow and some continue to develop understanding even though it is after they walk in another person’s moccasins. This is the best barometer that indicates how genuine someone is- they speak the truth without omission or act contrary to the truth.
It is not easy, Solomon himself proclaimed in Proverbs 10: “someone who holds back the truth causes trouble, but the one who openly criticizes works for peace.” He also states in Proverbs 16: 23 that insincere talk that hides what you are really thinking is like a fine glazed on a cheap pot. These are words to live by as I continue to own my truth and take charge of my accountability and speak the truth with love, justice and equal rights as my motives.
Sadly, yet very true, is the proverb which Solomon acclaims in Proverbs 20:30: “Sometimes it takes a painful experience to make us change our ways.’ And I add... to make people submit to the one true God.
Since I know how dangerous it is to be concerned with what others think of me instead of trusting God I better spend the rest of my life with God giving God first place in my life… after all that is what God ask of me; then trust all things to work favourably. The things in and of themselves were the very things that I almost use as excuse to call God a liar only to find that it was my pants that were almost on fire!
November 17, 2007
Straight-Up!
Compliance of eligibility for living with integrity and self responsible behaviours requires contamination of the body and murder of the soul- nothing close to God’s law.
Life Insurance, Social Policies, Democracy, Political Promises to me fall under one category- Death Assurance. When God offered the choice of life or death, good or evil, honesty or injustice he did not mean any harm, or that one should do harm, for this is the greatest dishonour of humanity... of human life.
I see this as supporting evidence of the message in the gospel of Matthew when Jesus told the lawmakers that they heap heavy burdens on the backs of the people and they do not lift a finger to help them to carry it… and later on, this is what God commanded the prophet to write… a time will come when the oppressed will be free. I know I am; and the only way out was to let God transform and renew my memory and imprint good stuff or as the bible says… separate the wheat (thoughts) from the weed (thoughts).
That was tough! That too, was possible. And if God can do it for me God can too it for everybody. No need to let what I cannot do stop me from doing what I can as God commands, with or without the support of anyone else!
No need for Social Policy, which in modern day, is the equivalent to what Jesus blasted the lawmakers, governing bodies and tax collectors of his day!
That is a message I will put in my pipe and smoke. That is a potent dose of real hard fact and real world faith and I can never go wrong taking this prescription instead of the ones that some of the 'licensed' drug-dealers and murderers push for a profit at the expense of their souls.
There is one thing I honour about my GP: She is a doctor who takes her vow of “to do no harm and to do no more harm” very, very seriously. Do you know what she told me lately? I think God gave her that prescription for me and I am taking it very seriously, without harmful side effects: this is what she said: “God must have good reason to give you such pain in spite of all the good efforts to attend to yourself… trust that God will use you to do better things and please, do not disappoint God!” The tears of relief and reassurance rolled down my cheeks with no shame and she did not feel embarrass because she knows the truth sets people free to be the person God designed them to be.
WOW! A servant with a lot of integrity!
Thank God, that there are people who look at the big picture and help others look at the big picture, even when it is scary. Living honestly is very gutsy; still it is the best way to live a fulfilled life in hell or heaven!
Like Robin William stated in the movie 'Patch Adams': "death and transference are not the enemies"!
And the psalmist boldly states, "there is nothing a good person can do when everything falls apart". It makes sense to me now....like Celine Dion sings" it's all coming back to me and my heart will go on forever! That to me, is everlasting life and eternity!
I can do nothing about death, hell or heaven or fixing people even with my best intent. I can, however, do something about living well and encouraging people to attend to the life God endowed them with. Unlike machines that can be replaced in a flash, the body can thrive in optimal condition only when it is treated with dignity and self-respect.
My name is Nympha Angeal-Eyes Francis and this is how I see the facts behind the facts... the message behind the message and, I welcome and thank the spirit of confrontation for taking responsibility for my health and wellness with or without anyone else, trusting that God provides!
Life Insurance, Social Policies, Democracy, Political Promises to me fall under one category- Death Assurance. When God offered the choice of life or death, good or evil, honesty or injustice he did not mean any harm, or that one should do harm, for this is the greatest dishonour of humanity... of human life.
I see this as supporting evidence of the message in the gospel of Matthew when Jesus told the lawmakers that they heap heavy burdens on the backs of the people and they do not lift a finger to help them to carry it… and later on, this is what God commanded the prophet to write… a time will come when the oppressed will be free. I know I am; and the only way out was to let God transform and renew my memory and imprint good stuff or as the bible says… separate the wheat (thoughts) from the weed (thoughts).
That was tough! That too, was possible. And if God can do it for me God can too it for everybody. No need to let what I cannot do stop me from doing what I can as God commands, with or without the support of anyone else!
No need for Social Policy, which in modern day, is the equivalent to what Jesus blasted the lawmakers, governing bodies and tax collectors of his day!
That is a message I will put in my pipe and smoke. That is a potent dose of real hard fact and real world faith and I can never go wrong taking this prescription instead of the ones that some of the 'licensed' drug-dealers and murderers push for a profit at the expense of their souls.
There is one thing I honour about my GP: She is a doctor who takes her vow of “to do no harm and to do no more harm” very, very seriously. Do you know what she told me lately? I think God gave her that prescription for me and I am taking it very seriously, without harmful side effects: this is what she said: “God must have good reason to give you such pain in spite of all the good efforts to attend to yourself… trust that God will use you to do better things and please, do not disappoint God!” The tears of relief and reassurance rolled down my cheeks with no shame and she did not feel embarrass because she knows the truth sets people free to be the person God designed them to be.
WOW! A servant with a lot of integrity!
Thank God, that there are people who look at the big picture and help others look at the big picture, even when it is scary. Living honestly is very gutsy; still it is the best way to live a fulfilled life in hell or heaven!
Like Robin William stated in the movie 'Patch Adams': "death and transference are not the enemies"!
And the psalmist boldly states, "there is nothing a good person can do when everything falls apart". It makes sense to me now....like Celine Dion sings" it's all coming back to me and my heart will go on forever! That to me, is everlasting life and eternity!
I can do nothing about death, hell or heaven or fixing people even with my best intent. I can, however, do something about living well and encouraging people to attend to the life God endowed them with. Unlike machines that can be replaced in a flash, the body can thrive in optimal condition only when it is treated with dignity and self-respect.
My name is Nympha Angeal-Eyes Francis and this is how I see the facts behind the facts... the message behind the message and, I welcome and thank the spirit of confrontation for taking responsibility for my health and wellness with or without anyone else, trusting that God provides!
November 16, 2007
Reassurance for the daily fray
I am assured that God has answered my heart’s prayer. I cooperate with the way God chooses to deliver divine outcome, freely and completely.
Life’s events had been causing ripples and waves on my outward circumstances yet I have the promise of God and so I maintain soul-deep living faith that nothing can disturb the peace and strength of God within me.
Frankly, that is all I have to hold on to and it makes no sense in the human realm and that is why I know that it is God talking to me just like Father Abraham... well I finally hold steadfast the story of Abraham and Sarah.
Call me crazy because I choose to take on God's approach... I must be crazy! It is well with my soul and definitely two thumbs up with God!!
Life’s events had been causing ripples and waves on my outward circumstances yet I have the promise of God and so I maintain soul-deep living faith that nothing can disturb the peace and strength of God within me.
Frankly, that is all I have to hold on to and it makes no sense in the human realm and that is why I know that it is God talking to me just like Father Abraham... well I finally hold steadfast the story of Abraham and Sarah.
Call me crazy because I choose to take on God's approach... I must be crazy! It is well with my soul and definitely two thumbs up with God!!
November 14, 2007
Healthy relationship's blooming
Sorry that I’ve had to ‘whack’ you for so long. Chasing you was beginning to get to me because as you know, that is not my style still I will do it when all else seem to not e enough to invigorate our passion; something I know that you really need and want from me and I did not want to wait until you were either on the brink of being too awry of me or when you were downright burnout from trying too hard to maintain our relationship.
The thing is, you already are where I need you to be; I just have a challenging time making you consistently believe me.
You have no idea… unscribe that- you know jolly well how much I want you to work on in my vineyard and I know how much you really want to. After all, I have set you aside for some pretty big gigs, you know; and, come what may, I will continue to send whatever I can to get your attention where I need it to be.
Come on Angeal-Eyes, I am head over heels for you!
My love for you is bigger than the ocean, wider than the sea. Tell me something Nympha Angeal-Eyes Francis... tell me something… why do you suppose I made the sky so vast, eh? Why? Well I’ll tell you why. It is to show you how much I love you and if you think that the buck stops here, think again- because my love for you is stronger than mountains of life situations!
The thing is, you already are where I need you to be; I just have a challenging time making you consistently believe me.
You have no idea… unscribe that- you know jolly well how much I want you to work on in my vineyard and I know how much you really want to. After all, I have set you aside for some pretty big gigs, you know; and, come what may, I will continue to send whatever I can to get your attention where I need it to be.
Come on Angeal-Eyes, I am head over heels for you!
My love for you is bigger than the ocean, wider than the sea. Tell me something Nympha Angeal-Eyes Francis... tell me something… why do you suppose I made the sky so vast, eh? Why? Well I’ll tell you why. It is to show you how much I love you and if you think that the buck stops here, think again- because my love for you is stronger than mountains of life situations!
Everything about you
The way you smile
The way you speak
The way you laugh
Makes me so happy
The way you write
The way you walk
The way you sing
Makes me so happy
The way you dance
The way you comb your hair
The way you bond with me
Makes me so happy
Everything about you
Very, very good
Everything about you
Makes me so happy
I know for sure
Now and, forevermore
Life create Nympha Angeal-Eyes Francis
The way you smile
The way you speak
The way you laugh
Makes me so happy
The way you write
The way you walk
The way you sing
Makes me so happy
The way you dance
The way you comb your hair
The way you bond with me
Makes me so happy
Everything about you
Very, very good
Everything about you
Makes me so happy
I know for sure
Now and, forevermore
Life create Nympha Angeal-Eyes Francis
Very, very good!
Absolutely nothing can change that fact. Do you get that, Angeal-Eyes?
November 13, 2007
A new sense of direction
I took on God’s offer very, very seriously. When God said “come follow me and I will show you how much better my payoff is” I turned the other way because I did not like God’s terms and conditions and did not want to suffer at God’s hands anymore than I felt that I already had and the dread of ending up in hell did not console me one bit.
Asking God to leave me alone each time God became too visible in my walks of life I dismissed God, still God would not stay way. I did not suffer at God’s hands but always why God did not do something before I abandoned God for good. God just kept ignoring me well then and again in hindsight I had to confess that this is what I asked God to do even though I was hoping that God would stop me from not giving God the chance to show me God Essence!
Many decades have passed on and that war was getting more and more brutal. Why I held on to God I know not all I can say is that was the lifeline that has me alive today.
I know that God clearly understand why I was doubtful of God being my best friend and lifelong partner and soul, sole provider... When God kept reminding me of the sparrows and even sent one to sing me a lullaby to gently put me back to sleep after an episode with the brain cell that wanted to remind me of all I have lost, I decided that was enough… so God kept me up enough nights to talk to me when I had no one to honestly talk to. I thought ghee God give me a break! I used to just read the bible even though I felt locking it up in the bookshelf!
Oh well all I can say is thank God for removing all the weed (false messages and beliefs) and replacing with wheat (God purpose) before more weeds grew in my mental garden.
Is it any wonder that while I did not intend to live singly al my life so far, I was not about to settle for less than God promised. Well after all this I may be deemed to be picky, fresh and grandiose; however more than ever I am looking for the someone God created to be vulnerable enough to wear his heart on his shoulder- all the time with me because this is all I have to offer- sincere, heartfelt love that has been tried, test and proven true by my Maker, God.
Is it any wonder that God is a jealous God and would not let anyone offer anything less that what God can and will offer and provide!
This is my offer, my only offer. Take it or leave it
Thank God for the lesson in authentic intimate relationship, God. I could have only that directly from God!
Asking God to leave me alone each time God became too visible in my walks of life I dismissed God, still God would not stay way. I did not suffer at God’s hands but always why God did not do something before I abandoned God for good. God just kept ignoring me well then and again in hindsight I had to confess that this is what I asked God to do even though I was hoping that God would stop me from not giving God the chance to show me God Essence!
Many decades have passed on and that war was getting more and more brutal. Why I held on to God I know not all I can say is that was the lifeline that has me alive today.
I know that God clearly understand why I was doubtful of God being my best friend and lifelong partner and soul, sole provider... When God kept reminding me of the sparrows and even sent one to sing me a lullaby to gently put me back to sleep after an episode with the brain cell that wanted to remind me of all I have lost, I decided that was enough… so God kept me up enough nights to talk to me when I had no one to honestly talk to. I thought ghee God give me a break! I used to just read the bible even though I felt locking it up in the bookshelf!
Oh well all I can say is thank God for removing all the weed (false messages and beliefs) and replacing with wheat (God purpose) before more weeds grew in my mental garden.
Is it any wonder that while I did not intend to live singly al my life so far, I was not about to settle for less than God promised. Well after all this I may be deemed to be picky, fresh and grandiose; however more than ever I am looking for the someone God created to be vulnerable enough to wear his heart on his shoulder- all the time with me because this is all I have to offer- sincere, heartfelt love that has been tried, test and proven true by my Maker, God.
Is it any wonder that God is a jealous God and would not let anyone offer anything less that what God can and will offer and provide!
This is my offer, my only offer. Take it or leave it
Thank God for the lesson in authentic intimate relationship, God. I could have only that directly from God!
November 12, 2007
Shameless Surrender!
When my confidence was shaken, my faith became very brittle; still the desire to illuminate a passionate relationship with God consummated my being. I wondered about and pondered on the heart’s soldiering on to convince me to commit my life to God when I felt completely crushed- kaput. I had this felt sense that my breath did not need my body. Oooooh! was I livid with God… or maybe it was with myself… what’s the difference! There really was a point where it was hard to tell the difference…I guess it was because my faith was so ‘brittle’.
I want my body fully restored and if is it not one thing is another so what the heck. I know that this body is only as good as it outlast death and serve no real deal when breath returns to its blowing in the wind status. Until then I want to interact at gut level- heart to heart- one on one with the Almighty. This is serious business, soul wrenching and drenching business.
I poured out my hurts, revealed my feelings, confessing my booboos, disclosing my doubt, admitting my fears, acknowledging my agnosticism and cultivating my courage until they spilled all over heaven’s red carpet... thank God it was already red.
It was then that I gave God leeway long enough to re-establish and realign my whole being so as to let the Divine plan for my life come in full circle. After all the merry go round on the labyrinth, I am happy to be me… just as I am! I know that I thought that I had already gotten to that point; somehow though, I lost sight of that certainty.
Thank God that I had all the time that’s required for the purifying, refining, restoring, reviving process; and I, even if I thought I did not… God made sure I did because until then nothing much would have really mattered.
Thank God for my backsliding faith. As the saying goes, one step forward and countless step backwards to build the momentum to leap forward to the exact spot I need be.
I am glad that I kept a firm grip on my preserving optimism in God’s pledge to take care of me even when my sprouts seemed barren. When God seem distant is when I most believed in the intangible evidence… a very trying assignment- where God is concerned it is not just an assignment, it is a command and so far I have managed to advance to the next lesson…. obedience in the area of trusting God amidst my qualms and trembling. By the way, these qualms have begun to recede; and, if they were my hairline; I’d be naturally bald by now.
God must be really working at the core of my being- somewhere I have never allowed anyone to trespass- my very own private place and there is God poking, jabbing and probing... yauwch!
I almost did not even let God in- that was hardly possible and that obviously was not part of God’s deal once I gave permission to steer the wheel and God’s will into my well being.
I have no clue how arriving at this point of the destination was possible; then and again with God all things are possible especially when matters are not of human doing.
What more can I say!
How else could I know what I am made of…really made of!
God knows!
I took on God’s offer very, very seriously. When God said “come follow me and I will show you how much better my payoff is” I turned the other way because I did not like God’s terms and conditions and did not want to suffer at God’s hands anymore than I felt that I already had and the dread of ending up in hell did not console me one bit. Asking God to leave me alone each time God became too visible in my walks of life I dismissed God, still God would not stay away. I did not suffer at God’s hands but always I ask why God did not do something before I abandoned God for good. God just kept ignoring me- well then and again in hindsight- I had to confess that this is what I asked God to do even though I was hoping that God would stop me from not giving God the chance to show me God Essence!
Many decades have passed on and that war was getting more and more brutal. Why I held on to God I know not! All I can say is that was the lifeline that has me alive today.
I know that God clearly understand why I was doubtful of God being my best friend and lifelong partner and soul, sole provider... When God kept reminding me of the sparrows and even sent one to sing me a lullaby to gently put me back to sleep after an episode with the brain cell that wanted to remind me of all I have lost, I decided that was enough… so God kept me up enough nights to talk to me when I had no one to honestly talk to. I thought ghee God give me a break! I used to just read the bible even though I felt like locking it up in the bookshelf- and, I did! Eventually
Oh well all I can say is thank God for removing all the weed (false messages and beliefs) and replacing with wheat (God purpose) before more weeds grew in my mental garden.
Is it any wonder that while I did not intend to live singularly or singly all my life so far, I was not about to settle for less than God can deliver. I may be deemed to be picky, fresh and grandiose and I accept my own ability to ask Gof for exactly the qualities I am worthy of and to encorage my tiwn flame to embrace his full worth. Therefore, I continue to love myself while the someone God created to be vulnerable enough to be willing to be his authentic self and strong enough to respect my powerful self reveals himself . I already have all I have to offer- sincere, heartfelt passionate love, respect and self responsible that has been tried, test and proven true by my Maker and Making.
Is it any wonder that God is a jealous God and would not let anyone offer anything less than what God can offer and provide!
This is my offer, my only offer. Take it or leave it. Accpet or decline
Thank God for the lesson on authentic intimate relationship!
I want my body fully restored and if is it not one thing is another so what the heck. I know that this body is only as good as it outlast death and serve no real deal when breath returns to its blowing in the wind status. Until then I want to interact at gut level- heart to heart- one on one with the Almighty. This is serious business, soul wrenching and drenching business.
I poured out my hurts, revealed my feelings, confessing my booboos, disclosing my doubt, admitting my fears, acknowledging my agnosticism and cultivating my courage until they spilled all over heaven’s red carpet... thank God it was already red.
It was then that I gave God leeway long enough to re-establish and realign my whole being so as to let the Divine plan for my life come in full circle. After all the merry go round on the labyrinth, I am happy to be me… just as I am! I know that I thought that I had already gotten to that point; somehow though, I lost sight of that certainty.
Thank God that I had all the time that’s required for the purifying, refining, restoring, reviving process; and I, even if I thought I did not… God made sure I did because until then nothing much would have really mattered.
Thank God for my backsliding faith. As the saying goes, one step forward and countless step backwards to build the momentum to leap forward to the exact spot I need be.
I am glad that I kept a firm grip on my preserving optimism in God’s pledge to take care of me even when my sprouts seemed barren. When God seem distant is when I most believed in the intangible evidence… a very trying assignment- where God is concerned it is not just an assignment, it is a command and so far I have managed to advance to the next lesson…. obedience in the area of trusting God amidst my qualms and trembling. By the way, these qualms have begun to recede; and, if they were my hairline; I’d be naturally bald by now.
God must be really working at the core of my being- somewhere I have never allowed anyone to trespass- my very own private place and there is God poking, jabbing and probing... yauwch!
I almost did not even let God in- that was hardly possible and that obviously was not part of God’s deal once I gave permission to steer the wheel and God’s will into my well being.
I have no clue how arriving at this point of the destination was possible; then and again with God all things are possible especially when matters are not of human doing.
What more can I say!
How else could I know what I am made of…really made of!
God knows!
I took on God’s offer very, very seriously. When God said “come follow me and I will show you how much better my payoff is” I turned the other way because I did not like God’s terms and conditions and did not want to suffer at God’s hands anymore than I felt that I already had and the dread of ending up in hell did not console me one bit. Asking God to leave me alone each time God became too visible in my walks of life I dismissed God, still God would not stay away. I did not suffer at God’s hands but always I ask why God did not do something before I abandoned God for good. God just kept ignoring me- well then and again in hindsight- I had to confess that this is what I asked God to do even though I was hoping that God would stop me from not giving God the chance to show me God Essence!
Many decades have passed on and that war was getting more and more brutal. Why I held on to God I know not! All I can say is that was the lifeline that has me alive today.
I know that God clearly understand why I was doubtful of God being my best friend and lifelong partner and soul, sole provider... When God kept reminding me of the sparrows and even sent one to sing me a lullaby to gently put me back to sleep after an episode with the brain cell that wanted to remind me of all I have lost, I decided that was enough… so God kept me up enough nights to talk to me when I had no one to honestly talk to. I thought ghee God give me a break! I used to just read the bible even though I felt like locking it up in the bookshelf- and, I did! Eventually
Oh well all I can say is thank God for removing all the weed (false messages and beliefs) and replacing with wheat (God purpose) before more weeds grew in my mental garden.
Is it any wonder that while I did not intend to live singularly or singly all my life so far, I was not about to settle for less than God can deliver. I may be deemed to be picky, fresh and grandiose and I accept my own ability to ask Gof for exactly the qualities I am worthy of and to encorage my tiwn flame to embrace his full worth. Therefore, I continue to love myself while the someone God created to be vulnerable enough to be willing to be his authentic self and strong enough to respect my powerful self reveals himself . I already have all I have to offer- sincere, heartfelt passionate love, respect and self responsible that has been tried, test and proven true by my Maker and Making.
Is it any wonder that God is a jealous God and would not let anyone offer anything less than what God can offer and provide!
This is my offer, my only offer. Take it or leave it. Accpet or decline
Thank God for the lesson on authentic intimate relationship!
November 11, 2007
NAEFPBPWMBIANFWYY
I know that you’re sometimes disappointed with my pace, my timing, my style, and my plan on how I intend to prove my love, care and passion for you still have to believe that I am working in your life even when you do not feel that I do.
You know that I could whip up an instant cure for all your ouches but all would accomplish is short-term relief that only fools you into thinking that all is well and coax you into reverting to doing more of what contributes to slowing down your progress. There is no quick fix- short cut to replace the way I do the things I do and only I can do; be patient with yourself and please be patient with me because I am not finished with you yet.
I have all the time and time is also on your side because I AM is on your side so reeeeelaaaaaaaaaaaaaax; sloooooooow dowwwwwwwwwwwn- rest assured that I will wake you up when my time for you to spring into action. I have programmed everything you need to know, everyone who scheduled to be on your path and everyone whom you are scheduled to be on their path just when, where, why, how, I choose. Trust me on this and your frustration, anxiety and doubt will cease to prance around your sanity.
You have made so much more progress than your circumstances can ever confirm and conversely just being able to let me take full charge of all because your circumstances succeeded in bringing you and I closer than any abracadabra cure
Enjoy watching your spiritual vision grow; anticipate truth; and, trust that I will let you know everything you need to know just when you need it best!
Let’s continue to bond and I guarantee you that nothing will disturb our relationship that we cannot, together, overcome.
Thank you Angeal-Eyes… thank you!
Your Lifetime Guarantor,
OmniGod
You know that I could whip up an instant cure for all your ouches but all would accomplish is short-term relief that only fools you into thinking that all is well and coax you into reverting to doing more of what contributes to slowing down your progress. There is no quick fix- short cut to replace the way I do the things I do and only I can do; be patient with yourself and please be patient with me because I am not finished with you yet.
I have all the time and time is also on your side because I AM is on your side so reeeeelaaaaaaaaaaaaaax; sloooooooow dowwwwwwwwwwwn- rest assured that I will wake you up when my time for you to spring into action. I have programmed everything you need to know, everyone who scheduled to be on your path and everyone whom you are scheduled to be on their path just when, where, why, how, I choose. Trust me on this and your frustration, anxiety and doubt will cease to prance around your sanity.
You have made so much more progress than your circumstances can ever confirm and conversely just being able to let me take full charge of all because your circumstances succeeded in bringing you and I closer than any abracadabra cure
Enjoy watching your spiritual vision grow; anticipate truth; and, trust that I will let you know everything you need to know just when you need it best!
Let’s continue to bond and I guarantee you that nothing will disturb our relationship that we cannot, together, overcome.
Thank you Angeal-Eyes… thank you!
Your Lifetime Guarantor,
OmniGod
November 10, 2007
For Ever Young
For the past few years, I have been able to keep up with a vow I made with myself- compose a poem to commemorate each anniversary that marks the day I arrived in flesh and blood on what is called, earth until earth is ready to have it's dust back.
This year seemed like an exception because I was still blank as to what to compose... a draft here and a script there. I wanted to write something and that is all that mattered, still it felt like what I wanted say was at the tip of my fingers and my heart was saying something, so I stopped arguing with the poem and let it write itself... talk about giving up the desire to control every outcome. Short, Sweet and to the point! That's how the heart works!
This year seemed like an exception because I was still blank as to what to compose... a draft here and a script there. I wanted to write something and that is all that mattered, still it felt like what I wanted say was at the tip of my fingers and my heart was saying something, so I stopped arguing with the poem and let it write itself... talk about giving up the desire to control every outcome. Short, Sweet and to the point! That's how the heart works!
November 09, 2007
Life: trials, triumphs, trauma... the whole shebang- that Life!
God knows how to make each event, circumstance, joy, sorrows and in betweens matter, and so I continue to extract lessons from everyday experiences, knowing that when my passion needs more compassion, God’s always available to richly supply!
Though matter what, a life of purpose is living life- the whole shebang of it
November 08, 2007
Living fully... a daily requirement
My Dearest Nympha:
I know that you are looking for something so impossible to believe that even you feel that you will be shocked when I do.
Even when life looks scarier and emptier, please believe and know that i have not forsaken you nor do I ever intend to. I know that you know that and sometimes have trouble accepting that. Until you stop thinking of me as being uncaring of you or comparing me to wishy-washy relationships and description of me, all your mind will continue to do is fool you into wanting to annul all that we have built together over the last decade. Well frankly you have been hanging on to me for almost all of your life and you even got to the point where you could sit on my lap or put me to sit down on a chair next to you and look me straight in the eye and tell me what you think of me. Give yourself credit for taking those steps.
You are getting better and better yet this ideology of slaving away for brownie points to win my favour is so false and is really robbing you of all that you have developed from our relationship.
Just continue to let me care for you just as you ask me to.
I will remind you of all the wonderful letters you wrote to me and of course all the heartrending poems.
I know you question the point in all you have gone through and all the poems I inspired you to write. One day it will all add up... in fact the story is always unfolding so add all the pieces that you have collected so far. Continue to see things with fresh perspective. The meaning of life is forever open to a shift in how things transform. What made no sense decades or even seconds ago is in full light.
Rest my child rest.. the day for launching your life's purpose is at hand... and no, it is not any thing to make you wish you never pursued me or let me pursue you.
Relax, I am not that hard a disciplinarian. I need you to continue to want to be my best friend too, you know.
I will always be with you especially when things do not make any sense. Please do not count me out; as you know without me you are lost! This can seem intimidating but again remember that I am more than all that bothers you.
Continue to lean on me and I love it when you rest your head on my shoulders. I know you feel strange imaging me there even when you are so convince that I am not. I am your spirit so just know that I am there and taking great care of you....okay!
I am very patient with you, Miss Passionate. I really appreciate all your effort to want to be the person I created you to be. I know you sometimes feel like you can do nothing good or well enough to please me. You already are a girl after my own heart and that's good enough. In other words, live fully- I will show you how! I have always wanted to show you how.
Let go of your fears and frustration, ease your urge to give up on the daily practise of least resistance as you continue to depend on me and let me show you how much I love you... really love you... the kind of love that you yearn!
I know that you are looking for something so impossible to believe that even you feel that you will be shocked when I do.
Even when life looks scarier and emptier, please believe and know that i have not forsaken you nor do I ever intend to. I know that you know that and sometimes have trouble accepting that. Until you stop thinking of me as being uncaring of you or comparing me to wishy-washy relationships and description of me, all your mind will continue to do is fool you into wanting to annul all that we have built together over the last decade. Well frankly you have been hanging on to me for almost all of your life and you even got to the point where you could sit on my lap or put me to sit down on a chair next to you and look me straight in the eye and tell me what you think of me. Give yourself credit for taking those steps.
You are getting better and better yet this ideology of slaving away for brownie points to win my favour is so false and is really robbing you of all that you have developed from our relationship.
Just continue to let me care for you just as you ask me to.
I will remind you of all the wonderful letters you wrote to me and of course all the heartrending poems.
I know you question the point in all you have gone through and all the poems I inspired you to write. One day it will all add up... in fact the story is always unfolding so add all the pieces that you have collected so far. Continue to see things with fresh perspective. The meaning of life is forever open to a shift in how things transform. What made no sense decades or even seconds ago is in full light.
Rest my child rest.. the day for launching your life's purpose is at hand... and no, it is not any thing to make you wish you never pursued me or let me pursue you.
Relax, I am not that hard a disciplinarian. I need you to continue to want to be my best friend too, you know.
I will always be with you especially when things do not make any sense. Please do not count me out; as you know without me you are lost! This can seem intimidating but again remember that I am more than all that bothers you.
Continue to lean on me and I love it when you rest your head on my shoulders. I know you feel strange imaging me there even when you are so convince that I am not. I am your spirit so just know that I am there and taking great care of you....okay!
I am very patient with you, Miss Passionate. I really appreciate all your effort to want to be the person I created you to be. I know you sometimes feel like you can do nothing good or well enough to please me. You already are a girl after my own heart and that's good enough. In other words, live fully- I will show you how! I have always wanted to show you how.
Let go of your fears and frustration, ease your urge to give up on the daily practise of least resistance as you continue to depend on me and let me show you how much I love you... really love you... the kind of love that you yearn!
That's a girl... that's my girl!
Cheers!
Your pal, God
November 07, 2007
A Doubting Angel: When Nothing Makes Sense
When nothing makes sense...and my peace is disturbed I question God and sometimes I even diss God!
The sad thing is dissing God always feels like the best thing to do always when I need God the most.
Why God, Why?
I pray!
Dear God;
I need you to reassure me again and again and, again because I just feel like giving up on feeling like I matter to you or you really care about me. Then I think "What will I do?" “What will I do without you?" Can you please answer me, God!
I am disappointed, very disappointed in the way you show your love for me and for the many people who experience oppression and injustice from 'heavy burdens' that you don't seem to want to relieve us of.
Life feels scarier and scarier and emptier and emptier in the land of plenty.
Why?
I feel like stoned Stephen; please do not hold this against me, God. Do something God!
How am I suppose to trust you like a child trust that when it cries it will be comforted and fed and clothed and be protected from the elements.
Please turn things around like you did for Sarah, Hannah, Leah, Job, Joseph and David- Please God!
I am counting on you, not because I feel that I want to but because you are God and you are in charge!
Don't you have favour for those who are wanting to love you, trust you but now and then experience a challenge in doing so? Please God! I feel like I am pleading to you and all you do is ignore my plight! I can no longer live this way and sing 'it is okay or it is well withm y soul becasue it is not and if it is well with my sould then it is not well with my hopes when it seem like I am getting closer and closer to giving up on my dreams and settle for a life of envying sparrows. What good is in that!
How do you really show that you give a damn? How?
How do I think of you in any other way... a loving way right now?
How am I suppose to be a steadfast spirit, God.
Can I count on you or not? I am fed up of this yo-yoing relationship with you! If that is good enough for you, it is NOT good enough for me!
So please dear God, please give me something to took forward to other than wandering and wondering where the heck you are and what you are doing.
'I have fallen and I can't up'
I need you to pick me up!
Please Hurry!
A Doubting Angel
The sad thing is dissing God always feels like the best thing to do always when I need God the most.
Why God, Why?
I pray!
Dear God;
I need you to reassure me again and again and, again because I just feel like giving up on feeling like I matter to you or you really care about me. Then I think "What will I do?" “What will I do without you?" Can you please answer me, God!
I am disappointed, very disappointed in the way you show your love for me and for the many people who experience oppression and injustice from 'heavy burdens' that you don't seem to want to relieve us of.
Life feels scarier and scarier and emptier and emptier in the land of plenty.
Why?
I feel like stoned Stephen; please do not hold this against me, God. Do something God!
How am I suppose to trust you like a child trust that when it cries it will be comforted and fed and clothed and be protected from the elements.
Please turn things around like you did for Sarah, Hannah, Leah, Job, Joseph and David- Please God!
I am counting on you, not because I feel that I want to but because you are God and you are in charge!
Don't you have favour for those who are wanting to love you, trust you but now and then experience a challenge in doing so? Please God! I feel like I am pleading to you and all you do is ignore my plight! I can no longer live this way and sing 'it is okay or it is well withm y soul becasue it is not and if it is well with my sould then it is not well with my hopes when it seem like I am getting closer and closer to giving up on my dreams and settle for a life of envying sparrows. What good is in that!
How do you really show that you give a damn? How?
How do I think of you in any other way... a loving way right now?
How am I suppose to be a steadfast spirit, God.
Can I count on you or not? I am fed up of this yo-yoing relationship with you! If that is good enough for you, it is NOT good enough for me!
So please dear God, please give me something to took forward to other than wandering and wondering where the heck you are and what you are doing.
'I have fallen and I can't up'
I need you to pick me up!
Please Hurry!
A Doubting Angel
November 06, 2007
The qualities of a Good Nation
People have been domesticated so that it feels and appears okay to hide their consciousness in the closet and not be disturbed after the bedtime dose of Prozac or Lorapazem when God say no doze, because that is not enough to fool God!
God knows all too well that no one can live that way because that was one thing God did not program in the human heart.
Thinking creatively, and not leaning on my own understanding of things is more important than just following the rules that appear good on glossy paper and void of meaning and life.
So as usual I turn to God’s encyclopedia in depth and that requires discipline, sound reasoning and a daily dose of renewed commitment… something that a good nation should live by. I believe now the law was not designed to protect us but to often trick us and coerced us to turn away from what works, what really works.
Sure God designed that we work and according to God’s definition of work it is that God’s burden is light it may be enduring and sometime painstaking still it is not designed to be a burden that still cannot even provide the basics of food clothes and shelter…the bare minimum… the bare essentials. God does not like it and neither do I!
So back to my subject matter… what makes a Good Nation?
Accountability
Rendering to Caesar what is Caesar’s and God what is God… God did not say it was easy, God said it is possible
Social justice that works
Humble servants who follow Jesus’ ways … that does not come easy either
There is probably a whole more to it than that
I am still learning and intend to act according to my consciousness… that’s not easy either
Still that is the only way to put God first!
God knows all too well that no one can live that way because that was one thing God did not program in the human heart.
Thinking creatively, and not leaning on my own understanding of things is more important than just following the rules that appear good on glossy paper and void of meaning and life.
So as usual I turn to God’s encyclopedia in depth and that requires discipline, sound reasoning and a daily dose of renewed commitment… something that a good nation should live by. I believe now the law was not designed to protect us but to often trick us and coerced us to turn away from what works, what really works.
Sure God designed that we work and according to God’s definition of work it is that God’s burden is light it may be enduring and sometime painstaking still it is not designed to be a burden that still cannot even provide the basics of food clothes and shelter…the bare minimum… the bare essentials. God does not like it and neither do I!
So back to my subject matter… what makes a Good Nation?
Accountability
Rendering to Caesar what is Caesar’s and God what is God… God did not say it was easy, God said it is possible
Social justice that works
Humble servants who follow Jesus’ ways … that does not come easy either
There is probably a whole more to it than that
I am still learning and intend to act according to my consciousness… that’s not easy either
Still that is the only way to put God first!
November 05, 2007
Making peace with the unknown
The more I dread the ‘not yet’ and ‘let go and let God’, the more I am disconcerted by the unknown… and the more I get upset that God alone knows everything and so God alone can run the show.
Being totally dependent on God should make me joyfully soar for God’s love yet lately all I want to do is give up on pleasing God even though that choice would cause me even more trouble than I have encountered in my lifetime so far. I have come a long way!
So what do I do, God… what do I do when I feel like I am in the storm and instead of gliding peacefully, I am being tossed by waves that want me let the storm win. I would if I knew for sure that you are really in that storm with me. But I do not know for sure and that is what petrifies me.
Do I keep going? Do I fall asleep on the waves? Do I scream, fuss and shout? Do I laugh and dance?
You really have a funny way of making me cling to you when I am tempted to have nothing to do with you. Why?
I suppose I am in the refiner’s fire learning how to say ouch and still trust that the refiner’s fire will not turn to the fires of hell and char me up.
Oh well, my idea of you is a bit gruesome right now and I cannot pretend it is any other way for now, so please bear with me while I get back my bearings on your road to happiness.
I do not know how to fully love you but I am willing to know or at least to try; but you do not seem to have an easy way of making that happen so I will have to make peace with the unknown and trust that this will help me eligible to dwell in one of your many mansions.
Being totally dependent on God should make me joyfully soar for God’s love yet lately all I want to do is give up on pleasing God even though that choice would cause me even more trouble than I have encountered in my lifetime so far. I have come a long way!
So what do I do, God… what do I do when I feel like I am in the storm and instead of gliding peacefully, I am being tossed by waves that want me let the storm win. I would if I knew for sure that you are really in that storm with me. But I do not know for sure and that is what petrifies me.
Do I keep going? Do I fall asleep on the waves? Do I scream, fuss and shout? Do I laugh and dance?
You really have a funny way of making me cling to you when I am tempted to have nothing to do with you. Why?
I suppose I am in the refiner’s fire learning how to say ouch and still trust that the refiner’s fire will not turn to the fires of hell and char me up.
Oh well, my idea of you is a bit gruesome right now and I cannot pretend it is any other way for now, so please bear with me while I get back my bearings on your road to happiness.
I do not know how to fully love you but I am willing to know or at least to try; but you do not seem to have an easy way of making that happen so I will have to make peace with the unknown and trust that this will help me eligible to dwell in one of your many mansions.
October 31, 2007
Unwrapping the present!
There is a wise saying that reminds me that within each challenge (the word uses is, problem; since I no longer want to describe events as problems I choose to reword the term) is an opportunity waiting to be discovered.
It is easy to spot the opportunity when it is covered in a sheer layer of wrappings. When this opportunity is disguised by several layer of thick covering that reminds me of Leah's veil, I wonder what on earth is the present… must be something very delicate and irreplaceable!
Lately, I have been asking God for so many gifts…gifts that money cannot buy…Opportunities that only God can reign down on me.
As usual God’s best way of answering my request is to send me a refining fire experience in which I often cannot see any opportunity right away!
I hate when God does that... and God knows that I never like it when I have to guess which prayer that is being transformed into action…into reality!
That goes to prove how many of my prayers are in God’s inbox.
All I know is that I have a big God to handle my earfuls… a God who gives me big enough faith to carry through whatever comes my way; more so, the disguised gifts!
So I continue to unwrap the present!
October 27, 2007
When losing means winning everything
When I felt like I was losing my sprit even though I still had breath, I got to the point where giving up everything to reconnect with my core self was inescapable.
Of course I dangled between the ravine separating ‘heaven’ and ‘hell’ that threatened to swallow me up if I dared enter the gap so I did the most obvious thing. I screamed for help from heaven and I cursed hell and vice versa sometimes all at once, in the same breath. I did that until courage overpowered foolish fear of losing everything I had toiled sweat, tears and blood to earn.
To begin with, I had made it to the point when there was nothing to lose. No more precious, prized belongings- you know, the things that lay and trained psychiatrists consider valuables even when they supposedly treasureables have well lost their treasureness in one’s life and instead are becoming or have already become in some instances, the prison chains and walls and vampires that one must get rid of or else… The thing is, none of what I was holding on to was of any resourcefulness; absolutely no gain, only pain. Honestly, who determines what is bling-bling and what is precious bling bling to another, eh who? Just like beauty, it is up to the eyes of the beholder.
There was no amassing more loss that is worth emptying my tank of joy let alone giving up bliss bank. No prized possession can brandish its dagger or sword to save me from spiritual bankruptcy. I was at that point when recovering my spirit from the shadows was serious business!
I had to give up the illusion of the imprisoned meaning of importance and liberate my mind, body and soul more so the awe of childlikeness which spirit thrives on can continue to multiply its Essence. I was ready to lose everything to gain everything.
And Jesus’ comparing the prettiest flower which is here today and gone tomorrow as more adorned than King Solomon’s riches costume is no joke. He had to have known what he was talking about.
It was not too long after I heed that admonition that I realize that not only the prison doors were wide open, the prison walls were torn down a long time ago. In its place is a staircase that reminds me of Jacob’s ladder except in my vision the ladder was a dazzling million skies of stars.
The rest is unfolding…
Of course I dangled between the ravine separating ‘heaven’ and ‘hell’ that threatened to swallow me up if I dared enter the gap so I did the most obvious thing. I screamed for help from heaven and I cursed hell and vice versa sometimes all at once, in the same breath. I did that until courage overpowered foolish fear of losing everything I had toiled sweat, tears and blood to earn.
To begin with, I had made it to the point when there was nothing to lose. No more precious, prized belongings- you know, the things that lay and trained psychiatrists consider valuables even when they supposedly treasureables have well lost their treasureness in one’s life and instead are becoming or have already become in some instances, the prison chains and walls and vampires that one must get rid of or else… The thing is, none of what I was holding on to was of any resourcefulness; absolutely no gain, only pain. Honestly, who determines what is bling-bling and what is precious bling bling to another, eh who? Just like beauty, it is up to the eyes of the beholder.
There was no amassing more loss that is worth emptying my tank of joy let alone giving up bliss bank. No prized possession can brandish its dagger or sword to save me from spiritual bankruptcy. I was at that point when recovering my spirit from the shadows was serious business!
I had to give up the illusion of the imprisoned meaning of importance and liberate my mind, body and soul more so the awe of childlikeness which spirit thrives on can continue to multiply its Essence. I was ready to lose everything to gain everything.
And Jesus’ comparing the prettiest flower which is here today and gone tomorrow as more adorned than King Solomon’s riches costume is no joke. He had to have known what he was talking about.
It was not too long after I heed that admonition that I realize that not only the prison doors were wide open, the prison walls were torn down a long time ago. In its place is a staircase that reminds me of Jacob’s ladder except in my vision the ladder was a dazzling million skies of stars.
The rest is unfolding…
October 26, 2007
Modern day Lazarus
Lazarus had been dead for four days before Jesus came to resurrect his best buddy. That is just how I am feeling. The thing about knowing the whole event of the story is that I know that he will resurrect my spirit even though it feels like it has gone off to some far distance place.
Even though Jesus himself cannot make it before four days, Father Abraham will keep my spirit safe, wherever it is, and as Jesus brought Lazarus back to life so will my spirit come back to me.
October 25, 2007
Gods' Grace
Psalm 11: 3 says, there is nothing a good person can do when everything falls apart. The best that I can do when it seems like all has fallen apart is pray that God's Grace does not fall apart; otherwise, I am finished. God knows that I am only just beginning; so help me God to continue holding on to you, your grace, your promise to take care of ALL my 'ups and anys'.
I have allowed you to prove to me that I am good enough only when I see myself through your eyes. Abraham did not know where he was going when you told him time to pack up and leave; Job lost all he owned and delighted in even though his heart was trusting you; it took a burning bush to help you get Moses to recognize the power in the stick he held in his hand; Jonah thought that being a stowaway would stop you from commissioning him to save Nineveh; Nehemiah recognized you even when imposters tried to knock down his confidence in you; Judith, Debbie, Rahab and Esther trusted that God always has a haphakh. I could go on and on...
So I pray: God, grant me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot change
Courage to change the things that I can
Wisdom to know the difference
Clarity to understand what Wisdom is teaching me
Obedience to follow Wisdom's Instructions
Two of God’s great gifts
Wisdom and understanding
Things money can’t buy
Aham!
October 24, 2007
Modern Day Thomas
I seriously think that I have at least one cell that belongs to each of the biblical characters. Today, it’s Thomas’ that is at the realm of my mentality.
I often ponder on God’s purpose for creating the universe, adorn it with beauty beyond description and populated it with people. Granted all this makes me feel very confident in the knowledge of God, Still feel like, Thomas, that some proof will seal the deal; why I am here waiting for God to do something more in this present day to continue to reveal and do again life events as in the beginning. If I believe Genesis chapter one without a shadow of a doubt, God finished working and was very pleased. So God are you still pleased or as please eons later after creating creation? How are you coping with the world as it is? Ecclesiastes mentions a very valid point- that there is nothing new under the sun- so does that confirms Genesis? And if so, what are you planning to do that the psalmist proclaimed that blessings are new every morning
What exactly is your motive for creating human beings in your own image and likeness and many so underprivileged? Many people doubt your Omniness, your promise their dignity- well except those who no longer envy sparrows; sanctity for life, peace, justice, and reverence for you; God , do you ever feel disgraced are you planning to restore justice. I know that you can do anything you want to then it is not time to turn sorrows to joy
What happened to people who died before Jesus was born or before he died on the cross or hung on a tree?
How did people prepare for their heavenly mansion?
Is it since Jesus came that people lived shorter than Old Testament days or is from then that age was not a big deal worth mentioning!
I mean back in preJesus days, as early as in Genesis 11, life expectancy was very, very long and people died, as in the case of Job at a very great age. Not only that! Some of them had children when they were well into their 600th, 438th year. When did that stop being the norm?
Well even for my sake you will have to reintroduce this era. After all, I am asking for something that I know that you have done and have the power to do again!
October 23, 2007
A whole bunch of questions for God: Redemptive Rights!
I have been asking God for Wisdom to know the difference. This request has prompted a whole lot more questions and somehow I strongly sense this is God drawing me closer to my Essence. And I am ready... I am sitting on God's lap and I will stay there for as long as it takes and God already knows I have all the time in the world, so lets' do it!
How do I separate the weed from the wheat, eh God?
How do I know which door is concealing your banquet hall?
How am I suppose to live with or without you? Is that even up for grabs?
Are you hiding from yourself, or me, again?
Am I the one hiding from you? Kind of impossible if you ask me!
How much longer before this menace take leave from me? Even Jesus posed this question to you and were he alive, I would have asked his permission to use it.
Why did Jesus have to die to prove your love for mankind? This one is a huge question that engages my mind.
Why is there so many false notions of you?
What are you doing about setting the record straight?
Do you enjoy all the confusion that challenges your creation?
What was your intention when you decided to reveal your intelligence?
Are you happy with how people treat you?
Is faith the same as waiting in vain?
What is the difference between wishing and waiting (patience) for you to come through on your promises?
What is your definition of influence?
How do I recognize- scratch that… how do I know a Godly spirit, you know, the right motive?
How do I understand your purpose of fellow sojourners in my life?
How do I understand your purpose of my life in the life’s of fellow sojourners?
I need to know so I can improve my relationship with you, myself and fellow sojourners.
Were the people in the bible real people, you know, people like me, and all who continued on after biblical times?
What is the difference between knowing the truth and knowing the whole story?
Doesn’t it bother you that I am torn between the real God and the false god, you know, the one who loves me when I am pleasing but uncomfortable and loves me not when I am comfortable in my skin and you who loves me unconditionally?
I recalled what happened to Saul when he chose to listen to the people all the time instead of reverencing your intelligences. Is it any wonder when you ask Solomon for what he wanted, he requested wisdom and your understanding? So what is different between Solomon and me.. Is it my tone with you? I’d like to know!
Why do I envy your sparrows you keep bragging about?
Your stories come with such twist that only you can convince me of the whole truth. What’s the whole point of these biblical stories? What’s the lesson, if not to choose your way…willingly!
What is the difference between conceit and pride?
What is the difference between assertiveness and tolerance?
Why does mankind prefer to pull the wool over their eyes, wear pink-coloured glasses, look away from truth- as if they can!, some even run, others hide or can they.. I guess they can hide away from me but you are right in their face! What about the people who try to hide behind their busy, important lives instead of being conscious, conscientious citizens and stand up for what is right, honest, pure, of good report and of good virtue?
How do you define church?
What is the difference between going to church and being church? I'd rahter be church than go to church.
I know that you know, yes you already know that though matter how high we, humans aim, no one can be perfect, otherwise making mistakes would be a mortal sin and commandment 11 would have been: ‘Though shalt never ever make a mistake … or else!” Who knows, that would have been the second commandment. Yauwch! I would need a haphakh moment with every breath I take, every move I make, every single day because I know you are watching me. Who could live that way, eh God? Really? And who would care about heaven or hell? I wouldn’t!
Why is it that in a world of plenty there is financial poverty, homelessness, working poor; I ,me and heck with everyone else syndrome, social policy that ‘cripple’ the masses?
Do you really expect me to live my days hobbling around searching for meaning in life to prove your omnipotence, Omni God?
I know that you told Paul that your grace is sufficient… What’s your point?
Did Paul have more faith in you…I mean the living kind of faith... not this blind faith, blind trust business... I tried this and it only handed me a suicide note from the ‘lords of the earth’ and the ‘licensed’ drug lords. Conversely Thanks to that suicide note I decided to run to you for coverage… coverage that works!
I know that you created us only inferior to you, God and you must have good reason for doing that.
Do you mind sharing that with me?
Okay God, I am about to ask you the most stupidest question….
Do you ever feel pain?
Do you have ouches like mankind?
Is it all from you, because of you or for your sake?
Is there such a thing as spiritual pain and suffering or is pain only physical, and is it the best way you can discipline the world?
What is my pain suppose to help you accomplish in this plan of yours?
I feel like I am so close to getting you to really open up your kingdom of answers yet I wonder.. so as I usually tell you straight up… pardon my knocking heads with you because that is all I have left to try without giving in to disgrace and dishonour of your breath and turn my back on you and settle for a mediocre life…no I am not suicidal… I using my gift of the spirit of love, boldness and sound reasoning- full circle!
What is your version of truth on forgiveness and self responsibility?
What did Jesus mean by telling Peter to forgive 70*7 times?
And what did Jesus mean when he summoned the disciples to shake the dust from their sandals when their peace returns to them void?
How much did Jesus endure before he took a time out to be just with you?
If Jesus were both God and man does that mean Psalm 8 did not apply to him? What makes Jesus have authority to perform miracles?
You did not create us from a one size fit all mould so why do I feel like I have to be someone else to make it through the day… damn it this is not nice, God? Why can’t I be me…me…me?
Why did you make me one of a kind? Did you?
I tell you have a lot of questions to answer and that is just mine alone… I wonder how many more people have some burning questioning to charge on you?
Like I tell you already, I better live like heaven is here in case when I die there is no heaven- God would I be pissed!
But after talking with you one on one like this, if I die and find out there is no eternal life after death then I will rest in peace…rest assure about that one!
Instead of depending solely on my preconceived ideas or worse yet, the preconceived ideas of human intelligence I rather ask you straightforward and matter-of-factly. Yes I’d rather ask you God, so I can receive the right outcome, first hand. Does that mean I will not take risks?
Well I dare answer this one myself. I will take the risk. I think I am taking one of the greatest risks any human can… So, are you going to help me tap into areas where human is afraid to tread? Common God, no more charades, hide and seek or catch me if you can. I have questions and I want answers from you, and I want them now! As I told you already all I have left is my boldness with you and that is all I can expect so for our relationship to stay real.
So God can you please release some more tips and solid answers on God-ways of living a fulfilled life?
There's a whole lot more God, so for now, I will let you work on these.
Thank you in advance.
How do I separate the weed from the wheat, eh God?
How do I know which door is concealing your banquet hall?
How am I suppose to live with or without you? Is that even up for grabs?
Are you hiding from yourself, or me, again?
Am I the one hiding from you? Kind of impossible if you ask me!
How much longer before this menace take leave from me? Even Jesus posed this question to you and were he alive, I would have asked his permission to use it.
Why did Jesus have to die to prove your love for mankind? This one is a huge question that engages my mind.
Why is there so many false notions of you?
What are you doing about setting the record straight?
Do you enjoy all the confusion that challenges your creation?
What was your intention when you decided to reveal your intelligence?
Are you happy with how people treat you?
Is faith the same as waiting in vain?
What is the difference between wishing and waiting (patience) for you to come through on your promises?
What is your definition of influence?
How do I recognize- scratch that… how do I know a Godly spirit, you know, the right motive?
How do I understand your purpose of fellow sojourners in my life?
How do I understand your purpose of my life in the life’s of fellow sojourners?
I need to know so I can improve my relationship with you, myself and fellow sojourners.
Were the people in the bible real people, you know, people like me, and all who continued on after biblical times?
What is the difference between knowing the truth and knowing the whole story?
Doesn’t it bother you that I am torn between the real God and the false god, you know, the one who loves me when I am pleasing but uncomfortable and loves me not when I am comfortable in my skin and you who loves me unconditionally?
I recalled what happened to Saul when he chose to listen to the people all the time instead of reverencing your intelligences. Is it any wonder when you ask Solomon for what he wanted, he requested wisdom and your understanding? So what is different between Solomon and me.. Is it my tone with you? I’d like to know!
Why do I envy your sparrows you keep bragging about?
Your stories come with such twist that only you can convince me of the whole truth. What’s the whole point of these biblical stories? What’s the lesson, if not to choose your way…willingly!
What is the difference between conceit and pride?
What is the difference between assertiveness and tolerance?
Why does mankind prefer to pull the wool over their eyes, wear pink-coloured glasses, look away from truth- as if they can!, some even run, others hide or can they.. I guess they can hide away from me but you are right in their face! What about the people who try to hide behind their busy, important lives instead of being conscious, conscientious citizens and stand up for what is right, honest, pure, of good report and of good virtue?
How do you define church?
What is the difference between going to church and being church? I'd rahter be church than go to church.
Where is church, anyway?
Isn't the whole world the church,the marketplace, and the mission grounds?I know that you know, yes you already know that though matter how high we, humans aim, no one can be perfect, otherwise making mistakes would be a mortal sin and commandment 11 would have been: ‘Though shalt never ever make a mistake … or else!” Who knows, that would have been the second commandment. Yauwch! I would need a haphakh moment with every breath I take, every move I make, every single day because I know you are watching me. Who could live that way, eh God? Really? And who would care about heaven or hell? I wouldn’t!
Why is it that in a world of plenty there is financial poverty, homelessness, working poor; I ,me and heck with everyone else syndrome, social policy that ‘cripple’ the masses?
Do you really expect me to live my days hobbling around searching for meaning in life to prove your omnipotence, Omni God?
I know that you told Paul that your grace is sufficient… What’s your point?
Did Paul have more faith in you…I mean the living kind of faith... not this blind faith, blind trust business... I tried this and it only handed me a suicide note from the ‘lords of the earth’ and the ‘licensed’ drug lords. Conversely Thanks to that suicide note I decided to run to you for coverage… coverage that works!
I know that you created us only inferior to you, God and you must have good reason for doing that.
Do you mind sharing that with me?
Okay God, I am about to ask you the most stupidest question….
Do you ever feel pain?
Do you have ouches like mankind?
Is it all from you, because of you or for your sake?
Is there such a thing as spiritual pain and suffering or is pain only physical, and is it the best way you can discipline the world?
What is my pain suppose to help you accomplish in this plan of yours?
I feel like I am so close to getting you to really open up your kingdom of answers yet I wonder.. so as I usually tell you straight up… pardon my knocking heads with you because that is all I have left to try without giving in to disgrace and dishonour of your breath and turn my back on you and settle for a mediocre life…no I am not suicidal… I using my gift of the spirit of love, boldness and sound reasoning- full circle!
What is your version of truth on forgiveness and self responsibility?
What did Jesus mean by telling Peter to forgive 70*7 times?
And what did Jesus mean when he summoned the disciples to shake the dust from their sandals when their peace returns to them void?
How much did Jesus endure before he took a time out to be just with you?
If Jesus were both God and man does that mean Psalm 8 did not apply to him? What makes Jesus have authority to perform miracles?
You did not create us from a one size fit all mould so why do I feel like I have to be someone else to make it through the day… damn it this is not nice, God? Why can’t I be me…me…me?
Why did you make me one of a kind? Did you?
I tell you have a lot of questions to answer and that is just mine alone… I wonder how many more people have some burning questioning to charge on you?
Like I tell you already, I better live like heaven is here in case when I die there is no heaven- God would I be pissed!
But after talking with you one on one like this, if I die and find out there is no eternal life after death then I will rest in peace…rest assure about that one!
Instead of depending solely on my preconceived ideas or worse yet, the preconceived ideas of human intelligence I rather ask you straightforward and matter-of-factly. Yes I’d rather ask you God, so I can receive the right outcome, first hand. Does that mean I will not take risks?
Well I dare answer this one myself. I will take the risk. I think I am taking one of the greatest risks any human can… So, are you going to help me tap into areas where human is afraid to tread? Common God, no more charades, hide and seek or catch me if you can. I have questions and I want answers from you, and I want them now! As I told you already all I have left is my boldness with you and that is all I can expect so for our relationship to stay real.
So God can you please release some more tips and solid answers on God-ways of living a fulfilled life?
There's a whole lot more God, so for now, I will let you work on these.
Thank you in advance.
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- Nympha Angeal-Eyes Francis
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