Clarification for the fray

Dear God I am so glad that you clarify what the biblical scholar meant when he said that when I do not use your gift, I lose it!

You must really know that this made me very despondent. After all why guard my life and talent only for you take it away and give someone one else the talent or credit- for lack of a better expression. If you created me to accomplish certain tasks that you specialized me to take on. Why then, would you threaten to take it away? I came to one conclusion: that you are big joker!

Well thanks for setting the record straight. That is more than a sheer consolation. This is a great hallelujah mountain-crushing Alleluia. You know how relieved I am from the dread of working in vain figuring out your purpose for creating me. Every day I still need to know why I am here. Needless to say my heart was crushed by the thought of you changing your mind on your endowment bestowed on me even before I was born. You know I do not want to die with my music still lodged in latent land.

I am so happy that instead of throwing in the towel on your promises I decided to level with you and disclose all that cause such a rift between wanting you and dissing you. Oh for crying loud, God I am sorry for calling you a joker and thank you for not taking my heart’s cry as a joke on you.

Thank you so much for fully understanding me just as much as you lovingly created me!You must really be in love with me and want me to always come to you and be with you just as I am sincerely. I may never fully comprehend you enough to love you back just as you love me, still I am brazen enough to attempt to renew my commitment to let you use me to do your best. I cannot imagine a better way that you choose to honour me, and it is not yet even Resurrection Day or is it what you mean by raising the dead to eternal life… for my sake I hope so. I know I can count on you to explain this to me too!

Until then I vow to continue to press on.