It boils down to God or nothing!

When I asked God to go ahead and show me what is this gap that separates me and God, that must have put a great big smile on God's face. All I know is that we hit the highway and knowing how God does God-size things I held on to my seat even though my seat belt was secure... I wonder if that is the reflection of the size of my faith.. well given my own explanation of things, I am inclined to say that it also rocked my patience tank...oops God, it is empty and the sad fact is I am patient with everyone and everything else except you. Why is that? Never mind that... I need to be a little more direct with you here, God. What is that suppose to mean when I have given you the right of way!

When it is not one thing; it is another and I am sick and tired of justifying what you have not given me an answer to... do you get that?

I mean common; all because you know that I let you take charge you just want to reap my heart apart or ...take that back... I better ask you a question. Did I rupture my heart again since you last mended it?

O Evay... another serving of Haphak please.

I better go take a nap then I can be quiet and all alone with you, no need for an anaesthesia; I get your answer loud and clear.

Leave everything to you!

You got that right; that is all I have to do!

So I finally arrived at my greatest destination on the road least crowded and as lonely as this end of the road is, it boils down to God or nothing; and, I choose God!

Kind of scary; yet this is what it takes when God says that it is all or nothing.

Father Abraham, I need you; never mind you, I need to loan your faith!

Hannah, Leah, Esther, Kings David and Solomon, Nehemiah, Daniel, the three Hebrew brothers-Hananiah, Mishael, and Azariah; and of course, among the countless biblical mentors, Jonah I must admit that I am beginning to understand your stories.

I still have a bit of a shadow feeling about Jesus death, burial and resurrection story... the miracle working part and taking his cue from you seat well with me. I need to understand the real message behind the whole life story of Jesus even if that mean that I may take on studying the original language in which the bible was inspired to the writers because the translation process seem to have watered down the substance.

I can read and, above average, understand the English Language and considering all the room for misinterpreting, I got to go with my gut on that one... God it is either that or you speak up a little more in a way that my heart can convince me that my faith is sound and well grounded in you, God; otherwise you lost me, again and I cannot afford to lose you now or ever and I dare say you cannot afford to let me out of your sight!