Too many cooks, God!

People are made to believe that food is the enemy; rest is a thief, God is this that and every other; and, time is determined by the scientific clock designed to measures life’s progress with each tick…tock… tick… tock… bugorlock

This abysmal overload of information could not be any more ludicrous than telling me that Christopher Columbus discovered the world; the European settlers were there before the First Nations of Canada and God is waiting to toss me into a blazing fire when I pray my heartrending and soul wrenching prayers with words that has no theological content or flavour.

Instilling fear has been a tactic to disarm young minds of their power and their fondness of curiosity that some who are now adults were once deprived of. This is a game gone too far and its crippling effect continues to disfigure the minds of truth-seekers.

The good news is that there is a handful of us who took on the task of removing the cloth that shrouded the fact...another thing we were taught, as children not to ever do –snoop; I call it explore for oneself!

So all kind of jumbee stories and myths of hairs growing on hands and squirrel eating nuts other than those from plants, the real God loves me today and will bake me in hell's fire the next developed into false claims on which life’s foundation was forced to be built on, and enduring lives of servitude to earn brownie points that never seem to add up, was no help either!.

Today many innocent lives are reaping the results and a large number do not know what to do because they are still petrified to break the chains that once bound them. How sad for those who thought they were being clever by protecting and defending us from ignorance. Bliss all right!

Decades later I am feverishly working at undoing the damage… with God’s help to see me through this, which frankly as God I feel he should have intervened a long time ago when he noticed what all those cooks were doing; any way he is God and I don’t always care to argue with him. I just like to tell God things straight from the heart!

Like I was saying, there are so many volumes of these fabrication to mire through that sometimes it seem easier to buckle down and hop on the bandwagon than to take the longer, narrower way that Matthew cautioned that few would traverse.

I have been spending the last few years understanding God in a way that makes sense to me. Too many cooks have whipped up daily specials on who or what God is and how he works and none have yet to satisfy my spiritual appetite so I making up my own and that to me will taste much better and even though it doesn't I will still enjoy it and this is enough to make my effort worth the try... maybe, just maybe, that is what God is nudging me to do, and if not, then God will have to buck up and do better than just dropping a clue here; and a puzzle there and, secret ingredients every where... because I am drifting further and further away from the truth or conversely I am getting more and more in touch with Truth. Remember life is paradoxical so though I may feel like I am severed from God and I feel like I've lost what I was looking for I am may just be moments away from discovering it. Then and again maybe it is a good thing that the cooks whet my hunger to get to know God for myself!

The crux is I am convinced that God definitely exist and is mightier than any human and I will continue renewing my mind until my notion of God becomes my firm foundation.

It is painstaking. It takes courage, a lot of courage and perseverance… not to mention trial and error, to attain this state of permanent blissful relationship with God.

Take heart, it is well worth the trek.