I used to struggle with the dread of being single and while there are days when I honoured that as my present path on the journey, most times I used to grumble. Then and again, after I reread the lives of Abraham, Sarah and all the ancestors mentioned in Genesis I had reason to quit doubting my loveability. When God is ready, nothing stands in the way.
So I made a vow to honour myself because for some reason I woke up thinking that I was incomplete without a husband and then God banged on my brain. I am with you always... be with me. My Self- not just my human self, that was proposing to me.
I have an emotional little person who wants to me to love, guide it and care for it. Only so can it feel safe to let me love and be loved and enjoy authentic intimacy with life’s choosing companion according to my personal preference
Being single does not bother me as it used to. Now and then I still feel a little lonesome- not incomplete or feeding the soul with nonsense taboo that something is wrong with me kind of stupidity sentiment fuelling my brain to behave I am a mistake created by God.
I am so engaged with loving myself that I accept my singleness as being the best status for me right now. I do not know why other than I know that God has good reason that it is so. That conviction continues to improve my perspective on the singularness.
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