Like the importunate widow mentioned in the bible, I keep nagging until the all loving and graceful God have some more compassion on me even it is just so I trouble him not and allow it to take care of the adversity which just like the judge who was nonGodfearing and non regarding of human, is hell bent on wanting to plague me by wanting to get even so as to appease its smugness. I will continue to pray and ask God’s Spirit to take over all my thoughts that make me bold while I wait on God to come through for me.
Like Peter, walking on water while watching the waves is terrifying me even though like Jesus was in the boat with Peter, God is the on the frontline of my struggles or else I would have perished. It’s just that some times it is hard to believe that God will make a way even where there seem to be no way or that God is working in spite of the fact that sometimes I feel contrary about this fact. Like it or not, I feel much better after telling God what he already knows about what’s going on in the secret places of my heart. As always God knows!
The thing is, God loves to keep some things hidden and I cannot handle his way of wanting to do things as he knows best; and keeping that omnipotent part of him a big secret; as if like some secret ingredient in the chef’s recipe. I can buy all the ingredients on the chef’s menu and go home to prepare that same whatever it is and it just doesn’t taste the same. I guess like the chef, he hopes to keep me coming back for more. I suppose that is what he means be dependent on the expert… and only God knows everything about my past, present and future and how to make it all turn out bravura! That's worth praying for, without ceasing; and so, I continue to nag… nag… nagging in heaven’s ears!
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