I am getting use to interacting with my heart and in so doing God continues to pursue it too. How did I get to this level of pure and sacred connection? Well lets just say that desperate hearts seek God and never let go then the bait catches… I reel in God and God reeled me in – which came first? I have no clue- I stared straight at my soul and said ‘bite me’! At that point and from then on I had noting to lose and had everything to gain. That’s a win-win situation right there and it was worth going for! I had already lost everything that did not matter to destiny and ready to claim and reclaim every worthwhile attribute of a purposeful life… no compromises.
God smiled and whispered: my love… no arguments!
Well as everything new I had to maintain a steadfast resilient spirit with each oops moment. Let me tell you, listening to my heart when all other channels try to interfere is no a, b, c ... 1, 2, 3. It’s no frill discerning new brainwaves from static. Well guess who had to take a hike! With God it’s only straight talk… no frills and I had to get it straight. Talk about temptation to give up! Thanks to accountability had to keep on keeping on. I rested when I must so that the test of perseverance and endurance would cheer me on to the wining post; along side that was the desire to trust the process, every step of the way. Frankly, trust and I had not been bosom buddies and that was a big craving because nothing else aligns one to its original image and likeness- by the way, what is the difference between image and likeness! I suppose God knows there is a difference or else mankind would not been created in God’s own image and like, not just image or likeness. That must be a very important combo. I wonder if that comes in super size. Anyway back to my story…
My heart was so dilapidated that God may have used up a lot of jars of alabaster full of mercy and grace, rose petals, hyssop and myrrh. I also received a generous amount of timeouts. That was a big bonus. I already felt that I had surpassed my limits for timeout and it was a really treat when God offered as many timeouts as I wanted. Heartbreaking and heart mending lessons can be very heartrending and soothing. Many times the heart breaking lessons are themselves the heartrending teachers and vice versa and they are the absolutely necessary tools to reinstate trusting my own heart and knowing that it is good.
God smiled and whispered: my love… no arguments!
Well as everything new I had to maintain a steadfast resilient spirit with each oops moment. Let me tell you, listening to my heart when all other channels try to interfere is no a, b, c ... 1, 2, 3. It’s no frill discerning new brainwaves from static. Well guess who had to take a hike! With God it’s only straight talk… no frills and I had to get it straight. Talk about temptation to give up! Thanks to accountability had to keep on keeping on. I rested when I must so that the test of perseverance and endurance would cheer me on to the wining post; along side that was the desire to trust the process, every step of the way. Frankly, trust and I had not been bosom buddies and that was a big craving because nothing else aligns one to its original image and likeness- by the way, what is the difference between image and likeness! I suppose God knows there is a difference or else mankind would not been created in God’s own image and like, not just image or likeness. That must be a very important combo. I wonder if that comes in super size. Anyway back to my story…
My heart was so dilapidated that God may have used up a lot of jars of alabaster full of mercy and grace, rose petals, hyssop and myrrh. I also received a generous amount of timeouts. That was a big bonus. I already felt that I had surpassed my limits for timeout and it was a really treat when God offered as many timeouts as I wanted. Heartbreaking and heart mending lessons can be very heartrending and soothing. Many times the heart breaking lessons are themselves the heartrending teachers and vice versa and they are the absolutely necessary tools to reinstate trusting my own heart and knowing that it is good.
Talk about hanging in there! Phew! I have accepted that this is a lifetime deal and I have to stay on track always looking forward or else I turn to a pillar of salt! So dear God, keep working on purifying the messages and intention of my heart.
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