Hello Wisdom, I need more answers, and some more blessings!

Just yesterday, I proclaimed so far so good and here I am today with a totally different acclamation!

You know what is most disconcerting about the events of life that people willing to live a full life must endure… it is not God’s wrath. It is the stone throwing that people ‘with no sin’ throw at people who know that they are bruised in the sight of God and still feel whole in God’s presence.

I do not know how Jesus overcame the urge to ignore the ridicules of his antagonist, but I sure am willing to meet with Jesus so he can tell me all about it, live; until then I read on the messages that he left behind and gather whatever I can and then practise as best as I can.

I know that God said that all things are possible but could there have been a line in the original bible that said that something about how to overcome the unfounded allegations that make me wish that Jesus was around in flesh and blood to defend me like he did in Jerusalem and Jericho and wherever else he traveled.

As much as I want to be like Jesus, the buck stops at the death and burial part because I really would not like to go through death hanging on a cross, God… do you get that! I am having a hard time understanding death from this perspective; even understanding life from this light of things is getting more and more baffling. If you, God, used Jesus to prove a point, then why is there so much oppression 21 centuries later?

Is it any wonder that I feel that if you could do this to Jesus, you probably will do the same to me and this is very cruel to think of you like that but God, if you were me, would you be scared; and if not, why wouldn’t you be. Is it any surprise that some people will not want to take an honest assessment of life. Some may be afraid to embarrass you; some may be afraid to embarrass their circle of influence; and, some may be afraid of what you might do if they are totally honest with you.

I feel a little bit of all of the above. I need to be at a point in our relationship where nothing punctures my self worth. Give me a big reason to proclaim that you are the God and you love me very, very much. A part of me is afraid to be so daring yet this is all I have left… my boldness with you, God!