The many thorns that pierced right through and got to my nerves were very testy and the memory storage disk was full and in heaven more disk space means emptying the one that is currently in use. What a task! It’s like deep sea diving for fish
Everything I needed to learn and thought I had to learn in heaven were schedule on campus hell and the timetable was subjects and lectures and seminars on all the bad things that brought me in the furnace en route to redemption
My debit and credit were grossly imbalanced and no amount of overtime hours on the job could suffice to afford an accountant who has no idea the stakes that were involved because in Gods’ world only the student knows already what needs to be done.
That is what I learnt when I began to stop procrastinating taking the subjects that I had to take in hell kingdom. Since it was this same hell kingdom that tossed me out into the world of grinning and grinding and gnashing of teeth; then it was the same baby in the same bath water that I needed to help me purge my self off orthodox rewards with little value to help me in heavens’ stock market in the way that I like it- unorthodox and very original.
I already knew that I enjoy unorthodox even before I slipped out of my mother’s womb. I just lost it when I was introduce to how the world out there and around here likes human creatures to behave.
That was my foreign language lesson 101 in what is termed differently according to psychologists perspective for human creatures between ages of 0-3 years outside the womb as if pre zero which is where I learnt everything fresh and live does not count
Some very intelligent brain cells must have really learnt that 0-3 is the best time to domesticate the wild because it worked!
or did it?
Everything I needed to learn and thought I had to learn in heaven were schedule on campus hell and the timetable was subjects and lectures and seminars on all the bad things that brought me in the furnace en route to redemption
My debit and credit were grossly imbalanced and no amount of overtime hours on the job could suffice to afford an accountant who has no idea the stakes that were involved because in Gods’ world only the student knows already what needs to be done.
That is what I learnt when I began to stop procrastinating taking the subjects that I had to take in hell kingdom. Since it was this same hell kingdom that tossed me out into the world of grinning and grinding and gnashing of teeth; then it was the same baby in the same bath water that I needed to help me purge my self off orthodox rewards with little value to help me in heavens’ stock market in the way that I like it- unorthodox and very original.
I already knew that I enjoy unorthodox even before I slipped out of my mother’s womb. I just lost it when I was introduce to how the world out there and around here likes human creatures to behave.
That was my foreign language lesson 101 in what is termed differently according to psychologists perspective for human creatures between ages of 0-3 years outside the womb as if pre zero which is where I learnt everything fresh and live does not count
Some very intelligent brain cells must have really learnt that 0-3 is the best time to domesticate the wild because it worked!
or did it?
Sadly though not many conscious creatures unconsciously joined the clan;\.
Many enough just waited for the right time to take off the heavy yoke and that's when stepping into hell voluntarily is the best way to redemption. Waiting until the breath lives the body is too much work and too much anguish and too much hell too much damned- and even innocent, suffering!
And since I firmly believe in evolution, had always believed in evolution only it was one of my deep secrets that I somehow did not feel to desecrate by inquiring openly in hell chamber of justification and condemnation during Sunday school, catechism classes and homilies and sermons that out rightly banned any thought outside of it precepts and dogmas...like your sign is the sign of the cross not of astrological planetary alignment. What I know I must know even when I had no human concept of why there is something more than what I can explain. Because hell never made sense as opulent afterlife without options except dangling in purgatory, which is rightly the period on earth, when postponing what can be done now for hope that it can be exempted or substituted later. I decided to stalk God if that is what it was going to take to understand and know myself so I can be like that God who made me lower only than itself. I even wonder about that statement more consciously knowing that I am courting God. The motive now a days though is not defiance, it is just plain honest doubt; and God already knew that!
I see hell on earth while in flesh and spirit as students opting to take summer classes as an advance qualification for credits as a head start to higher institutional academic learning prerequisite or as a plus way of getting in- a survival of the fittest strategy designed using divine law. That is why it is both easy and challenging to tell the difference between pure law and imitation law.
The same is with paying my heavy fines to my having lingered in suffering science seminars way past the end of the period- that, I had to pay in full and the sooner I started the quicker I paid it off. That and the fact that God never adds interest to ones debt, just more lessons and patience and all the time I have breath and should I not have enough breath, God is God I will learn it somehow; so dying quicker by living in hell longer is not a practical plot for my life. Thanks to Jesus’ principles I had a few debts wiped out just as scarlet was transformed to pearly whites when the shrewd manager helped out some of his assistants so he could lighten his own load
My mission is getting clearer and clearer- have even a inkling of an idea why I am here in this lifetime learning all the lessons I need for the next lifetime here on earth is like God at my beck and call. This is a truth that set me free from the burdens of hell while I continue to not only believe heaven is here right now but to enjoy it in full.
That brings time to the point of a secret that I had needed to confess more largely; I say much largely because sometimes I admitted that to parents who I felt safe with letting them know that I envy children or used to envy children who always took the risk to test their character in refiner’s fire even when it did not quite them out of hell.
Maybe it did or I would not have felt that twinge in me saying that is what resilience does and no need to envy them because they do it openly; one day you too will do it openly just not in the child size body.
And so each child I saw throw a soul relieving releasing tantrum and then either quietly accepted its failed attempt knew somehow that is was okay and still safe would drift off to sleep; maybe it was sliding back into the womb where it got all what is needed. That is sweet consolation for a child in an adult body full of childlikeness to carry on with the domesticated process knowing full well that this too must pass!
That may have very well been why my envy turned into admiration of little big people- somehow I always was and will be a little- big person. It is called childlikeness, a synonym I use to apply to the word heaven.
Transforming triggers to treasure is the best use of experience. Maybe that is why I laugh at the triggers that always dug their thorns to puncture conscious sound reasoning. The many bruisers in hell were like the lance that pieced Jesus side but was not enough to keep him in the grave! Just like Jesus what may have appeared to overpower him- his God-man spirit, had no power to disturb his mission from Father Timeless and Mother Earth
That is all the Earth School recess I have for now!
And since I firmly believe in evolution, had always believed in evolution only it was one of my deep secrets that I somehow did not feel to desecrate by inquiring openly in hell chamber of justification and condemnation during Sunday school, catechism classes and homilies and sermons that out rightly banned any thought outside of it precepts and dogmas...like your sign is the sign of the cross not of astrological planetary alignment. What I know I must know even when I had no human concept of why there is something more than what I can explain. Because hell never made sense as opulent afterlife without options except dangling in purgatory, which is rightly the period on earth, when postponing what can be done now for hope that it can be exempted or substituted later. I decided to stalk God if that is what it was going to take to understand and know myself so I can be like that God who made me lower only than itself. I even wonder about that statement more consciously knowing that I am courting God. The motive now a days though is not defiance, it is just plain honest doubt; and God already knew that!
I see hell on earth while in flesh and spirit as students opting to take summer classes as an advance qualification for credits as a head start to higher institutional academic learning prerequisite or as a plus way of getting in- a survival of the fittest strategy designed using divine law. That is why it is both easy and challenging to tell the difference between pure law and imitation law.
The same is with paying my heavy fines to my having lingered in suffering science seminars way past the end of the period- that, I had to pay in full and the sooner I started the quicker I paid it off. That and the fact that God never adds interest to ones debt, just more lessons and patience and all the time I have breath and should I not have enough breath, God is God I will learn it somehow; so dying quicker by living in hell longer is not a practical plot for my life. Thanks to Jesus’ principles I had a few debts wiped out just as scarlet was transformed to pearly whites when the shrewd manager helped out some of his assistants so he could lighten his own load
My mission is getting clearer and clearer- have even a inkling of an idea why I am here in this lifetime learning all the lessons I need for the next lifetime here on earth is like God at my beck and call. This is a truth that set me free from the burdens of hell while I continue to not only believe heaven is here right now but to enjoy it in full.
That brings time to the point of a secret that I had needed to confess more largely; I say much largely because sometimes I admitted that to parents who I felt safe with letting them know that I envy children or used to envy children who always took the risk to test their character in refiner’s fire even when it did not quite them out of hell.
Maybe it did or I would not have felt that twinge in me saying that is what resilience does and no need to envy them because they do it openly; one day you too will do it openly just not in the child size body.
And so each child I saw throw a soul relieving releasing tantrum and then either quietly accepted its failed attempt knew somehow that is was okay and still safe would drift off to sleep; maybe it was sliding back into the womb where it got all what is needed. That is sweet consolation for a child in an adult body full of childlikeness to carry on with the domesticated process knowing full well that this too must pass!
That may have very well been why my envy turned into admiration of little big people- somehow I always was and will be a little- big person. It is called childlikeness, a synonym I use to apply to the word heaven.
Transforming triggers to treasure is the best use of experience. Maybe that is why I laugh at the triggers that always dug their thorns to puncture conscious sound reasoning. The many bruisers in hell were like the lance that pieced Jesus side but was not enough to keep him in the grave! Just like Jesus what may have appeared to overpower him- his God-man spirit, had no power to disturb his mission from Father Timeless and Mother Earth
That is all the Earth School recess I have for now!
Back to the campus to assist Earth on its mission in its personally designed curriculum pour moi!
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