Divine Guidance

Many bridges to cross and many more to burn. knowing that much- that’s the easy part

Which ones do I burn and which ones do I walk, or run, or even frolic across? That’s where God comes in and since God likes to spring surprises and play peek-a-boo, I have not much clue what to do.

I even have run out of ideas of how to pray or talk to and with God in a way that does not make me shudder at the thought of how I approach God these days.

I am in combat with holy fear and foolish fear at the same time and I do not seem to have any endearing edge. I know with God it is not about winning or losing because that would make God a liar and while I have my doubts about God I do not dare call God a liar because then I would be yearning for a relationship that is unauthentic.

What is there to defend when I cannot even feel dignified to stand firm on God’s promises, eh God!

Please guide me along the path that you and only you know how to lead me on because these days I cannot tell the difference between your discipline and the punishment of the world and that is too scary for comfort.

I need some more reason to count on you buddy!

Can you do that!
Thanks!