recustomizing and rewriting my script

Connecting myself to that which is waiting for me to stay connected and committed to it had been a metaphysical whirlwind of looking and wanting me to demand proof from the one who never needs me to prove anything.

In a very recent revisiting of God’s idea of my interpretation of my heart’s desire

this is what ensued between us:

God said, wait a minute here Nympha Angeal-Eyes Francis

What am I? Eh, what am I? chop liver?

Wow, wow God, wait a minute here, I never said you are chopped liver

Really!

You even got very close to divorcing us; something I would not let you even carry past a thought.

you almost muffled your music all since you wanted nothing to do with me, OmniGod because I waited for you to tell me exactly how you define long term intimate commitment. I could not watch you throw me away each time I presented Iamness to you. I could not stand the grief of you throwng us away

You had to feel comfortable with the void for your heart’s sake.

Then the void became the very thing that you had tried to describe using a mind that had every possible deviation from me. Without me nothing else matters. It took you another many moments to make sense of the hurricane as it passed over the junkyard in your mind which was hiding me from you. I allowed that just so you know that I am not fake.

I made each person complete before I pronounced: be free to consummate and multiply... mulitply my godability; I said, be fruitful and multiply and that is not limited in any way in my world. Does that help?

I stopped listening at that point...

My heart’s deepest cry, the cry underneath all the hurt, began making sense. Wisdom helped with clarity of what I had been wrestling to accept as the utmost imperative message of the heart. To be sure that God will never leave me or forsake me and that God is in every fibre of my being, all the time though matter what external circumstance try to present in its stone carving. Without wanting to know that for sure, anymore, I know for sure and, evermore

It may take many more moments to get used to what I needed to acquaint myself with a long time now. I am just happy that this one fine day has come.

I can responsibly cooperate with my Iamness, OmniGod and enjoy my sacred-self.

That is one vow that needs daily renewal for a lifetime...