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September 30, 2008

Let the healing begin to continue

Psyche toxicity is mankind’s worse pollution.

The more of it that has been passed on form generation to generation during the sacred dance of the embryo, the more heavily the degree of toxicity.

Time can do a lot of harm especially when what you do not know is what is still hurting and seem to have no logical explanation, apparently

Timeless to the rescue
Self reproach for not knowing how to be a good Jesus imitator and all the while blaming God for making me the way God knew to make me

And heaping mortal brownie sins on top of my immortal free spirit

In deed there was a lot of weeping and grinding and gnashing of teeth in heaven while on earth

Thank God for heeding my Eloi, Eloi, lema sabachthani when my heart, mind, body , spirit and kidneys were at war with each other.

Let the healing begin

This is one instance when slow and steady wins the race; too much at once and more landslides back into the very volcano I was trying to immerse from. Even nature goes into convulsion when too much is released all at once. And the mind then uses the episodes- the backsliding bout to regain its momentum. So my personalized version to that is slow, slow down, rest- even hibernate just as Jesus recommended ’be alone for a while- that one is a bit of a yauwch- still it is worth the Calvary leg before the real resurrection

More healing begins

The heavy emotional load begins to lighten just like the Pilgrims Progress author described it. Incidentally that was a book I invested in when I was a teen and I did not know how to put it down even when I went to sleep. What business did I have being drawn to the book while minding my own business? How did I even find myself in that book store and dare pick up the book with the money I was sent to run errands and hope that there would still be enough to purchase the errands with out raising any suspiciousness. And thank God it was a small book that I could tuck in my secret pocket. The blessing of having to travel far way from home to run errands

God had been preparing me knowing that like Jesus I would go away fro a while- when the pressure was too much.

Anyway fast forward back to now,

more healing begins
more haste les speed is paradoxically true

wanting to catch up from where I left off only rolls my bus downhill.

Lesson understood

More healing begins

Slow, steady, steadfast

Eventually the psychotic parasite begins to realize that all that it has to feed on is spiritual dumplings

Healing really begins

I let go of my down packed itinerary of the healing process in time scheduled style and expectation

Timeless took over

Healing is just beginning in timeless fashion

Flee/fight return to its primordial state

No ancestors to fight no need to fight time or its ancestors and above all, no God to wrestle or haggle with

I am no longer the one who thinks that I control how God should run God’s show and teach Go dhow things ought to run in that belongs to it; so while there is still a lot of muscle to fix and cells to cure and nerves to regenerate, emotion and a psyche to tame, I let God do what only God can do

and allow spirit to run wild and free

Psalm 103 takes on a whole new radical shift

Just when I was at my wits need about the meaning of healing

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