Living in two worlds: overwhelming dilemma

How do I know that OmniGod is still the One
How do I stay focused on swimming upstream when the current is flowing downstream?
How do I know what I need to do when I am downstream?
How do I know what I need to do when I am upstream?
How do I invest wisely whether I am upstream of downstream?
How do I know when to wait, wait patiently; and when to act, act wisely?
I pray with the same feverishly intent- without the worry and sometime with the worry!

Then I shake it and fill it to brim with a generous extra of faith that the God of discernment of all things, all thoughts, all emotions will sought it all out…even when no words are required or necessary

Bombarded between whole and hole with the decision to choose from is like walking on a tight rope so far up in the sky that the trampoline appears to be not anywhere in plain sight where I will need it. And looking ahead of the trek superimposed on the jagged edge of a cliff doesn’t help either. Its like Peter walking up and down and around the lake of Galilee all fine and dandy until the wind began to blow!

By design, I know first instinct would be to trust the maker of the wind; by habit I have become prone to believing that a blob of terror is mightier than the wind-charmer.

Maintaining a balance between heavenly-mindedness with earthly-purpose is the practical solution to being earthly-purposed with heavenly-mindedness. Even beginning to begin to focus on the difference is triggering trust and panic in the headquarters of confusion and clarity. Guiding God, transform my understanding of the difference between the two worlds: the seeking soul of a committed citizen.

So I continue to do what I do best- exploring the mind and writing its message using my very own voice.

So help me OmniGod