It is incredibly startling how I retreat to my old mindset of OmniGod when my buttons seem pushed past limits with no clear explanation or apparent reason.
Since everything happens for a reason I know that there is good reason for my recent wanderings that brought me back to times when I used to believe that God had already finished doing everything that’s required and I got a poor hand of cards and well, tough! and that the rough, rigid, rascal was having trouble coming up with a back up plan to undo the damage of such ruthless use of intelligence and so I was left on my own to figure out life .
It is amazing I still have tongue, teeth, lips and cheeks and that God’s wrath did not finish me up!
Thank God for setting the record straight: no need to continue believing that old definition of God. Since I have, even for a moment, been able to have a personal concept of the God who changest not and I need to continue reinforcing my relationship with the OmniGod as I chose to as I understand; I thought that by now the fact that I took the time to really know the Holy-High God and personally defining OmniGod would make it easy to not revert to the ruffian-God and maintain the gusto of least resistance of life’s fray which I know still comes and sometimes comes in unexpected ways as long as I am flesh and blood.
My wheel got stuck, I’ll say. And of course, whom did I call on for help when yet another stall in unbelief muckland attempted to grind me?
Dear OmniGod:
My apologies for my blasting when your presence seem to have left me, I am not sure why; all I know is you are in all of this perplexity and complexity. For that reason I felt safe even when I was rehashing how I used to think of you… it was as though I just lost it with you!
Thank you for being blatant with me and for reopening my heart and mind’s eyes and realigning them so I reconnect with you the God who knows all things, sees all things and understands all things.
This is way better than a flogging with no intrinsic reward, even in hindsight.
Since everything happens for a reason I know that there is good reason for my recent wanderings that brought me back to times when I used to believe that God had already finished doing everything that’s required and I got a poor hand of cards and well, tough! and that the rough, rigid, rascal was having trouble coming up with a back up plan to undo the damage of such ruthless use of intelligence and so I was left on my own to figure out life .
It is amazing I still have tongue, teeth, lips and cheeks and that God’s wrath did not finish me up!
Thank God for setting the record straight: no need to continue believing that old definition of God. Since I have, even for a moment, been able to have a personal concept of the God who changest not and I need to continue reinforcing my relationship with the OmniGod as I chose to as I understand; I thought that by now the fact that I took the time to really know the Holy-High God and personally defining OmniGod would make it easy to not revert to the ruffian-God and maintain the gusto of least resistance of life’s fray which I know still comes and sometimes comes in unexpected ways as long as I am flesh and blood.
My wheel got stuck, I’ll say. And of course, whom did I call on for help when yet another stall in unbelief muckland attempted to grind me?
Dear OmniGod:
My apologies for my blasting when your presence seem to have left me, I am not sure why; all I know is you are in all of this perplexity and complexity. For that reason I felt safe even when I was rehashing how I used to think of you… it was as though I just lost it with you!
Thank you for being blatant with me and for reopening my heart and mind’s eyes and realigning them so I reconnect with you the God who knows all things, sees all things and understands all things.
This is way better than a flogging with no intrinsic reward, even in hindsight.
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