So far, so good!

Testing my mettle when charging in to the unknown and facing the unexpected is yielding abundant results like, seeing things in a new light, reconsidering my personal agendas in light of the big planner’s plan, and pushing past those mental barriers; feeling pretty normal having ongoing dialogue with myself; childlike excitement, at the simplest attention grabber, though matter where; tiptoeing into nature's mind to check out her volumes of tips so that I can glean ideas, first hand, on how to tackle the answer to the question “What do I really want to do with my life while anticipating my ultimate calling?”

The already concrete goals etched in my heart even before I quite knew what I was asking God for when asked to choose a vocation in life. After wrestling with this assignment back then, days before the due date, I finally grew enough courage to write it down: marry and have all my children... and to teach came on the scene years later. Teaching was manifesting in almost a jiffy!

Sometimes I wonder if God is still enjoying a laugh on the fact that I totally renounced entertaining the idea of being married to Christ himself. As a child, it was not so much that I found the idea of marrying to the body of Christ a bit morbid and farfetched but the terms and conditions of accomplishing that meant abandoning a big portion of my dream to be sacrificed and since Christ was already an ultimate sacrifice I already was old enough to know that I could not stomach that nuptial agreement and deny myself the truth of the role I felt would make me eternally blissful. So of course I wrote what my heart invited me to admit and confess my ultimate calling. My heart's desire now, is still that one day God will bring it to full fuition. The cognisant feels trapped by the constraint of time; still the intuitive guide is encouraging me to believe and trust its ability to silence the noise of doubt and despair.

And so the dream lives on, weaving all kind of possibilities!