Consulting with my inner warrior

Sometimes it seem like God is alluring me to come closer so he can whisper sweet love songs in my ear; other times, it seems like he is baiting me to come closer so I can get the full impact of his clout. And there is always one sure way to find out… get close as you can with one feet ready to turn around …oh well, there goes my comparing God to human authority style…

Oh God Am I going to swallow my tongue when this blog is written and posted!

What can I say!

I have tested all human discipline to God’s and sometimes I had been convinced that what I was first informed about God was really true; and if so, I was in for a severe bite… a bite that would makes winter’s gnaw feel like heavenly bliss!

All I can say in hindsight is my impaired judgement prevented me from knowing that I am already whole and the need to prove that I am good was just a waste of energy which God was nudging me to put to better use.

It took discipline, punishment, rescuing and ignoring… I guess that is when the free will thing can be a nuisance. It took God many trips in the wilderness with me; but then and again, he is God and that is one of the things he does when one of his sheep goes astray and baaaas until he hears it; and, just as the sheep is confident that the shepherd hears it, so I waited patiently for God to find me, scoop me up and shear the matted wool.