My 31122007 offering
God already knew that the day or was it the split second that I pronounce that my greatest desire is to have and maintain a healthy and intimate relationship with my Essence I was in for the long haul all because my humanness would be seriously competitive with Divinity, to no avail. God also knew that I would not yield in to the temptation of giving up on God or myself. That’s what keeps my life flames ablaze; well, besides engaging my dream of the recording-breaking goal of living as long as Job!
In order to accomplish that, I have to continue leaving life’s tangles in God’s basket and since God is at the helm of my life and the one sincerely admiring my heart and keeping it in fine condition; in fact, my whole person is being attended to by God; this is the best wining strategy... giving God my all! Well then and again, it is God's in the first place!
It is this nugget of truth that keeps me confidently offering life’s frays back to God because though matter what comes my way God knows how to handle it, fix it, adjust it, restore it, recreate it back to its original mould even after the moulding no longer seem serviceable backed up by an iron clad guarantee and above all God always knows what's coming, what is, what has been.. the who's , how's, where's and my favourite, the why's. That is what I call God’s in charge or my money back! Since God always works this is more than product warranty and that makes me wanna shout Hallelujah because had there been an expiry date or additional payments required for extended warranty, I’d be long mulched!
So no matter how I moan and groan about; and, battle with God’s plan and purpose, I will keep offering a humble heart to the One who knows how to handle me with care. God already knows that is as good as it gets!
Hearts off to God and that’s my daily offering: a heart… my heart!
I say thank you to 2007 and all its shebang and say 2008, ready or not... I am ready!
Thanks to all my loved ones and fellow sojourners who over the years have help me more than they can ever imagine; and for even the simplest dialogue- spoken or unspoken that keeps on common grounds...on higher grounds. Kudos!
December 31, 2007
December 30, 2007
Advanced Appreciation
Giving thanks is one of the great qualities of the heart that the mind still finds Its self expressing with a bit more queasiness than it can handle when life’s test quizzes it and squeezes it so as to honour its intention to resonate with heart ability.
The heart fully understands and respects the way the mind responds when it acts and reacts with God and life situations therefore heart continues to give and receive genuine thanks while mind does what mind can to prevail practicing gratitude of faith in things unseen, unrecognized or not yet received and for things already received and not yet seen, recognized or understood. Talk about confusing and unconfusing; infusing, re-fusing and fusing enthusing
Suffice to say, I am choosing to already congratulate mind for wanting what heart is offering- the choice to experience its full enlightenment
The heart fully understands and respects the way the mind responds when it acts and reacts with God and life situations therefore heart continues to give and receive genuine thanks while mind does what mind can to prevail practicing gratitude of faith in things unseen, unrecognized or not yet received and for things already received and not yet seen, recognized or understood. Talk about confusing and unconfusing; infusing, re-fusing and fusing enthusing
Suffice to say, I am choosing to already congratulate mind for wanting what heart is offering- the choice to experience its full enlightenment
December 29, 2007
Optimal Options
How God uses life and its fullness of categories to choose knowing when to back off and when it is perfectly safe to step up the front line and count myself as one of its worthy creatures took a lot of do it again until every fibre of your being feels connected with all of life as I endowed you.
I thought God’s sense of humour is becoming increasing more humourous. Although this great creature and creator of potency informed me that it had already taken the responsibility to ensure that it anointed soul’s shebang with Grace and guaranteed it full restoration of its passion, mind was still too overwhelmed by the swelling up of its memory of carrying crosses too many at once to even begin to trust God on that assurance. the body still recovering from its battery of bruisers boldly stood in front of God with such confidence, resilience pumped it with oomph that made mind go, “wow” holy “wow”
Suffice to say this body which is my body knows its full worth
I thought God’s sense of humour is becoming increasing more humourous. Although this great creature and creator of potency informed me that it had already taken the responsibility to ensure that it anointed soul’s shebang with Grace and guaranteed it full restoration of its passion, mind was still too overwhelmed by the swelling up of its memory of carrying crosses too many at once to even begin to trust God on that assurance. the body still recovering from its battery of bruisers boldly stood in front of God with such confidence, resilience pumped it with oomph that made mind go, “wow” holy “wow”
Suffice to say this body which is my body knows its full worth
December 28, 2007
Miracle and Magic
When everywhere is nowhere and nowhere is everywhere ghosts amuse themselves in the visible realm of invisible.
The mind participates and even contributes to the weirdness. Scattered bits of soul come together to use the avail of this party to solace itself and find matching pieces and release what is not a perfect fit for it. Willingness to fully honour its agreement with Universe requires soul to match with its cosmic characteristic compatibility
This can go on while the waking world is on hectic running or the sleeping universe is on auto pilot duty. What I enjoy most is the fact that this can also happen back to the future tomorrow yesterday moving at warp speed or sludge style and now is either a dèjà vu, past life, real-time or surreal rendezvous. The even most comforting confusion is when I feel like I am dead and alive in the same instant playing the star role. I call this the HOLY WOW EFFECT of reality and continue letting life and death and everything in between keep me sane in a style that is unmatched and can never ever be imitated, repeated or duplicated.
That also defines magic, miracles, and wholeness.
The mind participates and even contributes to the weirdness. Scattered bits of soul come together to use the avail of this party to solace itself and find matching pieces and release what is not a perfect fit for it. Willingness to fully honour its agreement with Universe requires soul to match with its cosmic characteristic compatibility
This can go on while the waking world is on hectic running or the sleeping universe is on auto pilot duty. What I enjoy most is the fact that this can also happen back to the future tomorrow yesterday moving at warp speed or sludge style and now is either a dèjà vu, past life, real-time or surreal rendezvous. The even most comforting confusion is when I feel like I am dead and alive in the same instant playing the star role. I call this the HOLY WOW EFFECT of reality and continue letting life and death and everything in between keep me sane in a style that is unmatched and can never ever be imitated, repeated or duplicated.
That also defines magic, miracles, and wholeness.
December 27, 2007
God's sense of humour
The more I acted as though I had everything including God under control the more I struggled to make sense of the evitable and inevitable. And you know, God let me!
What a sense of humour God has.
Meanwhile…
Tangible evidence made no sense at all and intangible evidence just smiled along mockingly. Night or day made no difference; hope and despair meant the same thing; still I held on to this heart of mine while losing the firm grip of my mind.
Talk about holy tension…
I could hear God laughing his head off from his throne high above the heavens. I began to laugh too as I handed my 'something for God to do' box back to God.
What a sense of humour God has.
Meanwhile…
Tangible evidence made no sense at all and intangible evidence just smiled along mockingly. Night or day made no difference; hope and despair meant the same thing; still I held on to this heart of mine while losing the firm grip of my mind.
Talk about holy tension…
I could hear God laughing his head off from his throne high above the heavens. I began to laugh too as I handed my 'something for God to do' box back to God.
December 25, 2007
Unambiguous Ambiguity
December 22, 2007
Thank you, God for Inquisitiveness
It is none of my business to know your plan
Or the purpose for which you formed my life
I didn’t need to know much about the teachers
Whom you sent with your oil, lamp and lanterns
You just need my assistance to fulfill your will
How you chose to do it was none of my business
You created my curiosity and my inquisitiveness
But the reason for that is none of my business
Still I am curious as to why…answer me, God!
Or the purpose for which you formed my life
I didn’t need to know much about the teachers
Whom you sent with your oil, lamp and lanterns
You just need my assistance to fulfill your will
How you chose to do it was none of my business
You created my curiosity and my inquisitiveness
But the reason for that is none of my business
Still I am curious as to why…answer me, God!
Pretty Please!
I know you will, still I am curious as to when and how
Although I know that this is none of my business...
I'd still like to know
December 20, 2007
My goal in life
I have gone all over the world of my mind in search of my ultimate goal and purpose… something that would stay with me in abundance, though matter what.
Of course I have God’s promises, love, mercy and grace… but I wanted a little something more… you know! Something when the void feels too big a vacuum to contain my wilderness wonderings.
And then I heard a drum roll in heaven. I stood at attention… I know it is coming. I know the answer to my finding purpose in life is approaching; that which, if all it’s what I accomplish and desire will be like seeking first the kingdom of God…
And there it arrived with a fanfare that makes me grin with glee … right on time. Heaven’s biggest jackpot and I did not even have to enter a contest or lottery!
Nympha Angeal-Eyes Francis, seek peace, harmony, laughter and love, as a daily requirement of your fortune and all the rest will fall in line. Make no mistake about that because as scripture warns, your treasure will be where your heart is.
Well say no more!
Of course I have God’s promises, love, mercy and grace… but I wanted a little something more… you know! Something when the void feels too big a vacuum to contain my wilderness wonderings.
And then I heard a drum roll in heaven. I stood at attention… I know it is coming. I know the answer to my finding purpose in life is approaching; that which, if all it’s what I accomplish and desire will be like seeking first the kingdom of God…
And there it arrived with a fanfare that makes me grin with glee … right on time. Heaven’s biggest jackpot and I did not even have to enter a contest or lottery!
Nympha Angeal-Eyes Francis, seek peace, harmony, laughter and love, as a daily requirement of your fortune and all the rest will fall in line. Make no mistake about that because as scripture warns, your treasure will be where your heart is.
Well say no more!
December 16, 2007
Nine one one…..nine eleven
Something struck me in my writing tracks while scripting the previous blog and captured every cell in my brain.
Was the twin tower bombing a strategic plot to indicate the poor planning of state security? Was that a wake up call to implement effective emergency? Was that an attempt to heed the danger of manmade solutions to address injustice, greed and hate? Was that an eye-opener for governing bodies to acknowledge the consequences of their discrepancies?
I sit there and I wonder why this struck me so hard long after the bomb demolished the twin towers and ruined countless lives.
My heart continue to go out to the people who paid the price and those who continue to foot the bill for the lives consumed in such a reckless act which also seem to have been a rude awakening of the price of a human life and crucial need for respect for all life.
Was the twin tower bombing a strategic plot to indicate the poor planning of state security? Was that a wake up call to implement effective emergency? Was that an attempt to heed the danger of manmade solutions to address injustice, greed and hate? Was that an eye-opener for governing bodies to acknowledge the consequences of their discrepancies?
I sit there and I wonder why this struck me so hard long after the bomb demolished the twin towers and ruined countless lives.
My heart continue to go out to the people who paid the price and those who continue to foot the bill for the lives consumed in such a reckless act which also seem to have been a rude awakening of the price of a human life and crucial need for respect for all life.
December 15, 2007
Moonlighting for God 24/7
I still do not know exactly what God did for the three Hebrew brothers prior to the ‘tried, tested, true rendezvous in the fiery furnace or what they promise Yahweh to do after rescue 911 in heaven and as much as I ‘d like to know for sure, I think I have a pretty good idea; maybe God will explain while I still have breath or maybe he already did. As long as I continue to choose a deep desire for life, fiery furnaces and rescue 911 chambers are inevitable.
In the meantime I will continue moonlighting for God… 24/7.
In the meantime I will continue moonlighting for God… 24/7.
December 14, 2007
Moseying Moments
December 13, 2007
That's the Spirit!
Angeal-Eyes:
I must commend you for doing the easiest hardest thing, which can also be deemed the hardest easiest risk- taking a chance on me and, as you always like to say in your disclaimer, even yes, even when you do not like the way I, God, does things!
I call that total surrender and of course this is my definition of humility not helplessness or losing the battle. After all how can you lose the battle when you choose to hand them over to me just like you handed me back your mangled heart!
That's a girl!
I know that you have to work much harder at listening and holding your tongue or as you like to say watching your tongue and so far so good; your heart is resting and working much more optimally and so the mind will follow its lead! That too is surrender a kind of death, if you will!
Believe that, Angeal girl; believe that!
Over! Roger.., roger... ten four
OmniGod...
p.s. you know Angeal-Eyes, I love that term you created to personalize my name.. OmniGod!
Thanks
OmniGod!
I must commend you for doing the easiest hardest thing, which can also be deemed the hardest easiest risk- taking a chance on me and, as you always like to say in your disclaimer, even yes, even when you do not like the way I, God, does things!
I call that total surrender and of course this is my definition of humility not helplessness or losing the battle. After all how can you lose the battle when you choose to hand them over to me just like you handed me back your mangled heart!
That's a girl!
I know that you have to work much harder at listening and holding your tongue or as you like to say watching your tongue and so far so good; your heart is resting and working much more optimally and so the mind will follow its lead! That too is surrender a kind of death, if you will!
Believe that, Angeal girl; believe that!
Over! Roger.., roger... ten four
OmniGod...
p.s. you know Angeal-Eyes, I love that term you created to personalize my name.. OmniGod!
Thanks
OmniGod!
December 12, 2007
Clarification for the fray
Dear God I am so glad that you clarify what the biblical scholar meant when he said that when I do not use your gift, I lose it!
You must really know that this made me very despondent. After all why guard my life and talent only for you take it away and give someone one else the talent or credit- for lack of a better expression. If you created me to accomplish certain tasks that you specialized me to take on. Why then, would you threaten to take it away? I came to one conclusion: that you are big joker!
Well thanks for setting the record straight. That is more than a sheer consolation. This is a great hallelujah mountain-crushing Alleluia. You know how relieved I am from the dread of working in vain figuring out your purpose for creating me. Every day I still need to know why I am here. Needless to say my heart was crushed by the thought of you changing your mind on your endowment bestowed on me even before I was born. You know I do not want to die with my music still lodged in latent land.
I am so happy that instead of throwing in the towel on your promises I decided to level with you and disclose all that cause such a rift between wanting you and dissing you. Oh for crying loud, God I am sorry for calling you a joker and thank you for not taking my heart’s cry as a joke on you.
Thank you so much for fully understanding me just as much as you lovingly created me!You must really be in love with me and want me to always come to you and be with you just as I am sincerely. I may never fully comprehend you enough to love you back just as you love me, still I am brazen enough to attempt to renew my commitment to let you use me to do your best. I cannot imagine a better way that you choose to honour me, and it is not yet even Resurrection Day or is it what you mean by raising the dead to eternal life… for my sake I hope so. I know I can count on you to explain this to me too!
Until then I vow to continue to press on.
You must really know that this made me very despondent. After all why guard my life and talent only for you take it away and give someone one else the talent or credit- for lack of a better expression. If you created me to accomplish certain tasks that you specialized me to take on. Why then, would you threaten to take it away? I came to one conclusion: that you are big joker!
Well thanks for setting the record straight. That is more than a sheer consolation. This is a great hallelujah mountain-crushing Alleluia. You know how relieved I am from the dread of working in vain figuring out your purpose for creating me. Every day I still need to know why I am here. Needless to say my heart was crushed by the thought of you changing your mind on your endowment bestowed on me even before I was born. You know I do not want to die with my music still lodged in latent land.
I am so happy that instead of throwing in the towel on your promises I decided to level with you and disclose all that cause such a rift between wanting you and dissing you. Oh for crying loud, God I am sorry for calling you a joker and thank you for not taking my heart’s cry as a joke on you.
Thank you so much for fully understanding me just as much as you lovingly created me!You must really be in love with me and want me to always come to you and be with you just as I am sincerely. I may never fully comprehend you enough to love you back just as you love me, still I am brazen enough to attempt to renew my commitment to let you use me to do your best. I cannot imagine a better way that you choose to honour me, and it is not yet even Resurrection Day or is it what you mean by raising the dead to eternal life… for my sake I hope so. I know I can count on you to explain this to me too!
Until then I vow to continue to press on.
December 10, 2007
When patience turns to idleness!
Enough speculation God… where are you and what am I to do now… How am I holding up? I still do not know you very well or as I want to. Every day I wake up with the intention and willingness to follow you and honestly in the end of most days I wonder where I have been.
Truth is, if wherever I go there you are why should it matter if I go nowhere, now here or somewhere and is there even a nowhere? Why do hard times tease and taunt me about where you are and where you are not when all I want is to know you like you know me as I continue to let you reveal your reason for creating me.
Maybe you have already addressed this nagging question. Why am I here, God… why? Maybe I do not like the way you do the things you do and if this is it then make me understand the way you do the things you do. Some times I am afraid to even ask you to take over. I dread the way you do the things you do yet since you know best why you do things the way you do the things you do I will not settle for less than the way you do the things you know how to do. So here I grow again... here I groan again.
Truth is, if wherever I go there you are why should it matter if I go nowhere, now here or somewhere and is there even a nowhere? Why do hard times tease and taunt me about where you are and where you are not when all I want is to know you like you know me as I continue to let you reveal your reason for creating me.
Maybe you have already addressed this nagging question. Why am I here, God… why? Maybe I do not like the way you do the things you do and if this is it then make me understand the way you do the things you do. Some times I am afraid to even ask you to take over. I dread the way you do the things you do yet since you know best why you do things the way you do the things you do I will not settle for less than the way you do the things you know how to do. So here I grow again... here I groan again.
December 09, 2007
Walking on God's tightrope... priceless!
When the disciples volunteered to follow Jesus, he told them a few things that seem to be in sync with God's "all or nothing" requirement:
foxes have holes; let the dead bury the dead ... and that he was about his father's business and I wondered; what on earth is up with this Jesus. I know now that Jesus did not mean the physically dead when he addressed them... this Jesus and all his parables; he always answered the question and, not necessarily what the words implied.
I ask God to help me make sense of this Jesus and the easiest way is to do the hardest thing... think like a child! Now I understand why Jesus used a child to make a point to the disciples and his parable of a camel going through the eye of a needle and better to make it to the pearly gates with one eye and one hand...
WOW God! Thank you for 'fresh eyes'!
Who taught Jesus all this analogy?
Don't answer that! I already know!
Thank you that with you, this too is possible... you know that my adult body is full of cells that need to go back in time to when there was no time. That calls for courage, wisdom, trust and I mean, God-size trust!
So why didn't Abraham ask you questions when you made no sense in the scientific world (in his mind)?
You must have put some instructions in his heart and he, Abraham, though it made no sense to him, followed them as best as he could, is that it?
Don't answer that either! I am figuring it out!
You told me that you will explain later so as much as I would like to ask you when, I will just do what Father Abraham did.
That's why I wanted you to loan me Abraham's faith however knowing you, you would rather that I ask you for my very own mustard size faith to start blooming and flowering and of course, yield multitude of blessings.
Alright, alright let's continue crossing your tightrope! I am right behind you holding on for, dear life!
And the best part is, I am hitched to your yoke!
Thank you
foxes have holes; let the dead bury the dead ... and that he was about his father's business and I wondered; what on earth is up with this Jesus. I know now that Jesus did not mean the physically dead when he addressed them... this Jesus and all his parables; he always answered the question and, not necessarily what the words implied.
I ask God to help me make sense of this Jesus and the easiest way is to do the hardest thing... think like a child! Now I understand why Jesus used a child to make a point to the disciples and his parable of a camel going through the eye of a needle and better to make it to the pearly gates with one eye and one hand...
WOW God! Thank you for 'fresh eyes'!
Who taught Jesus all this analogy?
Don't answer that! I already know!
Thank you that with you, this too is possible... you know that my adult body is full of cells that need to go back in time to when there was no time. That calls for courage, wisdom, trust and I mean, God-size trust!
So why didn't Abraham ask you questions when you made no sense in the scientific world (in his mind)?
You must have put some instructions in his heart and he, Abraham, though it made no sense to him, followed them as best as he could, is that it?
Don't answer that either! I am figuring it out!
You told me that you will explain later so as much as I would like to ask you when, I will just do what Father Abraham did.
That's why I wanted you to loan me Abraham's faith however knowing you, you would rather that I ask you for my very own mustard size faith to start blooming and flowering and of course, yield multitude of blessings.
Alright, alright let's continue crossing your tightrope! I am right behind you holding on for, dear life!
And the best part is, I am hitched to your yoke!
Thank you
December 08, 2007
It boils down to God or nothing!
When I asked God to go ahead and show me what is this gap that separates me and God, that must have put a great big smile on God's face. All I know is that we hit the highway and knowing how God does God-size things I held on to my seat even though my seat belt was secure... I wonder if that is the reflection of the size of my faith.. well given my own explanation of things, I am inclined to say that it also rocked my patience tank...oops God, it is empty and the sad fact is I am patient with everyone and everything else except you. Why is that? Never mind that... I need to be a little more direct with you here, God. What is that suppose to mean when I have given you the right of way!
When it is not one thing; it is another and I am sick and tired of justifying what you have not given me an answer to... do you get that?
I mean common; all because you know that I let you take charge you just want to reap my heart apart or ...take that back... I better ask you a question. Did I rupture my heart again since you last mended it?
O Evay... another serving of Haphak please.
I better go take a nap then I can be quiet and all alone with you, no need for an anaesthesia; I get your answer loud and clear.
Leave everything to you!
You got that right; that is all I have to do!
So I finally arrived at my greatest destination on the road least crowded and as lonely as this end of the road is, it boils down to God or nothing; and, I choose God!
Kind of scary; yet this is what it takes when God says that it is all or nothing.
Father Abraham, I need you; never mind you, I need to loan your faith!
Hannah, Leah, Esther, Kings David and Solomon, Nehemiah, Daniel, the three Hebrew brothers-Hananiah, Mishael, and Azariah; and of course, among the countless biblical mentors, Jonah I must admit that I am beginning to understand your stories.
I still have a bit of a shadow feeling about Jesus death, burial and resurrection story... the miracle working part and taking his cue from you seat well with me. I need to understand the real message behind the whole life story of Jesus even if that mean that I may take on studying the original language in which the bible was inspired to the writers because the translation process seem to have watered down the substance.
I can read and, above average, understand the English Language and considering all the room for misinterpreting, I got to go with my gut on that one... God it is either that or you speak up a little more in a way that my heart can convince me that my faith is sound and well grounded in you, God; otherwise you lost me, again and I cannot afford to lose you now or ever and I dare say you cannot afford to let me out of your sight!
When it is not one thing; it is another and I am sick and tired of justifying what you have not given me an answer to... do you get that?
I mean common; all because you know that I let you take charge you just want to reap my heart apart or ...take that back... I better ask you a question. Did I rupture my heart again since you last mended it?
O Evay... another serving of Haphak please.
I better go take a nap then I can be quiet and all alone with you, no need for an anaesthesia; I get your answer loud and clear.
Leave everything to you!
You got that right; that is all I have to do!
So I finally arrived at my greatest destination on the road least crowded and as lonely as this end of the road is, it boils down to God or nothing; and, I choose God!
Kind of scary; yet this is what it takes when God says that it is all or nothing.
Father Abraham, I need you; never mind you, I need to loan your faith!
Hannah, Leah, Esther, Kings David and Solomon, Nehemiah, Daniel, the three Hebrew brothers-Hananiah, Mishael, and Azariah; and of course, among the countless biblical mentors, Jonah I must admit that I am beginning to understand your stories.
I still have a bit of a shadow feeling about Jesus death, burial and resurrection story... the miracle working part and taking his cue from you seat well with me. I need to understand the real message behind the whole life story of Jesus even if that mean that I may take on studying the original language in which the bible was inspired to the writers because the translation process seem to have watered down the substance.
I can read and, above average, understand the English Language and considering all the room for misinterpreting, I got to go with my gut on that one... God it is either that or you speak up a little more in a way that my heart can convince me that my faith is sound and well grounded in you, God; otherwise you lost me, again and I cannot afford to lose you now or ever and I dare say you cannot afford to let me out of your sight!
December 07, 2007
War disguised as peace...peace disguised as war!
Nympha Angeal-Eyes Francis!
I know that you took the bravest step that you will ever take in life and this is the best move you ever made and I am right in with you the whole nine, ten or infinite number of steps you take from then onwards so long as you continue to let me call all your shots. I know this is scary and I know that your heart is racing and pumping at a neck breaking pace. The thing is you heart is so excited even though on the outside you feel like you are putting it in overdrive... that is not your doing so relax... slow down...all is well.. all is well!
You wish things were done easier and more comfortable.. as you know I, God does not work that way so you are right when you say that things are not what they appear to be on the surface.
Peace, my child, peace!
I will explain later...
I know that you took the bravest step that you will ever take in life and this is the best move you ever made and I am right in with you the whole nine, ten or infinite number of steps you take from then onwards so long as you continue to let me call all your shots. I know this is scary and I know that your heart is racing and pumping at a neck breaking pace. The thing is you heart is so excited even though on the outside you feel like you are putting it in overdrive... that is not your doing so relax... slow down...all is well.. all is well!
You wish things were done easier and more comfortable.. as you know I, God does not work that way so you are right when you say that things are not what they appear to be on the surface.
Peace, my child, peace!
I will explain later...
December 06, 2007
The Joy of thinking for one's self... priceless
it removes...
... the burden of judgement
...the risk of condemnation
...the boundaries of imported beliefs
...eliminates striving and toiling in vain
...consciousness from the closet
...it erradicates disease and unneccsary stress!
it flourishes...
...the freedom to remain accountable
...going the extra mile, cheerfully
...keeps a clear vision and perception
... change of mind over change of heart
makes you know God first hand- up, close and personal!
encourages to hold on to the very end
it defines the difference between selfish and respect
WYSIWYG- what you see is what you get!
these are a few things that make the Joy of thinking for one's self...
... priceless!
... the burden of judgement
...the risk of condemnation
...the boundaries of imported beliefs
...eliminates striving and toiling in vain
...consciousness from the closet
...it erradicates disease and unneccsary stress!
it flourishes...
...the freedom to remain accountable
...going the extra mile, cheerfully
...keeps a clear vision and perception
... change of mind over change of heart
makes you know God first hand- up, close and personal!
encourages to hold on to the very end
it defines the difference between selfish and respect
WYSIWYG- what you see is what you get!
these are a few things that make the Joy of thinking for one's self...
... priceless!
December 05, 2007
The danger of ignoring underlying issues in the face of change
Dear God:
When I start taking you more and more at your face value, at your word and your promises everything seem to fall apart and I feel so much like I want you to leave me alone.
Is that your way of leading me on or testing my faith to follow my heart's desire?
Don't you think that it would be nice for me to not have to explain what I feel you should be explaining?
The bottom line is I am not very impress with your stunts; is it okay if I call them stunts?
I know that things are not always what they appear to be so what do you want me to see; I think I need to ask for a pair OmniGod eyes and even that may not be any more help than my Angeal-Eyes so open the eyes of my heart and then again I am not sure if that is the limitation here. What are you up to, my trusted one?
I do not want to ignore what you are saying to me so keep me in tune with you, I only want to hear your voice, though matter what the source... okay!
Needless to say that I am very anxious now that I have finally let go of the training wheels and in case, I make a boo boo I am getting on your case now, so please do not fail me now.
I want to trust you... is that a deal?
Thank you in advance!
When I start taking you more and more at your face value, at your word and your promises everything seem to fall apart and I feel so much like I want you to leave me alone.
Is that your way of leading me on or testing my faith to follow my heart's desire?
Don't you think that it would be nice for me to not have to explain what I feel you should be explaining?
The bottom line is I am not very impress with your stunts; is it okay if I call them stunts?
I know that things are not always what they appear to be so what do you want me to see; I think I need to ask for a pair OmniGod eyes and even that may not be any more help than my Angeal-Eyes so open the eyes of my heart and then again I am not sure if that is the limitation here. What are you up to, my trusted one?
I do not want to ignore what you are saying to me so keep me in tune with you, I only want to hear your voice, though matter what the source... okay!
Needless to say that I am very anxious now that I have finally let go of the training wheels and in case, I make a boo boo I am getting on your case now, so please do not fail me now.
I want to trust you... is that a deal?
Thank you in advance!
December 04, 2007
Letting a breakthrough run its full course... priceless!
I am getting more and more in tune with how God works even though still, mostly in hindsight, after a poent dose of mindset renewal.
Too many stop signs in what seemed like a right of way intersection. I can only imagine what the motorist feels like when the light turns red and what is on the pedestrian’s mind when the light turns green at the most inconvenient moment!
Does that analogy make sense to you, God? That is how I have been feeling when, in the last little while all roads seem to have a closed or detour sign. I thought what the heck?
I was wondering what you were up to and which of my numbers of prayers came out your bingo bag. Whichever it is, the signs of the times did not seem any where close to sensible for a win.
What I have learnt from all the previous breakthroughs is that when I make even a small and sometimes-dangerous curve on the road, I am not the one driving. So instead of trying to help you steer clear, I just rest according to your definition of rest and development. I have to hand it to you though! I did not see that curve ball, well I have been sensing that you are getting in your I have to get to Nympha somehow gear; and, wham…bam…A breakthrough moment!
What I figured out is that everything I have ninety-nine reasons to call God a lunatic, I have just one reason to hold my tongue… and enjoy God's sense of humour. That does not always stop the mind from rumbling on and on; I just learn how to still listen, trust and obey my heart.
Bull’s Eye… that’s the answered prayer… help in trusting my heart! I tell you that was a hard act to follow and as usual it is very rewarding.
So I will continue to be still; and, know God in still in charge and has the final word!
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart .… In all your ways acknowledge him.”—Proverbs 3:5-6
Too many stop signs in what seemed like a right of way intersection. I can only imagine what the motorist feels like when the light turns red and what is on the pedestrian’s mind when the light turns green at the most inconvenient moment!
Does that analogy make sense to you, God? That is how I have been feeling when, in the last little while all roads seem to have a closed or detour sign. I thought what the heck?
I was wondering what you were up to and which of my numbers of prayers came out your bingo bag. Whichever it is, the signs of the times did not seem any where close to sensible for a win.
What I have learnt from all the previous breakthroughs is that when I make even a small and sometimes-dangerous curve on the road, I am not the one driving. So instead of trying to help you steer clear, I just rest according to your definition of rest and development. I have to hand it to you though! I did not see that curve ball, well I have been sensing that you are getting in your I have to get to Nympha somehow gear; and, wham…bam…A breakthrough moment!
What I figured out is that everything I have ninety-nine reasons to call God a lunatic, I have just one reason to hold my tongue… and enjoy God's sense of humour. That does not always stop the mind from rumbling on and on; I just learn how to still listen, trust and obey my heart.
Bull’s Eye… that’s the answered prayer… help in trusting my heart! I tell you that was a hard act to follow and as usual it is very rewarding.
So I will continue to be still; and, know God in still in charge and has the final word!
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart .… In all your ways acknowledge him.”—Proverbs 3:5-6
December 03, 2007
Enjoying my relationship with God even more readily!
I take God’s promise of “Come to me all you who labour and are heavily burdened. Take my yoke let me ease your burden because my toke is easy and my burden light”
At first when I kept rolling back into the precipice-wilderness- I thought yeah right! This had to be a false call. For a good while, more than I care to confess and still brazen enough to document I thought this offer from God was contradiction in terms because many of my biggest ouches seem to have worsened after exchanging vows with God, woyoyoy- talk about for better or worse in sickness and health till death do us part.
Forget about the marriage God; just forget it! Is that you idea of unconditional love and lifetime guarantee?
God decide to contest my divorce and took on my challenge and I am alive and ouchy to testify that though the worst may not be over, the best is at hand to enjoy… my attitude…my perception…my courage to take on God
No wonder God did not say anything… instead God just showed me!
A real Mc Coy, if you ask me. A God who is humble and willing to do what it takes to love me and help me love God back! Is that what unconditional love is! I betcha! I am in for the long haul! So far I promise to not turn away and instead just talk to God straight from the heart and expect things resolved in ways that no human help can suffice!
The serenity prayer must have really helped all who meditated and medicated on it and I am passing on this powerful baton to anyone who cannot find anything to hold on to when hope seems frail!
Listen, trust and obey the heart’s murmurs; that is what scripture means by listening within for all the answers are somewhere in there!
The confusion will dissolve, fade and return from whence it came.
It appears as though I have it easy and this is because I am determined to help myself stay focus on my attitude for this is what God uses to gauge my multitude of blessings! God will continue to provide. I suppose that I’d rather die and realize that my effort to be welcomed in the afterlife was already rewarded on earth than to leave this world and realize there’s no eternal life to reward me for all my dutiful deeds on earth. So I live as though heaven, earth, hell, resurrection and the Revelation are here and now and so I do my best to please God with every breath I take. Some days the breaths are more laboured than easy still the burdens it taken care of and that’s good enough!
That oughta keep my consciousness out of the closet and in God’s face. Psalm 139 must have been written to encourage me to do just that and now I can pray Psalm 32:8-9 without a fist fight with God.
At first when I kept rolling back into the precipice-wilderness- I thought yeah right! This had to be a false call. For a good while, more than I care to confess and still brazen enough to document I thought this offer from God was contradiction in terms because many of my biggest ouches seem to have worsened after exchanging vows with God, woyoyoy- talk about for better or worse in sickness and health till death do us part.
Forget about the marriage God; just forget it! Is that you idea of unconditional love and lifetime guarantee?
God decide to contest my divorce and took on my challenge and I am alive and ouchy to testify that though the worst may not be over, the best is at hand to enjoy… my attitude…my perception…my courage to take on God
No wonder God did not say anything… instead God just showed me!
A real Mc Coy, if you ask me. A God who is humble and willing to do what it takes to love me and help me love God back! Is that what unconditional love is! I betcha! I am in for the long haul! So far I promise to not turn away and instead just talk to God straight from the heart and expect things resolved in ways that no human help can suffice!
The serenity prayer must have really helped all who meditated and medicated on it and I am passing on this powerful baton to anyone who cannot find anything to hold on to when hope seems frail!
Listen, trust and obey the heart’s murmurs; that is what scripture means by listening within for all the answers are somewhere in there!
The confusion will dissolve, fade and return from whence it came.
It appears as though I have it easy and this is because I am determined to help myself stay focus on my attitude for this is what God uses to gauge my multitude of blessings! God will continue to provide. I suppose that I’d rather die and realize that my effort to be welcomed in the afterlife was already rewarded on earth than to leave this world and realize there’s no eternal life to reward me for all my dutiful deeds on earth. So I live as though heaven, earth, hell, resurrection and the Revelation are here and now and so I do my best to please God with every breath I take. Some days the breaths are more laboured than easy still the burdens it taken care of and that’s good enough!
That oughta keep my consciousness out of the closet and in God’s face. Psalm 139 must have been written to encourage me to do just that and now I can pray Psalm 32:8-9 without a fist fight with God.
December 02, 2007
Right before your very eyes, Angeal-Eyes...
Hello Sweetheart, this is God here!
Remember you ask me to give you a sign that would make your hairless head of hair stand as though you were going through a high powered tunnel or the world's highest roller coaster on the world's highest mountain?
Well what happened, so far, this morning was just a glimpse the size you asked for. Seat tight, there is much more coming your way! Much more of things that money cannot buy. That has been your most sincere request ever!
You see, I had to wait till you could handle it, and your patience paid off.
As much as I make no sense to you trust that I will make you into the best 'damned child' that I created in my image and likeness... and this is where all your ouches come into full spectrum!
If you believe nothing else, you better believe this!
There are lots of things you may be able to do much better now that I have given you your very own thorn in your flesh! Do not be deceived by the conditon of your flesh, becasue as you already know, I take close look at the condition of your heart- your spirit, not your flesh.
You promise me that you would not run away even though you hated the way I was proving my love for you and you know what? You are a girl after my very heart and that pleases me more than you will ever know or comprehend. That's is why I kept reminding you of the desires of your heart. That too is something I needed to establish, or rather, reestablish; by renewing or as you put it reprogramming your brain cells so you can continue to look on the bright side of the road.
You make me proud, girl you really make me shine and smile!
Tried tested and true; and remember, the rest is still unwritten and the power to help me is your gift of free will!!
Kudos!
God
Remember you ask me to give you a sign that would make your hairless head of hair stand as though you were going through a high powered tunnel or the world's highest roller coaster on the world's highest mountain?
Well what happened, so far, this morning was just a glimpse the size you asked for. Seat tight, there is much more coming your way! Much more of things that money cannot buy. That has been your most sincere request ever!
You see, I had to wait till you could handle it, and your patience paid off.
As much as I make no sense to you trust that I will make you into the best 'damned child' that I created in my image and likeness... and this is where all your ouches come into full spectrum!
If you believe nothing else, you better believe this!
There are lots of things you may be able to do much better now that I have given you your very own thorn in your flesh! Do not be deceived by the conditon of your flesh, becasue as you already know, I take close look at the condition of your heart- your spirit, not your flesh.
You promise me that you would not run away even though you hated the way I was proving my love for you and you know what? You are a girl after my very heart and that pleases me more than you will ever know or comprehend. That's is why I kept reminding you of the desires of your heart. That too is something I needed to establish, or rather, reestablish; by renewing or as you put it reprogramming your brain cells so you can continue to look on the bright side of the road.
You make me proud, girl you really make me shine and smile!
Tried tested and true; and remember, the rest is still unwritten and the power to help me is your gift of free will!!
Kudos!
God
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- Nympha Angeal-Eyes Francis
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