Momentous of moments

When I waited for the perfect moment to deliver my perfect ideas for perfect living on Life’s terms, the treasures of the moment with my perfect elements for creating my perfect ideas kept going round on round on Life’s carousal aka Earth. Thank goodness that it spins at enormous speed yet slow enough to give me the opportunity to be ready the next time the carousal comes around to re-present Life’s offers

Trailer loads of ideas have gone amiss in skepticism and yet somehow were kept afloat with the hope of deliverance. The washing away of not always following my heart was like waves of storm-tossed sea rushing to shore, with an SOS sign. The grains of sand on the seashore could do nothing much to save me from my state of disorient. Father Abraham was long gone from his brood and the ideas of my own were in a league of his or her own with no shepherd.

Disoriented enlightenment was like a light with a glare so glorious it made me act ridiculous- so ridiculous- that I accepted that the moment is all I always have. Life appeared as though Death was really holding the fort until Life arrived- or- was it the opposite! For all I care, they could very well had been taking turns because Life alone knows how long the carousal had to spin and spin with cargo it wanted to personally deliver to me in which contained the thread to weave reams of dreams and visions birthing in my heart from so long ago.

Life lessons taught me about patience and not giving up on receiving exactly what Life has declared as my place in its kingdom with room for me in its many mansions and a workshop personally assigned where I can create and cocreate right conditions for Life to flourish on it’s terms. Life continues to provide.

Earth and moment- Life’s great messengers- deliver in the nick of time yet right on time, just in time always on a moment in time on earth and as if that was not already good enough, Life send its personally-endorsed guarantee: "if you are lost; when you are lost; come within and join me in your heart- time after time. The very moment you find me, the obvious trade places with oblivious to save you and helps you to live again, time after time"

Beginnings - Endings - Everything in Between

Life is a constant opportunity of presenting situations to generate choices and change

The key to confidently manage the frays and decisions of everyday business of living is imperative and the primary role to maintain balance and perspective is self-responsibility and the ongoing intention to sustain integrity, respect and dignity.

Along the way it is inevitable to miss the mark of human perfection and so mistake assists in gauging the appropriate measures to adjust and stay focus on what is of priority and importance.

Acknowledging shortcomings is a practical step in accepting responsibility without shame or blame. Willingness to rise after a miss or fall is critical to everyday ‘success.

That is how I personally define success of living life and making the best of each moment; and letting life manifest the details and solutions to each life situation- imbecile as they sometimes seem and intelligent as they often are. So long as they are appropriate, accountable action then life is unfolding as it should.

Inner strength- essence of gentle use of power

Always living with the power generated within oneself irrespective of whatever life experience presents is a great way to be ready, able and willing to maintain equanimity when life situation is a rough tough tug because tugging at the inner core of being does get rough and, tough. Sometimes this is no fun and sometimes no joke and a big joke of mystery at how strong one becomes when faced with choices- many a times all of which seem sensible and practical and obviously a good thing yet one… only one, is the right choice for the best outcome. The best or maybe worst relative to the gain or loss- aka risk- of the situation Life boldly and calmly stares at the mind and say ‘it wasn’t me’ and at the same time is offering help… help that sometimes seem irrelevant, uneventful unhelpful to the outcome mind expects.

The power to think and ability to choose knowing that not knowing for sure needs more than just past history of previous experience presents the choice that always works- the strength to deal with the matter at hand and carry on in the face of adversity, uncertainty, mistake to nail down right outcome and many times that may not seem like the best choice, thus the courage to accept this fact is the essence of gentle use of self confidence. Staying strong within. That is the best one can do and needs to do- it works

A welcomed flashback

Here I am enjoying a moment of hindsight joining dots that makes ‘once upon an event of oh shit receive their ah ha! now I understand why this had to happen and that happened the way it happened when it happened

Life situations had to first make me aware of the maladies that were irritating my consciousness to the point that brought on such severe episodes of feeling unwanted, abandoned and worthless.

Why would God allow such tyranny of thoughts and actions done long ago haunt my sanity like this! What the badangbadangbadang are you trying to prove on my account oh you creator of beings in your image and likeness? Why am I having such trouble even believing that, let alone accepting- that the same creator who makes all things good creates all people equally. And that God has a wonderful idea in its plan to help with a heroic mission….

Back then I concluded that this was all a trap of crap hence I persistently was on God's case...

Don’t mess with me because you have no clue what to do to make me trust you and myself. Deep down inside me I had this felt sense that there is a gem in me that I would be damned to let anything or anyone take it away and yet there I was outrightly rejecting it and vowing to make life meaningful all on my own if I have to.

That turned out to be my best shot! That decision turned on a light bulb that shone on an invisible survey sheet lurking in space and unscrolling to reveal questions that I needed to answer. Along with it was an unsigned memo: ‘That’s a girl”! The light bulb went off. The questions made me awake and kept me awake. The answers required such deep introspection that I felt a kind of drowsiness pull me deeper into self doubt, only this time the darn questions made memories twirl in my consciousness. The bed rocked as if even my resting place of comfort was kicking me out. At the same time all kind of dead and decayed dreams became alive. Holy ghost, what on earth are you doing!

Okay Nympha Angeal-Eyes Francis. A holy breeze regained it power of speech. What a gem you are! Stop giving yourself such bad rap all because of some surly statements of ignorance of who you really are. Those claims were not even about Life's idea of you. Wake up, wake up. It is time to access your built-in strength and courage and let wisdom do the rest

This is the real Mc Coy speaking...
Real Mc Coy?

You got that right...

Frankly I admit that I gave you some rough tough situations most of which contradicted and messed with the mind yet never was harsh enough to deceive your heart and that is what is this something you were firmly committed to making sure was never taken away from you- your heart and all its good. That is why you always knew when something was not quite right even though sometimes you could not quite figure out the heart when you sensed inner turmoil and the mind during external conflict. Now whom do you think created you that way? eh?

My first answer was half cream half curse
Oh shit! oh myyy God, is that you, is that really my real McCoy?

The survey became less scary as it stayed suspended in the heaven of my mind for decades where it was equally visible to my heart so I can have a good look at what is inside me all the time

Still that was not enough back then to save the mind from episodes of needing reassurance. Each time the mind insistently tried to darken soul's path, heart remain steadfast and I referred to the survey from heaven as back up. I continued to question the heart why this is so; why still lessons that make me go where all there seem to be is more callous chaos that encourages the mind to make me believe that I am crazy and you agreeing without any qualms

Do you want to know why?

With the greatest degree of apprehension I said, of course I want to... and ta-da more lessons

I lashed out at heart so outrageously! Of course I felt the impact of the blow and immediately I had to take in to Life’s intensive care because I sensed that this is the only way to permanently stop the squealing of mind's gushing.

Heart was broken, I felt broken and in that instant heart reflected to me what I was allowing the mind to do to it and to me.
then came heart's message in the most taciturn tone...

...self love lessons taught in a way I would never have considered worthwhile way of making bruisers take on a new meaning in my memory and in a manner I would never have dreamt of oh shit becoming ah ha when I no longer feel any compulsion to pose the ‘am I worthy or, not’ question to Life raw as pure

Heart knows that I am able to love myself and this is the highest state of worth one can enjoy and also liberate any moment in time. Life continues to check in on me inquiring, do you love me, do you love you and heart mind and soul answer with music from Life’s instruments inside out; not to mention great choreography created with Nature

Self love- a gift that makes self-responsibility for healing rake in profit that makes all the pharmaceutical industries assets measure up to nothing on the grand scale

and that's what heart, Life and God had been offering me to choose through life situations- the whole of life situations. My best worst efforts combined says here’s to unsolicited flashback-in-time which brought on the oh shit phenomenon now reappearing in the present with bravado ah-ha, Nympha Angeal-Eyes Francis how great art thou improved perception and ability to transmute and transcend old recordings and scars of the past and to trust me.

Refined Reality

It was disheartening to make it to the point of familiarity with Life and realize that all the goals that I had drafted were not even in God’s catalogue and all that was destined to happen were not even documented in God’s memo and the schedule… the schedule was not even encapsulated nor was time framed in functional theory mounted on the mansion hall wall of fame

Flabbergasted…

It was equally- if not more- empowering to read the manifesto that God deposited in Life’s ledger with my name signed next to God’s

Grandiose me if you will

This vision encourages the mind to remain idyllic and allow it to appreciate Life always reminding myself it is good to trust that Life and I are intimately creating reality when I let go of utopia and enjoy what is without overplaying, underplaying or hiding the fact of affliction

Impact of imagination

Results of empirical study confirm that the human body does not distinguish between a real event and an imagined scenario

And at the rate that panic is arising in everyday preparation for the worst is it any wonder the world feels unsafe for human existence

Instead of feeding false negative with fuel of fear factor, constructive and creative choices of ways to use imagining cautious of the fact that the body responds seriously by reacting accordingly to the scripting of the mind are wise alternatives to manage the flee/fight instinct of unnecessary panic

When the eye of the i sees things clearly, the i of the eye then uses the body’s immunity to intuitively respond to its invaders without the huff and puff element of feeling in uncontrollable danger

The flip, flop of licensing laws

As soon as life presents a means of encouragement in sanely making it through each day, licences and laws show up to cramp the humanspirit in attempts to make living happily a hazardous vision and dying peacefully a treacherous dream

On one hand it appears that this licensing and lawing are a perfect solution and in some way it is because this bind can awaken the human spirit to tap in and discover that there is something that licensing and laws can never take away- they just can’t touch this!

And life needs no taxes or fees or fines for endowing each person with it- it is absolutely free to enjoy. Though matter what licensing and laws do to take inner freedom away or make Life pay for resilient humanspirit they cannot take away the choice to choose to be happy- after all happiness is built-in for a very good reason!

Compliance

Living on Life’s terms is a two-way street that makes choice and compliance a perfect matrimony with lifelong bliss and conflicts

One-sided agreements and binding contracts leave no room for self-responsibility to thrive or consensus to be amicable and that kind of compliance can only breed conflict. The good thing is that it still cannot harness the heart to agree with such rigid policy and so I am on heart’s side and Life’s terms of compliance- the result is always a win-win opportunity

Impeccability of Intention

Travelling through layers and layers of clouds made me realize how impeccable God spoke its word

And the way sun made limitation such a big joke as it mesmerized the five senses with unsurpassed lessons on beyond cloud and sky remains flawless or, is it floorless.

Though matter what altitude, the clouds were always above and below. That made me enjoy getting from point A to point B and every cloud in between and I had no care in the world if travelling through skies of clouds from point A to B went on and on and on.

and when the clouds gave the deep waters way down below a chance to shimmer the gem of shades of blue and hues of green were so convincing. For a while I forgot that the ocean water is clear and yet its message was crystal- I was in heaven- awestruck, amazed and with all my senses very much alive and, well- all six of them

Life is indeed true its word, promise and agreement as I choose to honour it

Inspired Intellect

The mind had been experiencing a hard time of making sense of a bad day while and felt safe enough to trust Life all the way

So the mind asked a question:

How does Life get away with enduring so much and yet is able give so much more than I can suffice to deliver

The most challenging command of Life is, ‘be still, and know
The most reassuring command of Life is, ‘be still, and know

Patience is watching perseverance lead the way while perseverance is engaging patience in leading the way and this happens simultaneously all the time!

Okay Life what am I suppose to do now?

‘Be still, and know

Easier said than done, Life

‘Be still, and know

Okay, if you say so….

‘Be still, and know

The mind is getting use to letting Life have the last word and so mind accepts the challenge and reassurance confident that it can question Life about Life, directly and unafraid, anytime- even when that requires taking the risk of being in a position of not having the last word

I have to hand it to you, mind. You are stronger and more powerful that you probably ever imagine you can be and you are continuing to use that gift very well- even being aware of when you are having a hard time and even acknowledging this feeling!
Kudos, Mind!

The business of waiting- waiting patiently

Many farmers who have already planted seeds and grafted plants and many who are still patiently waiting for the best conditions for planting have begun visioning the harvest and all the families who will enjoy the crops -be it in fall or summer months or years later

The waiting period may feel like forever and the task of attending before the harvest can be labour intensive and, not knowing for sure what will yield...

Even more exciting and uncertain is are the expectant parents- be it the first or the last pregnancy, gestation can be very demanding on an otherwise healthy PMESS way of living

Anything that brings joy- lifelong happiness or short term bliss- seem to require patience to the ratio and intensity of the degree of or expectation of and the deep satisfaction of gratification is worth cultivating the right conditions for growth and development

Spring models how patience can pay off- immensely- and how Nature is never idle or in any big hurry. Nature is always working- a lot of time behind the scenes sometimes doing seemingly insignificant tasks. The trees waving their endowed branches and the flowers that are already fragrancing the universe are in their own way saying “its worth the wait to achieve anything so great”

When conditions are right patience flourishes, when patience flourishes right conditions the business of waiting patiently flourishes

Nature’s Nurturing

Flowers do not force themselves to open. Quietly they perfume the universe with fragrance without a care of which aroma is unsurpassed. They know not how long they have to exist yet they perfume the universe with every bit of fragrance they have

Clouds do not plan a convention to promise rain. They cannot help but pour out in abundance what they have to share- a sprinkle, a drizzle or a downpour of enough water to quench Earth’s thirst

Birds do not flock together to plot an overthrow of the species. They make music, frolic in harmony and happy to share the universe so each can spread its wing and fly away or choose to stay in formation during flight and even attend to the weakling

Rivers do not flow into the ocean or sea to argue with ocean and sea about being already too endowed; nor is ocean and sea belittling the slow meandering waters. To top it all, rivers do not protest about how far they had to come to meet with sea and ocean

Butterflies do not stay in their cocoons forever; and when it is time for them to say goodbye, the cocoon does not force them to stay nor does the chrysalis feel sorry or feel that its role was a waste or calls butterflies ungrateful after all it has done for them

The sun does not favour any tree, seeds or grain of soil more or less

The moon is no less dependent on the sun’s energy than the stars and earth dependent on the sun’s warmth

Babies do not question whether they will be clothed, fed or nurtured or what they have to do in return for love

Somehow, sadly when human being grow, all this trust in this invisible intelligence seems lost. Still, Nature is here to provide us with the same energy and consciousness that it provides for all of existence to exist- naturally.

Meanwhile, seasons spin their tune over and over and over and over again. Nature does her nurturing and life continues to do what Life does. Through trees, animals, natural resources Nature continues to demonstrate this fact- live and direct- silently, audibly, visually, intelligently, consciously even when the mind thinks that it is and behaves like it is the only matter that is wise it is not the only faculty in charge and when it is, it is with Nature’s permission!

Absolute and Abstract

It is no question that the body dies and decays. No question about that. With or without the body, spirits lives on. I have no doubt about that. I also am convinced too that there is no such thing as living or nonliving things- after all everything is made of matter whether they are conscious or unconscious which I sense is the difference that the mind seem to equate as living and non living even it treats the living as non living and non living as living... any way that is something for life to confirm personally to each soul willing go listen to its heart long enough to make listening to the heart become a healthyhabit

Life disposes of what have fulfilled their required function and consciousness takes it to the place where it transform the components in a form or no-form that can continue to serve Life as Life needs

This process happens every millisecond.

The human kingdom acknowledges, encourages and in some instances even enforce the cycle of life and death yet it seems however that when it comes to getting the reality of the lesson straight from Life, the R’s lose their merit and the human kingdom loses heart. Life is accused of killing and Death is staunchly blamed for sabotaging ideal’s concept.

Realism rejuvenates- restructures- recycles- reduces- reuses- restores- refurbishes- rebirths- reforms
Idealism rejuvenates- restructures- recycles- reduces- reuses- restores- refurbishes- rebirths- reforms

Death remains silent... a blank stare that it did not try to justify and an accusation that it did not need to defend. Life on the other hand exclaims, “how profound! I let the human kingdom do to what it created what it thinks is best. I do my share with what I alone created and the mind just doesn't seem to get it straight... that which was not born- namely- spirit- cannot die, that which the human kingdom did not create cannot pass away-it transforms and reincarnate "

That's the difference between real and ideal

Fidelity: conventional, cultivated or crude

I love mine crude and always in the making. I like it pliable and sustainable

I like it hot off the refiner’s refiner served in a vacuum of pressure in the moment of uncertainty and relinquished anxiety steeped in restored integrity

I enjoy it with all its passion and compassion, well mixed

I savour its confidence of knowing everything that I can do to pump up inner strength of potential and trust me to do it

I relish its essence

I admire its tenacity

I marvel at the way it brings out the best of itself through me

So whatever I do, I do it just like fidelity wants me to. Any other way and my faith in Faith shatters and, I crumble

spring has been showing and intends to continue to teach me how not to crumble when I stumble and still let my humanness mumble and become humble
Life continues to go on preparing the best situations to help during certain and uncertain times and it serves well to trust the same invisible intelligence that the fish trust
Next time I feel like Life's is handing me more than I can handle, I shall bear in mind that Life has a lot of faith in me- more than I can humanly imagine
Now that is Fideltity I can choose to have no other way

Faith of a fish

Fish lay their eggs in conditions that make this specimen of Life seem like they have no care for what happens to their young upon hatching when in fact they do care so much so that they know the exact time when ova transforms to fish

How does a fish do that!

And how does the fish know that it has done its best without the guilt of feeling a sense of neglect or concern that Life had dealt it a poor hand to put it out in a great big sea or ocean and handed such insurmountable remorse. Why does fish not care that parents are gone…sometimes long gone... And somehow has to make it out and not feel like they are making it on their own or feel abandoned and all alone after the critical period of self reliance begins.

oh dear!

I sense with a sense greater than sight, smell, taste, touch or hearing can fathom that the fish has a lot of faith in the intelligence that created it- not just necessarily in the creature that gave birth to it- to take good care of it and it trust the same intelligence to care for its spawn and provide for the larvae until its instinct is ready to set it free to explore its world- unafraid, unattached and uncertain of what situation lies in wait. Still then, the invisible intelligence that organized existence continues to provide the right conditions for living.

Reality Reminder

Hard core lessons of life situations that made me appreciate that even God goes to extremes to fix what it needs to so as to restore order long after it created its most magical moments of history.

Learning through diseases that were threatening to rapidly empty my tank of happiness and draining all life from my body sometimes even sending my soul to scout the Universe to seek refuge while I traveled on the road where crowd are unheard of. That made me accept how God must have been engaging itself before it decided to test its powers and ability.

When I pondered on how was able to be God, one thing that made God in its own league is that he had no one to raise objections about its brilliant brain. That is until Lucifer. My lightbulb came on and I decided then that I am up for that challenge to act like God and behave like Lucifer.

Breaking my heart wide open without the need for surgical intervention was something life accomplished in a way that makes birth defects of genetic predisposition a purposeful flaw of the potter that put my clay together. That is where a lot of my goodness was hiding and God who knows all the hideout spots and when it was just right to reach in, somehow- did just that. God recalibrated the rhythm of my heartbeat so it can function without those unforewarned palpitations. From that moment living in oblivion resigned and I courageously decided that what I did not know of, know about, or know of yet was not going to end me.

Lucifer helped me make sure that my inner conviction was respected and since I had eaten the bait that made me diss it, innocent of his inside rapport with the almighty and the omnipotent giving him right of way on several occasions with Job alone. I asked Lucifer for help. Lucifer took on my request and gave me tips that enabled me to understand what God meant by all or nothing and be fruitful and multiply and choosing life or death and so much more that the tree of knowledge is still teaching Lucifer.

Surprised but no surprise, next to Jesus, Lucifer was at the father’s right hand helping God put me back together cell by cell. God continues to restructure its heaven and Lucifer continues to reign as the first creature mentioned to put its intelligence to use to reflect its continued magnificence.

Talk about taking responsibility to honour integrity of personal authority

Benediction and absolution

The mystification of Mystery coated with hell and flavoured with heaven to disguise some mystery is itself the most ambiguous solution to cure pink coloured glasses syndrome- a peculiar disease that seem very acceptable and supposedly incurable. Sense of humour and childlike wonder are drastically replaced with rigid rites and rights densely pack with suffocating secrecy that continue to rob soul's inner sanctum of its integrity and intuitive intelligence, not to mention the enthusiasm and zest for living and enjoying heavenly delight while choosing to respect the good times of hell that gave them the opportunity to create heaven here and now

This blatantly condones the commandments on robbing and coveting; yet the doctrines and code of beliefs that promotes the need to adhere to this acts continue to remind the mind that these old laws are there to be transcended. Doctrines and laws are not there to be broken they are created to break the spirit instead of set it free; of course that is contrary to what the law says it is doing thereby causing many people to perish- the exact opposite effect of its open intention and covert purpose- to save souls. Instead souls are wandering to and thro infinity longing for a better eternity

And it seems to the mind that there is no way out. That too is oxymoron

Suffice to say, there is nothing like demystifying mystery using simple practises like listening to the voice within; questioning ideas, thoughts, desires, goals, mission and feelings of pure doubt until clarity reveals the facts and its truth for as long at it takes to grasp or let go the need to fully understand; understand or not understand what Life is up to especially on personal affairs and choices. this has the potential to provide the strongest security soul seek and it is highly attainable here on earth

The group consensus can then be amicable even though not always agreeable or agreed with. Agreeing to be willing to respect paradox of life saving strategies that restrict the flow of life saving solutions is transcending mystification in the purest, finest, highest degree. That too is highly attainable without dying, murdering or killing. There will still be mistakes and it is nothing that some self responsibility cannot transcend

The social plague

Many diseases seem to surface from unknown sources and origins, causing a state of organic panic of a growing pandemic

The Red Sea is open

The diseases are not necessarily what is killing live organisms nor is all the precautionary measure providing an escape from death or cure for living well. All the diseases are doing is mirroring through the mind the consequence of symptoms that are more subtly, sorely ignored, acutely imbedded in choosing collective unconsciousness to address reality and the ideology of utopia

The chronic condition of ignoring life’s offer to use disease invasion as an ally to awaken courage to make wiser choices of using intelligence and intellect is causing life to present new plagues multiplied to the exponent of ungrounded fear and stubbornness defined as and recognised in the form of more disease- earthian’s uneasiness with taking ownest for ignorance of lifelong consequences of choices and unwillingness to consider practical ways of managing Life’s resources appropriately.

One way or another though, Life is determined to help human psyche to fully awaken before the Red Sea closes

Plagues, Genesis, Haphakh…

practical parenting

The heaviest burden placed on human being is the need to believe that lifelong responsibility of parenting means hostage. When parents are forced to trade in their innate ability to make responsible decisions and children are robbed of their ability to become all they can be, Life grieves.

The saddest state of cruelty is that no one can responsibly shoulder this hefty load of impractical parenting alone or even as a couple or with a sturdy family tree or some ration or coupon or child welfare wafers and waivers. No one is truly free to become what s/he is to be while all the time yoked to some expectation imposed by some sully statute wanting and knowing what is best when the fact is Life alone knows. Eras later, still this burden continues to be heaved upon the backs of people whose primary role is simply to be a conduit, nurturer and provider while at the same time educating and preparing the child to become responsible and self reliant. Of course some children may grow and develop where they still need ongoing helpful guidance

Still I sometimes wonder, why did the God who created heaven not give birth to its children personally to ensure that children turn out just the way Life likes it so they can feel loved, wanted, worthy of life and the integrity to live it respectfully, without the need for such strong competitive force to make it through life impressively heroic or lest they get branded as weaklings and weak links worth less than a sparrow...then I figure that God of my understanding also has not been the one who gave parents such trying times of caring heaped with guilt of not being good enough in the first place and that something was evidently wrong with their inherited genes and with God's plan which they passed on to the children. To me, that has turned out to be the biggest bruiser I can imagine the heart of parents who are willing to appreciate the divine’s role of parenting are subjected to endure and still diehard creeps want to haul the pain of guilt and shame and blame on minds so they can point fingers of neglect in the opposite direction. God knows that too!

Now I understand Matthew’s mention of Jesus’ parables presented to the Pharisees of the Law. Now it makes sense why Solomon sanctioned responsible parenting and respectful discipline of children and cautioned children of reasonability of the child’s role as a child

And now I know why Life can use every vessel with honour, dignity and integrity even though I still cannot fathom to have an accurate account or answer as to why God does things the way God does things- like allowing so many children to teach such harsh lessons of reality and so many parents suffering the plight of responsible parenting. Some how though, Life can set the records straight, and does and will use the sparrows that are deemed to be worth less than a penny and the flowers that are hailed as more beautiful than Solomon's finest outfit and if it has to, also use the stones which the builders reject. That makes parenting a gift of humility presented by Grace to be proudly accepted and respected and this is as assuring as Life is confident and omnipotent

Murder of Childhood

Children do not automatically grow into responsible adults.

Responsible adults do not sprout or mature in corral chambers although it may seem so until the primitive instinct is unleashed from bondage- be it mental, physical, social, emotional, or spiritual

Children are not created to be apprentice adults nor are adults created to develop into expert children.

Whether children in a child-size body or in an adult form, preparation for life’s situation and frays of the business of living needs more than a PhD in theory of responsibility and functional development. Nurturing that encourages children to make self-directed choices and grow to be self-directed adults must be considered a critical chapter of child development. When children are deprived of making little choices that help develop trust in themselves and Life; when authority uses fear, and control and the ‘ I am the adult here’ line to teach and nurture then loving confidence is stunted; the moral intention to help the child can become to a stage of unintentional and irreversible hurt to some- temporarily or permanently. And when this happens it does not only affect the individuals, family, or generation because the thread of consciousness is woven in such a manner that the whole benefits or suffers in some way or another.

Disciplining, guiding and empowering children without disapproving of their integrity and intelligence promotes healthy development of responsibility, resilience of self-reliance and that to me is the most practical and productive gift that anyone can give to a child and the best way to prepare the foundation for future generations to manage life and living- consciously and accountably. Children also can present opportunities to help adult children enjoy a happy childhood in the adult later years

Absolutely nothing, especially anything money can buy- can substitute to provide for a firm foundation of healthy society, family or world than to let children be children when they are children. Forcing them to stay children or coercing them to grow quickly interferes with the natural awe of childlikeness thereby creating the possibility of tarnishing the great gift that children are to the world and to Life. After all, each person is created an expert on Life’s terms to create and cocreate with Life- children are not exempted

Earth Life School

I recently came into the world of a family and for just a brief moment I sensed my admiration turn to envy as I witnessed geese attend to their young.

How the three geeselings frolic, ran to their parents and parents responding with such love it made me shudder and as if what they wanted their parents to prove to me was approved of, the little show offs scurried away to be on their own- content and without a care in the world or what their stand-by-admirers were thinking of them or learning from them- and they are not even close to the human kingdom in the area of I.Q

Had I not dealt with my own nuance about the nurturing role of responsible parenting I would be cheesed off with Life or God- in that instant- for not giving children the perfect family. And so, what I witnessed just a few days ago was somehow God telling me that Life gives the perfect family to children and perfect children to family. The only reason I did not argue with the consciousness that was buzzing away in the quiet of my heart is because I have accepted this fact… again another lesson that how long ago or how much time it took is irrelevant. I am happy in a relieved kind of way that I transcended the fear that my family failed me or I failed my family and that the gnarled branches of ancestry were a mistake I had to keep in deep secrecy.

The best part is that I am free to let go of traditions and beliefs of culture- religious dogmas, social statutes or otherwise that do not serve any intrinsic merit to assist with living well without guilt/shame of disowning the ancestors or feel remorse for my reluctance to pass it on to the descendents of the world. I also have no need or desire to compare my family with any other family and then harangue God or Life about how my life turns out because of this that or the other and then try ot fix what God has already done- perfectly and then blame God for creating screw-ups. Is it any wander and wonder there is so much humming going on in the world of the dead and opulent afterlife!

The serenity to accept the things that I cannot change led me to the fork of the road where I feel safe to let the generational grave of ancestral artefact rest in peace, trusting that their work has been done and done well and continues to do well. I therefore enjoy the idea of my descendants being as numerous as the sand on the seashore- be it in form or in spirit and I remain willing to continue to be my best and carry on with life, living on Life’s terms and life’s conditions. Consciousness has already approved of my intention and so all is well.

I sense that is what the geese family were put on my path to share with me about Life.

Existential Ecstasy

The way Life unfolds its events to reveal details necessary for making conscious choices to make it through everything between birth and death is fabulously flawless even when walking on the path can feel like the ground beneath is shaky or threatening to open and swallow up the very path that Wisdom says is the way

There is much information that remains sealed in secret domain of mystified mistakes and fragility of falsified facts. Secrets may be buried yet everyday essential evidence remains alive to and accessible for whosoever wants to enjoy its availability.

In order to do make the best of existence one has to be willing to let Life present its moments and accept responsibility for managing it wisely- individually and collectively

Fearlessness

Here I am expanding my lungs applauding the biggest toughest zombies.

A big shoutout to emotions, experience and memories that invited fear and its buddies to bolster my oomph to make it to the brink of bounty around life’s parameters dangling on heaven’s ledge where I ran from hell’s flames where no where made sense and now here seemed farfetched and everywhere presenting now here scenarios.

For all the times you frightened the living light with dark doom as your role to help me choose going through shadows that cloaked bloated nothingness so I can dissolve hues and shake off embers to allow my luminosity make its grand appearance, step out to reveal my transformed coal.

… Thank you
… Thank you
… Thank you

Fear and all its buddies express and continue to celebrate the joy of their success:
“We were full of glee when Universe assigned us to help you. When we saw your fullness of glory we decided to fully honour our agreement with life, death and everything in between.

The diamond in the rough is now a crystalline piece of Earth

Maintaining Sanity

Restoring sanity takes more than eliminating symptoms that reveal the manifestation of imbalance- be it physical, mental, emotional. Anything and everything that hamper the evolution of happiness and bliss as everlasting life support of integrity is also tampering with celebration of progress and freedom

Side effect of diseases is not death of the physical being. Restoring full function of the body does not automatically take away the parameters of ongoing maladies that plague the very hope and its victory of encouraging and unnecessary suffering.

Personally cooperating with life to give me a new body is teaching me ways this body can continue to serve me. I accept that ableness is, redefining how I treat myself. I am choosing to respect what I can do and all I am and so far that has been the most satisfactory sustainable solution

More stupid suffering takes leave

The soul can soar or it can stay stubborn and some souls return over and over again to perfect the same lesson. Now what use to puzzle me; maybe even confuse and even frustrate me is that soul is suppose to have everything perfectly downpacked. So when my soul went searching when it should already know exactly where to take me, I started to wonder what on earth is going on with Wisdom… Wisdom then began to make heart wonder what the hell is going in heaven. I tell you heart is one stalwart that knows exactly what God is always up to yet it also finds itself in jams it cannot explain. Is it any wonder I almost believe love is blind!

What used to make heart sad and liver angry and spirit stall and life situation suck and heaven stuck in hell on a honeymoon I detested to enjoy forever was that I had to choose to die to glimpse God in heaven. So what took me so long to get the big picture in focus? Soul seemed to enjoy the hell it was getting use to accept as c’est la vie and yes, this same soul was raising hell’s roof to find the damn escape vault. It got trapped! Help had been on the way and soul most times just didn’t get it. Heart got more irritated, liver got more agitated; spirit, well spirit already always knew how to take the good, the bad and ugly and polish and shape it until it made heart resilient, liver confident and the war between kidney and heart subside and called a truce for the greatest good.

Phew!

Stupid suffering dissolved and what can be changed continued to transform, evolve, reform. The silver lining that soul had been glimpsing as little piece if heaven is all heaven and the honeymoon just got more honey under the moon and the stars glitter day and night, sprouting inspiration and enthusiasm.

As the sun penetrates the belly of Earth so Life pierces my figment of imagination and soul is like the clouds- serenely gracing the Universe… silently, in spite of the storms of life

More foolish fear conquered

My fierce fight to resist authorizing doom of stubborn and quiet despondency ended when I made a vow to honour the gift of wisdom that enlighten me to appreciate the difference between surrendering to my own stubborn spirit and letting Life fully unfold its miracles of magic and magic of miracles as it personally continue to inspire me to manifest the message of all the souls still sharing affluence to posterity in forms that the mind cannot comprehend or chooses to want to ignore.

At first I was very apprehensive when messages came to me from invisible intelligence. I was most scared when they appeared as real-time live creatures. I thought this is goofy; still, I made bonds with them as I thought, what the hell! Since myself is a curious creative creature who enjoyed challenging the God of understanding to reveal to me the hidden messages of Life without the crowning with thorns, hanging on tree, wine and vinegar quench aid, gruesome hangdog skulking that made me linger in agony angst already far too long, I was all too eager to accept whatever …whatever life situations presented me with as answers to my honest commitment to let God be God so long as life gets happier with each breath.

Life lessons that match the size of my understanding began showing left right and centre sometimes I had to dart to be able to catch up. Talk about organized chaos. God was having a ball! I had never imagine God having so much fun when one creature decide to let it have its way and be its spectator long enough to be invited on heaven’s roller coaster and actually enjoy the darn journey. I started being myself just like God was being itself. I have been developing this brazen attitude that anything God can do I can do it too, anyway. Needless to say I stopped praying. I stop asking God nicely. I started again to ask confidently. Soon enough I had no reason to be naively nice with God. Authenticity with myself was good enough and as good as it gets in my unorthdox style

I resumed thanking Life that I was bold enough to be so afraid and fearless at the same time. And since that was possible then sleeping in a boat and walking on water in the middle of the storm of life situations became real as I chose to experience it

This is like when one arrives at the edge of the cliff or the brink of life and Life says leap and, ta-da foolish fear takes heed of the God of my understanding and so it backed off far away nearly out of sight-at least out of God’s sight.

Precision, impeccable steadfastness of spirit heals heart in a way that has me floored. Now that is compliance I can honour and appreciate with a state of grace called integrity. I am glad that I accepted Life’s olive branch before the Red Sea closed in on me and that I celebrated the haphakh while in the middle of life’s drought

collective consciousness

Enlightened awakening of the New World is something Christopher Columbus envisioned a long time ago when he set sail to rediscover earth and of course he made history before time knew that consciousness used his intelligence the same way it used John’s eagerness to end the thousand year era of blind trust of wishful thinking and Jesus' parabolic predictions. Many scholars and visionaries who were massacred, murdered and kill for the sake of their courage to proclaim what the mind was defiant to accept roam the universe and enjoying in a heavenly way their fruits of their revelation; of their courage and wisdom. They may have been ahead of their time and yet I sense that they were right on schedule prophesying and warning and cautioning and guiding the outcome they had foreseen while moseying in consciousness. It is a good thing that spirit souls do not perish even long after physical form transform and disintegrates and even if and when they think they do, they return right back as clouds, trees, and whatever the universe declares that is possible to transform into to complete the work that consciousness begun.

God continues to perform wonderful miracles Earth and spring approves as it rebirths and, life… life reuses, recycles, regenerates all matter and spirit triumphs and insanity takes its rightful place in the refiner’s fire of redemption.

O, how the God of my understanding shape and imagine my awe of childlike trust help me to transcend beyond human limitations

WOW, Life!

Eerie Infinity

Going to the grave with the unlived life that God dispensed only to me was an idea that made the marrow in my bone twinge and almost curdled

The dream of and visioning me alive and really living to fulfill all that the Creator endowed me with in a way that only essence can transfuse the marrow coursing through my veins and arteries until all that reign in me is eternal life, here and now… at least long enough so I can dispense all I arrived on Earth to share- nothing less

Resolving personal difficulties facilitated insight to help me before I can help another more consciously and wholesomely. And so though matter how much my mind try to interfere with Life, Spirit is always all ready to assist me and so I carry on with encouraging people to help themselves and provide support that keeps integrity in tact. Best of all I do not have to feel that I am to save anyone or everyone because now I know for sure that each person has within their heart their very own morsel of God-intelligence available to personally manifest individual destiny, responsibly.

That makes helping a lot of fun and joy …

Humble and Proud

Just when I thought I had nothing more to write, my fingers almost automatically glide over the keyboard as if they know all too well that Life still has a lot to share and I am all happy to be elected by essence to sprinkle the garden of consciousness lest the drought of unconsciousness choke the tender sprouts of spirit rooted in compassion

All that I was afraid I would not be able to abundantly produce from life’s situation I proudly harvested in a way that surpassed my expectation and fully matched God’s imagination. All what I did not want to pass on in my legacy legend and was perplexed that they would overtake the good that I am to prosperously yield have dissolved right along with the fear and vigour with which they had come into my consciousness.

Intelligence is refined, purified and ready to carry on with the business of living with eyes wide open to attend to the frays and joys of existing on Life’s term, offers, conditions and guidelines

Jacob's attitude makes sense

When the glimpse 'of what could be' relished Jacob’s eagerness to arrive alive, consciousness downloaded Jacob in the world with lots of ideas that seemed insidious and sociable unpalatable; even I, used to wonder what’s up with that Jacob!

Hindsight pinched every Jacob cell in my being and made me define death as just souls going back to dust to get a second or maybe an infinite number of returns until the record is set straight in heaven on earth. Jacob must have known that and was willing to agree with his invisible agent to do what it takes. That was all well and good except Jacob never had any idea what self-irresponsibility could do to the great glimpse of heaven beckoning to him.

Well I read enough of Jacob ancestors and descendents to learn to evaluate my choices and outcomes and run a few tests in Earth School until the glimpse of the big picture in which I was posing as a responsible, respectful rebel and wild child made a whole lot of sense to me. Jacob winked at me. Instantly my belief of souls wanting a second chance made sense to me. Jacob’s spirit hovered in my consciousness until my own vision inspired me of what can still be…

Job’s courage ignited my zest

I had no clue what to make of this fellow and yet his stamina to go on made me trust that even though hard times knock me off my senses, it could do jack shit to my incensed Essence of happiness and determination to harangue God with all kinds of tactics to get the facts of Life.

Plugging my consciousness back directly to the umbilical cord of the source of Being almost electrocuted my sanity. I figured if Job made it out of dignity detour alive with his integrity intact, I can too!

For a while I thought that I was fooling myself and then I figured what is left when all that the world determines is milk and honey turns out to be cross of burdens…

So Job’s courage sprinkled my consciousness with enough oomph to state my case directly with God.

The outcome… God restored all that life situations were meant to teach me and I said, WOW! Life is precious