More heart work

Forgetting is long
Beginning to forget is longer
Understanding the logic to beginning to forgetting
That’s even longer
The way back to the short end of being lovestruck with myself
That took the longest narrowest most windy path with several rest stops along the way
For a while I thought that life was a bag of tricks with games that I did not want to play or like to play with my life as the auctioned item to place a bet on

The mind was so convinced that it would end up in God's junkyard and of course for a long while I believed it when in fact none of this was on God's purpose planning or proposal;this stark revelation came full circle during those many too many dark nights of the soul which later reveal its other side as being also the dark night of the mind

So I kept allowing soul to undergo more heart work since this seem to have been the spot that felt most lost, weary and wandering carrying such a heavy emotional load it needed to release safely back to life, without hurting the creator and creation

This was the toughest trek on the journey and I did better than climbing Mount Everest