What is God’s extent of determining who or what is his rival and when people become his rival? I have been a rebel for a long time and I thought that I was rebelling against God when I stood my ground against beliefs that trespassed my core self in an attempt to overthrow it. That is what I rebelled against.
There are days when all I do is wonder where my life ends and Gods’ continue on His own for being God who can do all things he surely does not need me but somehow this seem a paradox because after all he needs to use my hands, feet and availability to do some things for Him. Well dear you jolly well understand the dilemma that I have to constantly struggle with, maybe that is why I never win because then that would make me your rival, wouldn’t it. Common, say something to clarify this uncertainty! Then and again that would be me waging another war against your Omnipotence. Oh well, now I know that you want me to be always honest with what you already know is in my heart and that I know you understand I thank you for allowing me to be blatantly frank with you. After all, this is the best guarantee to be of pure motives so I stop causing you and myself so much grief. At least that is my take on the whole confession and thorn in the flesh analogy.
I am reaping the harvest from my intention of sowing the seeds of proper self-care. The drought and barren soils you have turned to an oasis of fertile soil so I can only imagine the fruits that I can produce because of your excavating, ploughing, weeding out and fertilizing. Thank you
I know that the pruning process is ongoing so when I feel your scalpel in areas of my life that are not producing Godly crops then I know it is for good. I may not like to feel so exposed but before you I am always exposed anyway so what’s the point of running to get cover from fig leaves. Then and again I learnt that from Adam and Eve story as handed down! That curse seems to be my worst thorn and this for sure does not take you by surprise.
So thank you for not scolding me for my boldness and straight talk. I know you will discipline me when I get offline with you and that I can take from you. That is why I chose to always be happy that you know me like you do and I am getting to know me too!
I do not care whether you are a force, a breath, as far as I am concern you can be anything because I know now that you are not that monster who is waiting to trip me when I dare to be my very own person. I know all too well the ramification of the battle that lack of self-responsibility cause and I do not intend to do any harm to myself or anyone else, for that matter. That is all I can ever promise anyone and myself; so, I quit being the responsibility sponge, which you never assigned me to in the first place. In so doing, I also absolve anyone who felt that they were assigned to be my responsibility sponge because they are not!
There are days when all I do is wonder where my life ends and Gods’ continue on His own for being God who can do all things he surely does not need me but somehow this seem a paradox because after all he needs to use my hands, feet and availability to do some things for Him. Well dear you jolly well understand the dilemma that I have to constantly struggle with, maybe that is why I never win because then that would make me your rival, wouldn’t it. Common, say something to clarify this uncertainty! Then and again that would be me waging another war against your Omnipotence. Oh well, now I know that you want me to be always honest with what you already know is in my heart and that I know you understand I thank you for allowing me to be blatantly frank with you. After all, this is the best guarantee to be of pure motives so I stop causing you and myself so much grief. At least that is my take on the whole confession and thorn in the flesh analogy.
I am reaping the harvest from my intention of sowing the seeds of proper self-care. The drought and barren soils you have turned to an oasis of fertile soil so I can only imagine the fruits that I can produce because of your excavating, ploughing, weeding out and fertilizing. Thank you
I know that the pruning process is ongoing so when I feel your scalpel in areas of my life that are not producing Godly crops then I know it is for good. I may not like to feel so exposed but before you I am always exposed anyway so what’s the point of running to get cover from fig leaves. Then and again I learnt that from Adam and Eve story as handed down! That curse seems to be my worst thorn and this for sure does not take you by surprise.
So thank you for not scolding me for my boldness and straight talk. I know you will discipline me when I get offline with you and that I can take from you. That is why I chose to always be happy that you know me like you do and I am getting to know me too!
I do not care whether you are a force, a breath, as far as I am concern you can be anything because I know now that you are not that monster who is waiting to trip me when I dare to be my very own person. I know all too well the ramification of the battle that lack of self-responsibility cause and I do not intend to do any harm to myself or anyone else, for that matter. That is all I can ever promise anyone and myself; so, I quit being the responsibility sponge, which you never assigned me to in the first place. In so doing, I also absolve anyone who felt that they were assigned to be my responsibility sponge because they are not!
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