Being blind to the benefits of everyday trials was the worst tragedy I have experienced. I missed many leads on ways to be my best and teaching aids that were meant to assist me with my personal growth.
The choice of living life obliviously was hard work with no intrinsic reward much like pushing a truck up hill with its brake on. Avoiding the pain of embarking on attaining my full potential was a crime to my sanity.
Wait!
All’s not lost…I can not make up for lost time but going forward, I can make each moment fruitful. It requires lot of self-discipline and commitment to stick with it but the rewards so far are overwhelmingly greater than I can explain and I imagine that it can only keep getting better!
I did not begin with the best approach to self-determine behaviour but at least I did something to start the process and I have no desire to return to the “burying my head in the sand” mentality. I continue to plough along the road that leads to conscious living. I fall along the way, make no mistake about that but each time I fall I get back up as soon as possible. Sometimes I cry, I even grumble and wished for an easy way out. I often remind myself of the consequences of the easy way out- giving up on my zest for living my life, as I know I can. That was often enough to put me back on track.
The thing I have noticed it that the more I commit myself to the process the more painful the realities that confront me. Dealing with them is the only way out on the road less travelled. It can be a very solitary trek but it is a journey worth exploring!
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