My emotional library

This is the storehouse of volumes of my life experiences- the character building records of my life- that will aid me to meet people where they are at in the moment that they need support.

That is the most consoling part of the process of my life- learning things first hand so that I can share with those who need compassion, empathy, truth and above all someone who has been there.

So many times I have argued with God about how will He ever be able to use me as one of His disciples. You see, I was not ever perfect and by the standards of this world I would never ever make it, not even remotely close, to pleasing God and that made me lash out at God for creating me.

Well talk about bargaining with Him to just give me a chance to prove to Him that He made a mistake when I was born. Was I wrong! I know because I asked him one night about ten years ago to not wake me up if he has nothing good for the life that He gave to me. I went to bed and for the first time I can say I slept very peacefully. That was not all, I woke up invigorated and I took this as the answer to my prayer, or rather the answer that He needed to give to me. Well He was not surprised at my challenging Him to open up to me because by then I had no desire to listen to anyone. I wanted to hear from Him as best as He knew what would make me believe that He is real. Now I know that He is!

I am beginning to understand why I want to be a source of hope and encouragement to the hurting. I still do not have all the answers and I do not expect to have them all either; but, I know what it feels like to be alone, afraid and helpless and that is all because I have been there.

So dear God, thank you for the stories of my life, so far. I know that you are not yet finished with me but in the meantime I can help even one person to see the good in them and to remind them that you care and encourage them to know that you are real.