Living a happier and more meaningful life, more than anything else, is what I long for… something that money cannot buy.
I need courage, heavenly guidance and consistent assertiveness to accomplish my goal but it is very possible.
Every else will then follow…
So dear God, help me not to distrust you, others or myself in the process.
October 28, 2005
October 27, 2005
Grasping at Straws
There are some stressors for which there may be several hypotheses and I am determined to find out the underlying cause for each challenge that is attempting to distract me from what really matters. The thing that should surprise me but doesn’t is that they all started as issues the size of a speck of dust… now they appear to be the size of Mount Everest.
The importance of nipping issues in the bud or grabbing the bull by the horns is so fundamental.
Some things don’t just simple go away, and that is what I have come to accept as the reason why these lessons keep resurfacing time and time again.
Is it any wonder that I keep making choices and decisions that appears to be the best only to have to beat myself up for making another mistake and worse, not being able to forgive myself and allow my mind to recover from the beating. One thing I notice is very consistent in most, if not all those booboos, is that money is involved.
This liquid asset called money …
It is there when I spend money to earn money; when I earn money that is not enough to spend, Being owed money or making offers of it before it actually gets to my pocket. That’s a biggie!
Unbalanced investments make learning a very expensive adventure in the area of choices, decsions and consequences.
So I commit with myself with th universe as the witness and therefore whatever it is I need to do is worth working on improving my monetary mangement skill.
God knows I do not want to spend the rest of my days dealing with withered ways of dealing with ups and eniz. I tell you, it may be a long while to go through every stinker and change what can be and drop what cannot be…
The Serenity Prayer sums it up very nicely.
“God, grant me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot change
Courage, to change the things that I can
Wisodm to know the difference”
The importance of nipping issues in the bud or grabbing the bull by the horns is so fundamental.
Some things don’t just simple go away, and that is what I have come to accept as the reason why these lessons keep resurfacing time and time again.
Is it any wonder that I keep making choices and decisions that appears to be the best only to have to beat myself up for making another mistake and worse, not being able to forgive myself and allow my mind to recover from the beating. One thing I notice is very consistent in most, if not all those booboos, is that money is involved.
This liquid asset called money …
It is there when I spend money to earn money; when I earn money that is not enough to spend, Being owed money or making offers of it before it actually gets to my pocket. That’s a biggie!
Unbalanced investments make learning a very expensive adventure in the area of choices, decsions and consequences.
So I commit with myself with th universe as the witness and therefore whatever it is I need to do is worth working on improving my monetary mangement skill.
God knows I do not want to spend the rest of my days dealing with withered ways of dealing with ups and eniz. I tell you, it may be a long while to go through every stinker and change what can be and drop what cannot be…
The Serenity Prayer sums it up very nicely.
“God, grant me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot change
Courage, to change the things that I can
Wisodm to know the difference”
October 26, 2005
Acknowledgement
Some days I say thank you all day. Other days all I say is o evay.
There are days I am determined to say come what may, this is somehow a better day. Even when I do not believe that is so, I say it anyway.
Mood yoyo from excitement to impatient groans of frustration to sighs of relief and lingering orgasmic bouts of laughter that transform themselves to tears. Other times my soul goes on fire from Que sera sera to what the hell is going on
There are days I ask the creator straight up, “Is that supposed to be a swing in the park or a roller coaster ride?”
There are days I am determined to say come what may, this is somehow a better day. Even when I do not believe that is so, I say it anyway.
Mood yoyo from excitement to impatient groans of frustration to sighs of relief and lingering orgasmic bouts of laughter that transform themselves to tears. Other times my soul goes on fire from Que sera sera to what the hell is going on
There are days I ask the creator straight up, “Is that supposed to be a swing in the park or a roller coaster ride?”
October 25, 2005
Another quiet storm
Last week’s storm has finally subsided and my mind is able to think as I listen to what that voice in the storm had to say.
It was not that I was trying to run away or procrastinate nor am I a lazy person or someone who is good at nothing. I just needed a time out and there’s no way my body was going to let me ignore that need. So it made sure that come what may I took a well-deserved break. I stopped resisting the need to stop and enjoy the moment and all its treasure; I relished what is right now and before I knew it the mental zombies vanished.
Phew!
It was not that I was trying to run away or procrastinate nor am I a lazy person or someone who is good at nothing. I just needed a time out and there’s no way my body was going to let me ignore that need. So it made sure that come what may I took a well-deserved break. I stopped resisting the need to stop and enjoy the moment and all its treasure; I relished what is right now and before I knew it the mental zombies vanished.
Phew!
October 23, 2005
Pause... breathe...
I am glad that I recognize my mood changes nad realness of what I am feelign and what my body tells me it is expereincing and I choose not to ignore it.
I cannot explain the fog of confusion that overcasted my mind but whatever it was, sure tested my patience, faith and endurance.
It got to the point that I thought I was toast... burnt toast.
Why is all this happening and why do I feel so helpless? Overwhelmed is more like.
Sometimes I wonder if and when will this state of mind stop injecting such doubt in my wellness and happiness.
Only God knows and can help me understand and more importantly go through and come out of this circumstance much stronger than I went in.
I know that the longest day has an end and the darkest night turns to day.
Whatever this is, sure brought me closer to the only one who is always available.
.
I cannot explain the fog of confusion that overcasted my mind but whatever it was, sure tested my patience, faith and endurance.
It got to the point that I thought I was toast... burnt toast.
Why is all this happening and why do I feel so helpless? Overwhelmed is more like.
Sometimes I wonder if and when will this state of mind stop injecting such doubt in my wellness and happiness.
Only God knows and can help me understand and more importantly go through and come out of this circumstance much stronger than I went in.
I know that the longest day has an end and the darkest night turns to day.
Whatever this is, sure brought me closer to the only one who is always available.
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October 21, 2005
Basis of Being
October 20, 2005
Forgiveness
October 19, 2005
Better late than never
There came a point in time when working just to get by, having enough to eat and keep a roof over my head was not enough reason to miss out on doing what I enjoy and that stood in the way of my vocation in life... something that began bothering me as far back as I can remember but began to fester and gnaw my core in the last 12 months.
Even my phsysical frame was starting to talk to me in ways that I could not ignore; I know that had I listen to it years ago may not have meant that I would be able to afford a flight to space but I sure would have completed the diploma program and doing somethign I would n't not do just to hold down a job.
I am not crying over spilt milk; just accepting the part I contributed to having to settle for something that has absolutely no intrinsic or extrinsic reward.
As George Elliot said:
"It's never too late to be what you might have been."
That is just what I am putting into practise
and Confucius rings loud and clear:
" Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life."
That is what Life is encouraging me to steadfastly practise
Even my phsysical frame was starting to talk to me in ways that I could not ignore; I know that had I listen to it years ago may not have meant that I would be able to afford a flight to space but I sure would have completed the diploma program and doing somethign I would n't not do just to hold down a job.
I am not crying over spilt milk; just accepting the part I contributed to having to settle for something that has absolutely no intrinsic or extrinsic reward.
As George Elliot said:
"It's never too late to be what you might have been."
That is just what I am putting into practise
and Confucius rings loud and clear:
" Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life."
That is what Life is encouraging me to steadfastly practise
I recalled the feeling of void that filled my mind when I chose to obey life... it was then that Life began to make sense and soul began to enjoy being
October 18, 2005
Doing things with good intentions
I very much enjoy participating in the dance of creation, even though much of the times I have no clue what moves the universe has in mind or which tune is cued and for what reason. The unknown continues to sway me in motion with the rhythm of my soul for that is the guarantee of each heartbeat. The rest is up to the Divine!
October 17, 2005
My light bulb is working
The creaking and squeaking that has been going on these past few weeks made me realize how stagnant my brain had been all because I chose to settle or a life of routine and familiar. It wasn’t long before the mundane lifestyle almost sucked out my zest. I was losing all interest and my creative spark barely flickered.
The brain was in dormant mode way too long and the rude awakening was so strong that it almost went into shock. I remember venting my frustration prayer in which I ask God for tasks equal to my strength …
Let’s just say I have even more strength than I ever imagined. Then and again I should not be so surprise after all he is my strength!
The brain was in dormant mode way too long and the rude awakening was so strong that it almost went into shock. I remember venting my frustration prayer in which I ask God for tasks equal to my strength …
Let’s just say I have even more strength than I ever imagined. Then and again I should not be so surprise after all he is my strength!
October 16, 2005
Stay focussed
The best way to move ahead is to stay focussed on the task at hand and continue to be diligent.
That is what I tell myself each time I am tempted to throw in the towel on working towards completing the academic requirements for the diploma program. It seem like this is the best thing to do when the going gets rough but too many times I fell for that crap… not only is it a procrastinator impersonator that robs me of the progress that I desire to accomplish, it increases the fear of the not ever completing the courses that I need and taunt me about becoming a loser or being no brainer.
I am sick and tired of letting myself fall for this lie and blaming it for not being further along in my academic career and professional aptitude.
Well I have good news for it; no more am I letting the nervousness distract me from staying focussed and discipline.
I remain in tune with God and listen to and follow his guidance so that I do not get carried away from his plan. I need his wisdom more than the academic knowledge; without the discernment I will just spin my wheels and run around in circles. The end result of which is burn out, frustration and despair and God knows that I had enough of this result.
When I need a break I recognize that my mind and body request and comply; that is the only way to avoid burning the candle at both ends. So next time I feel overwhelmed I give myself permission to take a timeout instead of fussing myself to the point of over exhaustion. Experience has taught me all too well the consequences of extremes…
So I aim on keeping things balance.
That is what I tell myself each time I am tempted to throw in the towel on working towards completing the academic requirements for the diploma program. It seem like this is the best thing to do when the going gets rough but too many times I fell for that crap… not only is it a procrastinator impersonator that robs me of the progress that I desire to accomplish, it increases the fear of the not ever completing the courses that I need and taunt me about becoming a loser or being no brainer.
I am sick and tired of letting myself fall for this lie and blaming it for not being further along in my academic career and professional aptitude.
Well I have good news for it; no more am I letting the nervousness distract me from staying focussed and discipline.
I remain in tune with God and listen to and follow his guidance so that I do not get carried away from his plan. I need his wisdom more than the academic knowledge; without the discernment I will just spin my wheels and run around in circles. The end result of which is burn out, frustration and despair and God knows that I had enough of this result.
When I need a break I recognize that my mind and body request and comply; that is the only way to avoid burning the candle at both ends. So next time I feel overwhelmed I give myself permission to take a timeout instead of fussing myself to the point of over exhaustion. Experience has taught me all too well the consequences of extremes…
So I aim on keeping things balance.
October 15, 2005
Blistered Brain
What a week!
So much reading to contend with I am beginning to study in my sleep- more like nightmares, if you ask me!
How am I supposed to retain so much theory until my brain is warped from remembering everything that it has already release back to the logicians long before final exams?
My brain wants to continue knowing what it already knows for sure and know what it knows that it does not know or not yet knows that it needs to know..
Brain is at a point when it wants to invest its intelligence to practical academia without the testing of what life has freely instilled in it as part of its makeup.
Recapitulating its extensive experience that makes its vast reservoir of records useful application of data and wisdom for everyday existence is what brain wants to do to maintain its agility and I am all for this type of feeding it what it needs
Until then, I catch up on attaining academic credits for what life has already taught me firsthand without the accolades that one needs to qualify for a job.
So much reading to contend with I am beginning to study in my sleep- more like nightmares, if you ask me!
How am I supposed to retain so much theory until my brain is warped from remembering everything that it has already release back to the logicians long before final exams?
My brain wants to continue knowing what it already knows for sure and know what it knows that it does not know or not yet knows that it needs to know..
Brain is at a point when it wants to invest its intelligence to practical academia without the testing of what life has freely instilled in it as part of its makeup.
Recapitulating its extensive experience that makes its vast reservoir of records useful application of data and wisdom for everyday existence is what brain wants to do to maintain its agility and I am all for this type of feeding it what it needs
Until then, I catch up on attaining academic credits for what life has already taught me firsthand without the accolades that one needs to qualify for a job.
October 12, 2005
Busy be
I wasn't sure which would work best for me so I decided to try both methods of distant learning-. correspondence and online.
Two weeks into the correspondence course and I already know that going forward while I I still use academis to acquire knowledge my preference for distant learning is, online. For starters, it is more interactive and I have the added benefit of being in class on my own time without the taxing trip to a classrooom
Two weeks into the correspondence course and I already know that going forward while I I still use academis to acquire knowledge my preference for distant learning is, online. For starters, it is more interactive and I have the added benefit of being in class on my own time without the taxing trip to a classrooom
October 10, 2005
Hats off
Today is set aside to give Canadians time to count their blessings... I for one need more than a day but one day is okay because I have made it a daily habit to give thanks... granted some days the gratitude spills out more spontaneously than others.
Too many times too I focus on all the wonderful things so today is an ode to the things that I tend to take for granted or tempted to toss away; like the ones that come disguised as trouble and misery. The ones that make me forget the last time I laughed and reminded me of the importance of crying. The ones that force me to slow down and focus on the gift of healthy lungs and heart as well as an optimal functioning immune system. The brokenness that made me embrace my wholeness. those mountains that stood in my way only to realize later that were they not there I would have tumbled right into the valley deep pot holes and other times they were there because I had to climb them in order to build and tone my spiritual muscles. The many times when there were not a penny in my purse thus enabling me to recognize that I still had enough smiles and hugs to share; time and talent to assist another. For the things that frightened me and in so doing gave me reason to run to God and remain dependent on Him. For the errors that nodded me to pay attention to my affairs and keep on top of things. For all the tangles that brought me to moments of exhaltation. For what is yet to come and the reason why they will make their way to me... I say big shout out to you.
Too many times too I focus on all the wonderful things so today is an ode to the things that I tend to take for granted or tempted to toss away; like the ones that come disguised as trouble and misery. The ones that make me forget the last time I laughed and reminded me of the importance of crying. The ones that force me to slow down and focus on the gift of healthy lungs and heart as well as an optimal functioning immune system. The brokenness that made me embrace my wholeness. those mountains that stood in my way only to realize later that were they not there I would have tumbled right into the valley deep pot holes and other times they were there because I had to climb them in order to build and tone my spiritual muscles. The many times when there were not a penny in my purse thus enabling me to recognize that I still had enough smiles and hugs to share; time and talent to assist another. For the things that frightened me and in so doing gave me reason to run to God and remain dependent on Him. For the errors that nodded me to pay attention to my affairs and keep on top of things. For all the tangles that brought me to moments of exhaltation. For what is yet to come and the reason why they will make their way to me... I say big shout out to you.
October 09, 2005
Counting my blessings
It doesn't sound like a lot but name them one by one and you get high on an attitude of gratitude.
Some days it is easier to blurt out the praise and thanksgiving; other times it takes effort and there are circumstances when I raise an eyebrow with finger on chin wondering now what? thank you? or why me, why now? I have learnt that those are thank you moments too... infact they are the times when the thank you's really matter.
Seeing beyond the tangles will help to see the reason for counting those occasions as blessings.
Some days it is easier to blurt out the praise and thanksgiving; other times it takes effort and there are circumstances when I raise an eyebrow with finger on chin wondering now what? thank you? or why me, why now? I have learnt that those are thank you moments too... infact they are the times when the thank you's really matter.
Seeing beyond the tangles will help to see the reason for counting those occasions as blessings.
October 08, 2005
Build it
Every time I use this phrase I remember 'Field of Dreams'.
I have not yet come up with a better saying to ring as true so I quote it after each accomplishment...dream, if you will.
All it takes is a leap of faith here and there and trust the process to unfold; that does mean it will always display the exact vision that you saw or imagined but like missing piece of a puzzle it will fit in just the right spot when it is discovered.. the only one it was cut to fit in.
Though matter how long it takes, the hard work required and the motivation to keep the candle burning- not on both ends though, perseverance and patience are a big payoff. Some dreams start of with the word impossible but remove the im and this new word takes on a whole new meaning and takes you to a whole new world.
Never give up during practising your best shot... like Edision we may just need this thousandth ah-ha to see the light if you know what I mean!
Like Einstein the learning process may just be a bit slow... like Abraham we shall give birth to many miracles in our most senior days and for someone who flunked high school you may well be the next guru.
It is a matter of building it... not just wishing it!
I have not yet come up with a better saying to ring as true so I quote it after each accomplishment...dream, if you will.
All it takes is a leap of faith here and there and trust the process to unfold; that does mean it will always display the exact vision that you saw or imagined but like missing piece of a puzzle it will fit in just the right spot when it is discovered.. the only one it was cut to fit in.
Though matter how long it takes, the hard work required and the motivation to keep the candle burning- not on both ends though, perseverance and patience are a big payoff. Some dreams start of with the word impossible but remove the im and this new word takes on a whole new meaning and takes you to a whole new world.
Never give up during practising your best shot... like Edision we may just need this thousandth ah-ha to see the light if you know what I mean!
Like Einstein the learning process may just be a bit slow... like Abraham we shall give birth to many miracles in our most senior days and for someone who flunked high school you may well be the next guru.
It is a matter of building it... not just wishing it!
October 05, 2005
Hats off to summer in October
For my sake I would love to have this trend continue right through February but that would be wishful thinking and a wild dream.
Not that it hurts to ask for what may seem, sound or appear impossible.
Nature has a way of managing change and helping me to do the same... What a teacher! She does not minced her words although time to time she changes her mind or tries a different strategy without warning. Not even the experts can predict her temperament... Go figure!
Not that it hurts to ask for what may seem, sound or appear impossible.
Nature has a way of managing change and helping me to do the same... What a teacher! She does not minced her words although time to time she changes her mind or tries a different strategy without warning. Not even the experts can predict her temperament... Go figure!
The truth about feelings
Feelings are neither bad nor good and so expressing them is not a no-no, at least it should not have to be. On the contrary it very healthy to express exactly how I feel. It is not so much the feeling that is harmful or what provokes the feeling but how I choose to deal with the issue or let the circumstances dictate my emotions.
The more I suppress or rather try to suppress what I am really feeling the more mixed up that feeling gets with other emotions and more often than not, what I am expressing may not be what I am actually feeling. The pot-pourri of feelings is not as pleasant as the aroma from the blend of smells from scented leaves. It is so tangled that the confusion is obvious at the time of explosion or reaction. What was once mild and accepted become wild and primitive. I had to learn to pick my choice. In fact I am still working on dealing with things at the time and it is getting easier and easier as I work on those ancient and archived feeling... some of them were buried alive...yikes!
The more I suppress or rather try to suppress what I am really feeling the more mixed up that feeling gets with other emotions and more often than not, what I am expressing may not be what I am actually feeling. The pot-pourri of feelings is not as pleasant as the aroma from the blend of smells from scented leaves. It is so tangled that the confusion is obvious at the time of explosion or reaction. What was once mild and accepted become wild and primitive. I had to learn to pick my choice. In fact I am still working on dealing with things at the time and it is getting easier and easier as I work on those ancient and archived feeling... some of them were buried alive...yikes!
October 03, 2005
So much to do
October 02, 2005
WISIWYG
All I’ll ever have to give anyone is a part of me... something I can give only when I can give it to myself and still have enough to share and give away.
I entertain the thought of not ever having so little that I cannot share…
... of having enough love that the more I give the more wholeness is received and returned so if all I ever have to give is love, time and kindness then let me never fail to share.
I entertain the thought of not ever having so little that I cannot share…
... of having enough love that the more I give the more wholeness is received and returned so if all I ever have to give is love, time and kindness then let me never fail to share.
October 01, 2005
What a day!
I woke up this mornig a bit disturbed... I tried not to dwell on anything that gnaws at my core and drown my mood but this issue did a number on my peace... I recapture it before it got ruined but still!
Too many times I made choices that ended with painful consequences and some ended up burning a whole in my pocket.
Today's decision was yet another one. I am still a bit frustrated about the whole mess that consumed most of my day waiting on hold; getting upset and before doing what I felt was the best thing to do. It is going to cost me fifty five dollars but then and again I have my peace of mind and service that I can rely on.
There must be something that I needed to learn from all of this that I still hadn't learn or put into practise otherwise the events of this day would not have happened.
I know that doing what is best for me and not settling for less than I expect and drawing the line between saving a few dollars or spending a couple more for essential services is in my autmost interest, not to mention sense of wellbeing. Giving power to a service provider or anyone for that matter, at the expense of saying goodbye to my choices and my sanity is out of the question.
I should have listend to my intuition the weekend of the storm that happened two weeks after I switched phone service. I was without telephone service from Fiday afternoon until Sunday morning because of power failure. In fact that uneasy feeling had stirred some concern in me when I saw the tech with the box and asked him what it was for. He told me that is what was being used to provide the phone service.
I did not realized that it was not the same as the service provider that I swtiched from... I figured that the chances to be without power for any extended time would be very remote but I was wrong and the storm was more proof that I was taking a risk. It turned out that power failure was not the only cause for concern.
Was the risk worth the few dollars that I tried to save?
In the last three weeks the service has been very sporadic and even when I had some the reception was not the best. Still I kept bargaining with my self that it would be resolved and worth the savings.
Well that all changed when yesterday I woke up to make some business related calls. The phones were dead... it came back after say, at least four hours... that estimate is based on the calls I missed- long distance calls ... I was barely able to use the phone for three hours when the service cranked out again and stayed out all night and into the morning.
I had already made technical service inquiries via email, stating my concern. This was the first time that it took forever and so I hubbled over to the mall to contact the service provider. On hold for ever and an aching back. I was informed that the modem needed to be reset; all the other times the service came back on its own but today I was told to reset. I did not find that solution something that could resolve the recurring loss of service and did not wish to have anything serious happen before I came to my senses.
The thought of paying a reconnection fee to have service from the former provider made me almost dismiss that choice. Needless to say that I was caught between the rock and a hard place. When I made the request to have the service cancell then I am being offered the choice as what I was moments away from switiching to. I questioned my intention to cancel but by then I was so ticked that I made the choice to cancel.
The next time I am offered a service I will take the time to consider even more pros and cons -that goes beyond money... because I like savings but I love quality for my dollar.
It was reset and service was resumed... it won't be much longer before I have more reliable home phone service.
That's an expensive price for today's lesson but it will save me a lot of headache and stress.
And so it is!
Too many times I made choices that ended with painful consequences and some ended up burning a whole in my pocket.
Today's decision was yet another one. I am still a bit frustrated about the whole mess that consumed most of my day waiting on hold; getting upset and before doing what I felt was the best thing to do. It is going to cost me fifty five dollars but then and again I have my peace of mind and service that I can rely on.
There must be something that I needed to learn from all of this that I still hadn't learn or put into practise otherwise the events of this day would not have happened.
I know that doing what is best for me and not settling for less than I expect and drawing the line between saving a few dollars or spending a couple more for essential services is in my autmost interest, not to mention sense of wellbeing. Giving power to a service provider or anyone for that matter, at the expense of saying goodbye to my choices and my sanity is out of the question.
I should have listend to my intuition the weekend of the storm that happened two weeks after I switched phone service. I was without telephone service from Fiday afternoon until Sunday morning because of power failure. In fact that uneasy feeling had stirred some concern in me when I saw the tech with the box and asked him what it was for. He told me that is what was being used to provide the phone service.
I did not realized that it was not the same as the service provider that I swtiched from... I figured that the chances to be without power for any extended time would be very remote but I was wrong and the storm was more proof that I was taking a risk. It turned out that power failure was not the only cause for concern.
Was the risk worth the few dollars that I tried to save?
In the last three weeks the service has been very sporadic and even when I had some the reception was not the best. Still I kept bargaining with my self that it would be resolved and worth the savings.
Well that all changed when yesterday I woke up to make some business related calls. The phones were dead... it came back after say, at least four hours... that estimate is based on the calls I missed- long distance calls ... I was barely able to use the phone for three hours when the service cranked out again and stayed out all night and into the morning.
I had already made technical service inquiries via email, stating my concern. This was the first time that it took forever and so I hubbled over to the mall to contact the service provider. On hold for ever and an aching back. I was informed that the modem needed to be reset; all the other times the service came back on its own but today I was told to reset. I did not find that solution something that could resolve the recurring loss of service and did not wish to have anything serious happen before I came to my senses.
The thought of paying a reconnection fee to have service from the former provider made me almost dismiss that choice. Needless to say that I was caught between the rock and a hard place. When I made the request to have the service cancell then I am being offered the choice as what I was moments away from switiching to. I questioned my intention to cancel but by then I was so ticked that I made the choice to cancel.
The next time I am offered a service I will take the time to consider even more pros and cons -that goes beyond money... because I like savings but I love quality for my dollar.
It was reset and service was resumed... it won't be much longer before I have more reliable home phone service.
That's an expensive price for today's lesson but it will save me a lot of headache and stress.
And so it is!
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- Nympha Angeal-Eyes Francis
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