Wanting what I already have

I was about to haggle a deal with life one more time when God stormed in, quietly cleared its throat- as if that was necessary- stared at me through its nostril full of new breath and expecting me to proceed with the absurdity with daring Life to do what life is doing every day

I continuously renew you, and you want what?

The fact is, spirit is right. The cells that were just there are no more and what I am wanting I already have. The fact is this body has new ability and comes with conditions that make prevention better than cure an everyday medicine that it continually adapt to and life wants me to trust that Life can use me- transforming and all- to create and cocreate on Life terms and so I cease the argument with Life on what I can do when I am already doing what I can. Life has the plan, the resources and the intention to use it wisely so that when I have done everything that I can ther eis nothing that I can do that I did do