What keep me trekking onward!

I realize a long while ago that being a social camper and workaholic were very exhausting lifestyles. In a desperate need for people to not call me loner, detached, crazy, depressed isolated creep, selfish, strange, different, refusing work, lazy bum, I pushed myself beyond what the human yoke was designed to do without rest, many times without oomph or an adequate source of refuelling.

How did the ancestors do it! How did they keep up?

This is no legend! This is no torch worth carrying or passing on!

I drained myself of all energy and quietly ignored my desire to go away to a place where solitude approved of my ‘escape’.

Thank God, I understood the meaning of my ouches. Though it did not have to take me all these ouches that is how much it took before I took heed, i took heed later than sooner yet the point is I did and that is all there is to it!

Taking time off from the outside to attend to life on the inside is a great gift to my self from myself. It is there I find the tools I need readily and abundantly available to restoring my wholesomeness. I thought that I was always taking care of myself… the harshness of the truth ripped me apart when I came to terms with the fact that I have only been doing a quick touch here and little refuels there and that just was not enough to keep me going or even close!

Really taking care of myself required a lot of catching up therefore it was not something I could accomplish according to another’s time line or approach or in the clamour that bombarded the voice that I should be listening to.

I had to allow myself to enjoy a safe place where I listen to my cells enough to understand their needs and respond accordingly. Like everything new, it takes time, patience, encouragement and determination to succeed in attaining the best outcome.

Knowing that God can use all things for its good, and not at all interested in th ehurry up way of restoring what obvioulsy was not damaged in a day; I was not surprise that the objective of the lesson of my ouches is the same reason as that of the butterfly working its way out of the cocoon.

That is some encouragement along the way as I allow myself to continue healing and so I keep on trekking onward!