Talking to God… or is it talking with God?

The turbulence in my mind and the anxiety of my thoughts were sure signs that I was petrified of you; yet, my yearning to know you and enjoying my authentic self made me want to know you and want you to love me and care for all my life. Some how this felt like a hopeless dream and so I often lost faith and trust in you. In so doing I disowned, denied, and lost myself.

That was too much to fathom.

I could no longer face the day without you or myself, I went berserk and like the prodigal child I headed back to you and me... all along rehearsing my speech, my defense- my confession!
All you said was, my child, what took you so long!

I was speechless and happy for the moments that brought me to a point when I stopped listening to all the noise of what would happen to me when God got a hold of me. All this time I dreaded God's judgment and all this time I was staying away from, and blaming God; I was actually robbing myself of joy, happiness and everlasting life. For as long as continue to be a Pilgrim on this planet, I will pursue my dreams until they manifest and make way for more dreams to turn into visions and more challenges to present stepping stones towards greater destinations in life!