Every now and then when I take the time to uncover and deal with that which I resisted from feeling and thinking and wanting many, many years ago, I experience an overwhelming period of episodes of happiness and appreciation. Were it not for the highs and lows I would not arrive at this point when I can know that all along I was just where I was suppose to be, doing just what I needed to do to arrive where I am today and to continue looking forward to great retrospection moments for having experienced everything that brought me forth from the darkness into the light.
Now when this feeling of Wow comes over me I stop running away from it and say ta dah! Another moment of self recovery is making its way from the unknown to the known. I sometimes still feel a little scared about letting myself feel what it needs to feel but I have come to realize that the more I embrace it, the less I have to resist it… it’s all about taking the risk to celebrate life, my life. No more escaping from my very own life. Instead, I let myself revel that God is busy reminding me that He is crazily in love with me and wants me to stop all distraction and enjoy the fact that he loves me very much, so much that he gave me my very own life and he is managing it like no one else can and ever will. Knowing this and more so, believing this about myself has remove my fear of having to settle for less than being someone who is loving, kind, respectful, human, divine, beautiful on the outside and even more beautiful on the inside, worthy of love, respect and sacredness....some of the fine qualities that God built in me and all his children.
Self knowledge sure increases self worth!
And so the journey continues!
Now when this feeling of Wow comes over me I stop running away from it and say ta dah! Another moment of self recovery is making its way from the unknown to the known. I sometimes still feel a little scared about letting myself feel what it needs to feel but I have come to realize that the more I embrace it, the less I have to resist it… it’s all about taking the risk to celebrate life, my life. No more escaping from my very own life. Instead, I let myself revel that God is busy reminding me that He is crazily in love with me and wants me to stop all distraction and enjoy the fact that he loves me very much, so much that he gave me my very own life and he is managing it like no one else can and ever will. Knowing this and more so, believing this about myself has remove my fear of having to settle for less than being someone who is loving, kind, respectful, human, divine, beautiful on the outside and even more beautiful on the inside, worthy of love, respect and sacredness....some of the fine qualities that God built in me and all his children.
Self knowledge sure increases self worth!
And so the journey continues!
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