It is time to remove the veil of injustice and tear down the idols of the world-governing bodies. The prophet Haggai in his two chapters of airtime is inviting us to follow the same instructions that he gave to the people of Jerusalem in 520 B.C. His message urges the people in authority to rebuild the nation and the world using Divine principles build on the foundation of justice; for this is the only way that all the nation’s hard work will reap the harvest that we aim to enjoy right here on earth and in this time!
Remember, heaven and earth will pass away but God remains the God of yesterday, today and forever and His instructions still works in this time; so let us heed it!
This could very well be the great day proclaimed in Revelation and in Zephaniah 1:14 and 18 and Zephaniah 2:11.
Let us be comforted with the promise that God made... once the world is restored in His favour; Haggai 2:18b -19: "See what is going to hapen from now on. Although there is no grain left, and the grpaevines, fig trees, promegranates, and olive trees have not yet produced, yet from now on I will bless you."
February 20, 2007
February 19, 2007
What lies beneath the bandaid of social injustice
Festering wounds inflicted from 'me first and I don't care about the consequences of my greed for power and more power' even it kills everyone in the process.
This describes a lot of individuals but it's underlying source are caused by "the people for the people", and this syndrome inflames the sores of homelessness, hunger, unemployment (which by the way, is the govenrment sector- E.I, which boasts of surplus {profit} every fiscal year) , 'broken' homes and fragmented families, murder by proxy and killing; autoimmune diseases, suicide and assited suicide, schizophrenia and all the supposedly perosnality disorders. Their statistics are taken in the form of census to survey the damage that they do as well as to strategize their plan to inherit the best fruit of everyone's labour and make them feel punished and direct them or misdirect them to God as the source of their oppression. But Isaiah 43: challenges the people who are in authority to realize that God promises to rescue His people, and though it may not seem like He is doing anything to save the oppressed, he is doing so right now, because He alone is God.
Solomon was a king and he faced the dire consequences of mismanaged affairs in personal and business relationships and he was humble enough to share his experience with us as this too apply to us in our day!
Here are a few tips worth following whether or not we are in public authority!
“When evil people are in power, crime increases but the righteous will se the downfall of such people.” Proverbs 29:16
“A nation without God’s guidance is a nation without order. Happy are those who keep Gods’ law.” Proverbs 29: 18
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If the king defends the rights of the poor, he will rule for a long time.” Proverbs 29:14
“When the king is concerned with Justice, the nation will be strong but when he is only concerned with money, he will ruin his country.” Proverbs 29:4
This describes a lot of individuals but it's underlying source are caused by "the people for the people", and this syndrome inflames the sores of homelessness, hunger, unemployment (which by the way, is the govenrment sector- E.I, which boasts of surplus {profit} every fiscal year) , 'broken' homes and fragmented families, murder by proxy and killing; autoimmune diseases, suicide and assited suicide, schizophrenia and all the supposedly perosnality disorders. Their statistics are taken in the form of census to survey the damage that they do as well as to strategize their plan to inherit the best fruit of everyone's labour and make them feel punished and direct them or misdirect them to God as the source of their oppression. But Isaiah 43: challenges the people who are in authority to realize that God promises to rescue His people, and though it may not seem like He is doing anything to save the oppressed, he is doing so right now, because He alone is God.
Solomon was a king and he faced the dire consequences of mismanaged affairs in personal and business relationships and he was humble enough to share his experience with us as this too apply to us in our day!
Here are a few tips worth following whether or not we are in public authority!
“When evil people are in power, crime increases but the righteous will se the downfall of such people.” Proverbs 29:16
“A nation without God’s guidance is a nation without order. Happy are those who keep Gods’ law.” Proverbs 29: 18
“
If the king defends the rights of the poor, he will rule for a long time.” Proverbs 29:14
“When the king is concerned with Justice, the nation will be strong but when he is only concerned with money, he will ruin his country.” Proverbs 29:4
February 18, 2007
Self-responsibility versus false guilt
Authenticity delivers honourable character building points of view that lead to pure intention and self-responsibility
False beliefs deliver wobbly view points of view that lead to manipulative selfishness and lack of self-determination
One is divine; the other deliberate human deception. One is my birthright; the other was adopted. Failure to recognize this almost resulted in a permanent life void of the spirit of love, of power and of a very sound reasoning ability… gifts that God himself bestowed to each of us.
I had been oblivious of how badly I had severed my relationship with God and in so doing, with myself and all whom I long to engage in as part of my interpersonal connection when I allowed false guilt to take up residence in my life. That I cone to understand and accept as lack of self responsibility and I am doing what I can do to correct/reverse the damage or the side effects as well as change my erroneous beliefs that influenced my decisions that manufactured so much false guilt that I was beginning to lost everything and everyone that mattered and most of all as I mentioned already, my authentic self.
All along God had been drawing my attention to the truth and importance of thinking for myself and the consequences of this sin called 'not thinking for myself'; however I was often too confused to understand and the more I resisted his discipline to guide me into correcting and transforming my thoughts and the health of my mind, I just kept backing away from him and into the very course that is misleading me. The Psalmist words “Do not be like the horse or like the mule, which have no understanding, which must be harnessed with bit and bridle. —Psalm 32:9, literally jumped out the page ad all I could imagine was God getting so firm with me and so determined to knock me down and even crush me. For one, he knew that only he could put me back in one piece long after he was through tearing me apart and leaving my self-respect and self-worth intact.
I am beginning to see the potential of stories is book as being the best source to encourage cross-examination between the authentic guilt versus false guilt. This is my very own belief and is subject to change only as God I feel God speaking specifically to me, Nympha Francis- Angel Eyes!
I have to be always discerning the difference so I can distinguish the path I should follow. I have no time to entertain the glamour or lack there of, of guilt; therefore, I continue to invite God to remove the obstacle called false guilt until all I know is truth. This is not asking God too much otherwise, I would be rejecting his invitation to cast all my cares on him. So I ask of him, seek from him and knock on his door of compassion and he responds.
False beliefs deliver wobbly view points of view that lead to manipulative selfishness and lack of self-determination
One is divine; the other deliberate human deception. One is my birthright; the other was adopted. Failure to recognize this almost resulted in a permanent life void of the spirit of love, of power and of a very sound reasoning ability… gifts that God himself bestowed to each of us.
I had been oblivious of how badly I had severed my relationship with God and in so doing, with myself and all whom I long to engage in as part of my interpersonal connection when I allowed false guilt to take up residence in my life. That I cone to understand and accept as lack of self responsibility and I am doing what I can do to correct/reverse the damage or the side effects as well as change my erroneous beliefs that influenced my decisions that manufactured so much false guilt that I was beginning to lost everything and everyone that mattered and most of all as I mentioned already, my authentic self.
All along God had been drawing my attention to the truth and importance of thinking for myself and the consequences of this sin called 'not thinking for myself'; however I was often too confused to understand and the more I resisted his discipline to guide me into correcting and transforming my thoughts and the health of my mind, I just kept backing away from him and into the very course that is misleading me. The Psalmist words “Do not be like the horse or like the mule, which have no understanding, which must be harnessed with bit and bridle. —Psalm 32:9, literally jumped out the page ad all I could imagine was God getting so firm with me and so determined to knock me down and even crush me. For one, he knew that only he could put me back in one piece long after he was through tearing me apart and leaving my self-respect and self-worth intact.
I am beginning to see the potential of stories is book as being the best source to encourage cross-examination between the authentic guilt versus false guilt. This is my very own belief and is subject to change only as God I feel God speaking specifically to me, Nympha Francis- Angel Eyes!
I have to be always discerning the difference so I can distinguish the path I should follow. I have no time to entertain the glamour or lack there of, of guilt; therefore, I continue to invite God to remove the obstacle called false guilt until all I know is truth. This is not asking God too much otherwise, I would be rejecting his invitation to cast all my cares on him. So I ask of him, seek from him and knock on his door of compassion and he responds.
February 17, 2007
The Book of Proverbs- a king’s experience with personal relationships and business dealings
I enjoy his forthrightness but some of his warnings hit too close for a silent nod or even a no argument agreement... so i am going to spend a little more time salvaging his lessons and how I am to apply them in my life. For some reason I strongly feel that this is somehow a manual on how to...how not to...
I agree to disagree with him on the way he teaches his son about women. I know that women were not regarded as God’s children, who must be treated with respect and dignity, and while he give praise to the woman I wonder if he stretched the message that God inspired him to convey. Was he using the airtime to share his confession because he sound to me a bit bitter about his choices in sexual relationships and blames the woman - classic case of Adam syndrome. I wonder what God had to say on that and what bout Jesus would he agree that a woman is like a drippy faucet. He is not stating what provoked the woman. Maybe she was asking him to help out with the children or fixing the tap in the kitchen that he used to symbolize her frustration or nagging which ever it was.
Even after finding the woman that made him sing and dance with joy and God knows what else; I wondered what he had to say to defend his annoyance of women and of children who teach their parent’s the core value of self responsibility. I understand that there are cases of gross neglect to care for loved ones; however, is a child responsible for the choices of his/her parents?
Frankly, I have been spending a lot of time wanting to slap Solomon and pull his ear off yet somehow, he makes his point so evidently clear that it is very thought provoking and renders me to respect what he shares as God’s way of examining my heart’s condition.
I wonder what he would have told his daughter(s)!
Oh well, these proverbs must be in the bible for the same reason that the Book of Psalms is! To remind me that God knows the condition of my heart and I have to use my life, as He wants me too. Not doing so has its consequences. Other people’s experience is a great teacher and that I can learn when they recount their life lesson and their true confession.
Still have not found if they were relatives or people with similar consequential evidence.
I agree to disagree with him on the way he teaches his son about women. I know that women were not regarded as God’s children, who must be treated with respect and dignity, and while he give praise to the woman I wonder if he stretched the message that God inspired him to convey. Was he using the airtime to share his confession because he sound to me a bit bitter about his choices in sexual relationships and blames the woman - classic case of Adam syndrome. I wonder what God had to say on that and what bout Jesus would he agree that a woman is like a drippy faucet. He is not stating what provoked the woman. Maybe she was asking him to help out with the children or fixing the tap in the kitchen that he used to symbolize her frustration or nagging which ever it was.
Even after finding the woman that made him sing and dance with joy and God knows what else; I wondered what he had to say to defend his annoyance of women and of children who teach their parent’s the core value of self responsibility. I understand that there are cases of gross neglect to care for loved ones; however, is a child responsible for the choices of his/her parents?
Frankly, I have been spending a lot of time wanting to slap Solomon and pull his ear off yet somehow, he makes his point so evidently clear that it is very thought provoking and renders me to respect what he shares as God’s way of examining my heart’s condition.
I wonder what he would have told his daughter(s)!
Oh well, these proverbs must be in the bible for the same reason that the Book of Psalms is! To remind me that God knows the condition of my heart and I have to use my life, as He wants me too. Not doing so has its consequences. Other people’s experience is a great teacher and that I can learn when they recount their life lesson and their true confession.
Still have not found if they were relatives or people with similar consequential evidence.
February 16, 2007
Ecclesiastes- the book of a holy rant; and, a potent dose of enlightenment
The most familiar biblical message I have encountered to best describe the one constant and certain reality, that is change is inevitable, is found in Ecclesiastes. The philosopher explicitly states that in chapter 3:1-15. To me, this is a great lesson in establishing the importance of managing my life and how I spent my time; in that I should not, or rather, must not resist change.
I can complain, grumble and face the sometimes-harsh reality of the need to and the benefits of change and how I use this to maximize my time here on earth. What ever was his thorn in his flesh sure gave him something to write about that gave me something to ponder- honest acceptance of my discomfort and acknowledgement of my distress without overlooking the fact that life is still worth enjoying and yearning for.
Imagine, he even had wise investment information in chapter 11; a message in due season for me!
All in all, I found this a truly amazing account of both sides of the story on life; straight from the heart.
Was he by any chance related to King Solomon; I guess I am gonna have to find out. Solomon himself is another classic exemplar of someone who learnt from the hard knocks of poor relationships. The good thing is he used his experience to educate his son…
That’s a story to blog on its own!
I can complain, grumble and face the sometimes-harsh reality of the need to and the benefits of change and how I use this to maximize my time here on earth. What ever was his thorn in his flesh sure gave him something to write about that gave me something to ponder- honest acceptance of my discomfort and acknowledgement of my distress without overlooking the fact that life is still worth enjoying and yearning for.
Imagine, he even had wise investment information in chapter 11; a message in due season for me!
All in all, I found this a truly amazing account of both sides of the story on life; straight from the heart.
Was he by any chance related to King Solomon; I guess I am gonna have to find out. Solomon himself is another classic exemplar of someone who learnt from the hard knocks of poor relationships. The good thing is he used his experience to educate his son…
That’s a story to blog on its own!
February 15, 2007
Reaping the harvest of proper self care
What is God’s extent of determining who or what is his rival and when people become his rival? I have been a rebel for a long time and I thought that I was rebelling against God when I stood my ground against beliefs that trespassed my core self in an attempt to overthrow it. That is what I rebelled against.
There are days when all I do is wonder where my life ends and Gods’ continue on His own for being God who can do all things he surely does not need me but somehow this seem a paradox because after all he needs to use my hands, feet and availability to do some things for Him. Well dear you jolly well understand the dilemma that I have to constantly struggle with, maybe that is why I never win because then that would make me your rival, wouldn’t it. Common, say something to clarify this uncertainty! Then and again that would be me waging another war against your Omnipotence. Oh well, now I know that you want me to be always honest with what you already know is in my heart and that I know you understand I thank you for allowing me to be blatantly frank with you. After all, this is the best guarantee to be of pure motives so I stop causing you and myself so much grief. At least that is my take on the whole confession and thorn in the flesh analogy.
I am reaping the harvest from my intention of sowing the seeds of proper self-care. The drought and barren soils you have turned to an oasis of fertile soil so I can only imagine the fruits that I can produce because of your excavating, ploughing, weeding out and fertilizing. Thank you
I know that the pruning process is ongoing so when I feel your scalpel in areas of my life that are not producing Godly crops then I know it is for good. I may not like to feel so exposed but before you I am always exposed anyway so what’s the point of running to get cover from fig leaves. Then and again I learnt that from Adam and Eve story as handed down! That curse seems to be my worst thorn and this for sure does not take you by surprise.
So thank you for not scolding me for my boldness and straight talk. I know you will discipline me when I get offline with you and that I can take from you. That is why I chose to always be happy that you know me like you do and I am getting to know me too!
I do not care whether you are a force, a breath, as far as I am concern you can be anything because I know now that you are not that monster who is waiting to trip me when I dare to be my very own person. I know all too well the ramification of the battle that lack of self-responsibility cause and I do not intend to do any harm to myself or anyone else, for that matter. That is all I can ever promise anyone and myself; so, I quit being the responsibility sponge, which you never assigned me to in the first place. In so doing, I also absolve anyone who felt that they were assigned to be my responsibility sponge because they are not!
There are days when all I do is wonder where my life ends and Gods’ continue on His own for being God who can do all things he surely does not need me but somehow this seem a paradox because after all he needs to use my hands, feet and availability to do some things for Him. Well dear you jolly well understand the dilemma that I have to constantly struggle with, maybe that is why I never win because then that would make me your rival, wouldn’t it. Common, say something to clarify this uncertainty! Then and again that would be me waging another war against your Omnipotence. Oh well, now I know that you want me to be always honest with what you already know is in my heart and that I know you understand I thank you for allowing me to be blatantly frank with you. After all, this is the best guarantee to be of pure motives so I stop causing you and myself so much grief. At least that is my take on the whole confession and thorn in the flesh analogy.
I am reaping the harvest from my intention of sowing the seeds of proper self-care. The drought and barren soils you have turned to an oasis of fertile soil so I can only imagine the fruits that I can produce because of your excavating, ploughing, weeding out and fertilizing. Thank you
I know that the pruning process is ongoing so when I feel your scalpel in areas of my life that are not producing Godly crops then I know it is for good. I may not like to feel so exposed but before you I am always exposed anyway so what’s the point of running to get cover from fig leaves. Then and again I learnt that from Adam and Eve story as handed down! That curse seems to be my worst thorn and this for sure does not take you by surprise.
So thank you for not scolding me for my boldness and straight talk. I know you will discipline me when I get offline with you and that I can take from you. That is why I chose to always be happy that you know me like you do and I am getting to know me too!
I do not care whether you are a force, a breath, as far as I am concern you can be anything because I know now that you are not that monster who is waiting to trip me when I dare to be my very own person. I know all too well the ramification of the battle that lack of self-responsibility cause and I do not intend to do any harm to myself or anyone else, for that matter. That is all I can ever promise anyone and myself; so, I quit being the responsibility sponge, which you never assigned me to in the first place. In so doing, I also absolve anyone who felt that they were assigned to be my responsibility sponge because they are not!
February 14, 2007
A lesson from my greatest teacher
Mother Nature has a way about her that use to make me wonder whether she considers how she impacts on my day.
She is predictably unpredictable and does not seem to care too much that people are always complaining about her ways and she could not be bothered with their petty plans that she ‘screws up’ when she is doing her best in maintaining ecological equilibrium. Some even blame her for life’s calamites
Honestly, her attitude use to really tick me off, until I understood that she cannot function in a vacuum and please everybody all the time. She is brave, bold and full of vigour yet she can be very reliable when we stop trying to control her mood. She makes meteorological inventions puny and turn weather reporters into prankster and laughs at us when we rely solely on the certain uncertainty of the predictions.
Call it strangeness if you will, but I find Mother Nature a fantastic teacher who practises what she preaches and encourages me to heed the signs of cause and effect; and, the danger of being concerned with what people think of me. For all I know she may have been the one who King Solomon studied when he came to the wise conclusion in Proverbs 29:25.
Today I grumbled at not being able to enjoy any outdoor activity and then I turn around looked out the window, smiled and thanked her for teaching me how to make the best of my day and how I can continue to learn from her wisdom and ability to adapt and or change to yield the best conditions for maintaining a life of balance.
She is predictably unpredictable and does not seem to care too much that people are always complaining about her ways and she could not be bothered with their petty plans that she ‘screws up’ when she is doing her best in maintaining ecological equilibrium. Some even blame her for life’s calamites
Honestly, her attitude use to really tick me off, until I understood that she cannot function in a vacuum and please everybody all the time. She is brave, bold and full of vigour yet she can be very reliable when we stop trying to control her mood. She makes meteorological inventions puny and turn weather reporters into prankster and laughs at us when we rely solely on the certain uncertainty of the predictions.
Call it strangeness if you will, but I find Mother Nature a fantastic teacher who practises what she preaches and encourages me to heed the signs of cause and effect; and, the danger of being concerned with what people think of me. For all I know she may have been the one who King Solomon studied when he came to the wise conclusion in Proverbs 29:25.
Today I grumbled at not being able to enjoy any outdoor activity and then I turn around looked out the window, smiled and thanked her for teaching me how to make the best of my day and how I can continue to learn from her wisdom and ability to adapt and or change to yield the best conditions for maintaining a life of balance.
February 13, 2007
The mission field- full time service for God
True Godliness is caring enough to confront and this is my motive for challenging un-pure religion and its god. my expereince with religion used to make me feel unwell and unfit in God’s eyes. Pure 'religion' reminds me that God is pursuing me and all his children and longing to bring all of us back to his flock right here, on this side of heaven.
The best setting to preach is in the marketplace and that does not always require words. Thank God, actions speak louder than words because with all these interpretations and expressions and isms embedded in even a simple words as no or why, I would be thrown out wherever I set up camp.
Now a days when I am given that look of ‘what are you talking about’, that’s when I keep talking because I know that I am making sense, I am just not talking the language that makes sense to the 10 percent of the brain that relies on superficial communication. Some people just do not understand me and so they often tell me how strange I am. But it gets even better when I do not say anything because they do not know what to say or how to handle my silence.
Back in the day I would stop talking because I believed I was really crazy and schizophrenic when all this time the negative self just praised me for giving in to my false self.
No wonder I felt like God had forgotten about me! Well he had to set the record straight and he told me one day, watch me turn your scars to stars but first I have to work on your attitude and refine your character. When I am finished with the world will know that I have the best touch! . It took so much longer than I imagined but as I blogged earlier that is what short cuts and feeling defeated do but it was all worth it! So even when I feel fear I keep on doing what I believe God has appointed me to do in the market place and in order to not take the credit I have to apply these same principles to my life first.
“If the Lord does not build the house, the work of the builders is useless; if the Lord does not protect the city, it does no good for the sentries to stand guard.” Psalm 127: 1
God’s yoke is easy and that is why I hitch my burden to his wagon and enjoy the ride. Any other way is summed up in Psalm 127:2a: “ it is useless to work so hard for a living, getting up early and going to bed late.”
Step by step God leads me as I continue to march on as his soldier in this world.
The best setting to preach is in the marketplace and that does not always require words. Thank God, actions speak louder than words because with all these interpretations and expressions and isms embedded in even a simple words as no or why, I would be thrown out wherever I set up camp.
Now a days when I am given that look of ‘what are you talking about’, that’s when I keep talking because I know that I am making sense, I am just not talking the language that makes sense to the 10 percent of the brain that relies on superficial communication. Some people just do not understand me and so they often tell me how strange I am. But it gets even better when I do not say anything because they do not know what to say or how to handle my silence.
Back in the day I would stop talking because I believed I was really crazy and schizophrenic when all this time the negative self just praised me for giving in to my false self.
No wonder I felt like God had forgotten about me! Well he had to set the record straight and he told me one day, watch me turn your scars to stars but first I have to work on your attitude and refine your character. When I am finished with the world will know that I have the best touch! . It took so much longer than I imagined but as I blogged earlier that is what short cuts and feeling defeated do but it was all worth it! So even when I feel fear I keep on doing what I believe God has appointed me to do in the market place and in order to not take the credit I have to apply these same principles to my life first.
“If the Lord does not build the house, the work of the builders is useless; if the Lord does not protect the city, it does no good for the sentries to stand guard.” Psalm 127: 1
God’s yoke is easy and that is why I hitch my burden to his wagon and enjoy the ride. Any other way is summed up in Psalm 127:2a: “ it is useless to work so hard for a living, getting up early and going to bed late.”
Step by step God leads me as I continue to march on as his soldier in this world.
February 12, 2007
Serious salvation and spiritual stronghold
Dear God, thank you for placing the right desire in my heart. I use to feel scared to ask God what his will for my life because I dreaded he would finished me with hard labour with sporadic success through a life of existence.
Well that was not good enough for me and so I decided that if that was what God had in store for me then he could take it where the sun does not share. I really did not know God well enough. Honestly I did not know God. Ironically, I had been desperately looking for the God who I finally discovered and what he plans to do is to use me to shine his light for all to see by spending my days in heaven here on what is called earth. I can only say that I cam happy that I challenge my false self before I departed from this planet only to find out that there, wherever there is no better or safer than here, wherever here happens to be.
All I can say now phew; I am on the right side of heaven after all and I do not need any brownie points to take me in God’s vineyard. I have since then become very bold in asking God to put big dreams in my heart for I know now that he has a lot of faith in me, even when I had no clue, what I was praying for.
Thank you for God, for being my genuine guarantor.
I really enjoy chilling by your bubbling brook where your abundance provides for me.
Well that was not good enough for me and so I decided that if that was what God had in store for me then he could take it where the sun does not share. I really did not know God well enough. Honestly I did not know God. Ironically, I had been desperately looking for the God who I finally discovered and what he plans to do is to use me to shine his light for all to see by spending my days in heaven here on what is called earth. I can only say that I cam happy that I challenge my false self before I departed from this planet only to find out that there, wherever there is no better or safer than here, wherever here happens to be.
All I can say now phew; I am on the right side of heaven after all and I do not need any brownie points to take me in God’s vineyard. I have since then become very bold in asking God to put big dreams in my heart for I know now that he has a lot of faith in me, even when I had no clue, what I was praying for.
Thank you for God, for being my genuine guarantor.
I really enjoy chilling by your bubbling brook where your abundance provides for me.
February 11, 2007
cutting corners
Not missing out on the best of what God promised to me is my ultimate objective in life. Awaiting his timing, which sometimes, I must admit tempted me to go off track and take over God’s steering wheel, almost had a disastrous outcome. On more than one occasion, I decided that God was messed up and so that is why God kept messing up my plans. The rut of routine and the morass of what seemed like meaningless chores or rather, my attitude towards what he had blessed me to do so efficiently, did not help either. I just felt like my life was on hold; it is only after I decided to take God promises a little seriously and later, more seriously did I realize that he was waiting on me tapping his feet as though to the music of “Final Jeopardy.” As soon as I surrendered to Him, he promoted me from feeling mundane to feeling magnificent about my outlook on life.
The pay cheque is necessary; however, I understand what he meant when he got me off the daily grind of working for food that does not satisfy.
Had I not taken the time to see God’s purpose in every tangle I would not care two hoots whether I go to hell when I die; ironically, I came to my senses and realized that I was in hell and that I had to get out before I die.
God is not in the hurry-up-busyness, for doing so would be like helping the butterfly out of its cocoon before its wings are strong enough manifest its purpose- to develop from larva to creature of flight. This realization has been the most discerning thing in my lesson of God’s time and sense of purpose that make me understanding that helping God out is cutting corners and he does not like it one bit.
Another thing is that I used to tell him I will believe you and trust you when you come through favourably for me… oh I am just thrilled to know that God forgave my impatience and gross ignorance of that he was doing behind the scenes. Is it any wonder that he never let my pouting distract him? I did not like the process but I am just happy that he still chose me as one of his conduits to serve him.
How else could I have bear much fruit save for being a branch of his vine! Thank you God for revealing your character in me in whatever you grace me to do.
The pay cheque is necessary; however, I understand what he meant when he got me off the daily grind of working for food that does not satisfy.
Had I not taken the time to see God’s purpose in every tangle I would not care two hoots whether I go to hell when I die; ironically, I came to my senses and realized that I was in hell and that I had to get out before I die.
God is not in the hurry-up-busyness, for doing so would be like helping the butterfly out of its cocoon before its wings are strong enough manifest its purpose- to develop from larva to creature of flight. This realization has been the most discerning thing in my lesson of God’s time and sense of purpose that make me understanding that helping God out is cutting corners and he does not like it one bit.
Another thing is that I used to tell him I will believe you and trust you when you come through favourably for me… oh I am just thrilled to know that God forgave my impatience and gross ignorance of that he was doing behind the scenes. Is it any wonder that he never let my pouting distract him? I did not like the process but I am just happy that he still chose me as one of his conduits to serve him.
How else could I have bear much fruit save for being a branch of his vine! Thank you God for revealing your character in me in whatever you grace me to do.
February 10, 2007
The treasure of darkness and deserts
This is where God prepare a highway for him to work his marvels and wonders in my life. Were it not for the desert moments I would not have given omnipotence the opportunity to turn my dry spell into an oasis of prosperity…God-refined character, endurance, patience, perseverance, compassion and a rejoicing spirit even when everything has gone so badly wrong. I am ready to invite and welcome his milk and honey
Now I see why God did not remove the mountains that made Mount Everest seem like a mole. The darkest night made the brightest dawn glisten and glow and left me in total awe; how else could I have been able to say- Wow! Wow! Wow!
So when I look back at these last 42 years of my life, I can only boast of God and say thank you to him for making me worthy to be one of his servants and for using each one of my experiences to encourage me to make him my CEO.
Thank you, God, for making me eligible to work in your kingdom! I am glad to know that all you ever required was my availability; I know, because when I was at my weakest moment you used me like none other could, would and or should. That’s what made it most easy to not run away from you and that is why that is all I will ever promise to do- to never run away from you and what you are doing in me to show the world your power, intelligence, wisdom, justice, peace, and love. All my days I will give you praise, honour, worship and give you first place in my life.
To everything else, I say, no thanks!
Now I see why God did not remove the mountains that made Mount Everest seem like a mole. The darkest night made the brightest dawn glisten and glow and left me in total awe; how else could I have been able to say- Wow! Wow! Wow!
So when I look back at these last 42 years of my life, I can only boast of God and say thank you to him for making me worthy to be one of his servants and for using each one of my experiences to encourage me to make him my CEO.
Thank you, God, for making me eligible to work in your kingdom! I am glad to know that all you ever required was my availability; I know, because when I was at my weakest moment you used me like none other could, would and or should. That’s what made it most easy to not run away from you and that is why that is all I will ever promise to do- to never run away from you and what you are doing in me to show the world your power, intelligence, wisdom, justice, peace, and love. All my days I will give you praise, honour, worship and give you first place in my life.
To everything else, I say, no thanks!
February 03, 2007
Rest, rest, rest awhile
In the months leading up to the reinstating of LTD benefits I was in constant dialogue with my self, which I eventually realized, was what wrestling with God really means. All this Breath would say to me is rest... rest...rest. I argued with him about this choice, as there was so much going on that required me to be actively awake.
Then one day I was not even able to open my eyes when I woke up; let alone get out of bed. I was tired and worn out from fatigue and concerns about today and tomorrow and even the now. I stopped arguing and rested my head on my pillow and fell asleep like a baby. In hindsight that was like the day that Jacob fought with God and won. With all his burning and rubbish and his wives, maidservants and children bred by his first cousins; and, lots of sheep and goats which he made sure he got from ‘pagan Laban’ as his just reward, he dared to cry out to God. Wow!
With God it’s all or nothing. I had to trust to cast all my cares on Him. No sooner did I started to lay them at his feet, one by one, the mountains began to crumble and I began to see beyond what seem to be the problem. Since then I pretty much just knock on heaven’s door and lay the mountain at his feet and those I thought were crucial to me I dared to hand deliver it and would not leave his side until he attended to it. Some days He would not even bat an eyelash and I just sat there. That was His way of making sure that I never left his company. When I understand how and why God does things I have no choice but to hang out with him, constantly!
God’s delays are not denials and his not yet does not mean no so now when he recommends a time to rest, I do not hesitate, question or doubt that he knows what he is doing and or asking me to do.
And so it is!
Then one day I was not even able to open my eyes when I woke up; let alone get out of bed. I was tired and worn out from fatigue and concerns about today and tomorrow and even the now. I stopped arguing and rested my head on my pillow and fell asleep like a baby. In hindsight that was like the day that Jacob fought with God and won. With all his burning and rubbish and his wives, maidservants and children bred by his first cousins; and, lots of sheep and goats which he made sure he got from ‘pagan Laban’ as his just reward, he dared to cry out to God. Wow!
With God it’s all or nothing. I had to trust to cast all my cares on Him. No sooner did I started to lay them at his feet, one by one, the mountains began to crumble and I began to see beyond what seem to be the problem. Since then I pretty much just knock on heaven’s door and lay the mountain at his feet and those I thought were crucial to me I dared to hand deliver it and would not leave his side until he attended to it. Some days He would not even bat an eyelash and I just sat there. That was His way of making sure that I never left his company. When I understand how and why God does things I have no choice but to hang out with him, constantly!
God’s delays are not denials and his not yet does not mean no so now when he recommends a time to rest, I do not hesitate, question or doubt that he knows what he is doing and or asking me to do.
And so it is!
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