Seeing beyond the problem

This pause in my day was to release the pause button on the process and trusting myself to continue moving ahead of the least crowded of the road. I set out this trek a decade ago. Come to think of it I have been on this trek from the time I entered this side of heaven. Well I am not sure I was ready but given the circumstance I had no say in that. Then and again maybe the date of birth was my choice and God said here you are my girl, I have been waiting. I know that he was not surprise when I came because he knew that day was conceived in his mind when he created me.

And so the miracle continued. I strayed on when I got to the first fork of the road and even then when insisted on making myself make him believe.

This was prompted after this mornings reflection that I called ‘seeing beyond the cause’ and also from a movie clippings message that just resonated into my awareness: “See what no one else sees. See what everyone else chooses not to see.”[i]

I picked up my pen and paper and let my mind use my fingers.

I see what I choose to prefer not to see but I know that I must let myself see, feel, touch, smell, taste, savour, enjoy it FULLY with all its burning, rubbish, passion, anger, shame, joy, thorns, suffering, discomfort, bliss, power, weakness. All these are part and parcel of what comes with everything that I yearn for.

Instead of wanting to reconsider what I know that I genuinely long for and deeply desire to aspire I accept that no amount of frustration or wishing or praying, procrastinating or ignoring of the brown paper that presents itself each time I delve enthusiastically in working towards manifesting the fine details that only I know how to and truly convinced can, and is the only way that will bring the outcome of my desire. So I will go ahead and do it. In order to proceed and endure, I must keep the seeing beyond what is. I will not let anything ruin my spirit.

Knowing that which presents itself is meant to keep my self on “higher ground”, quitting from seeing beyond the problem is not an option.



[i] Patch Adams- 1998, Universal Pictures