source figures

Very saucy

I have spent so many years working on identifying the origin of the source that supplied me with evidence that warranted my thinking invalid.

I never really felt enough close family bonding to attach to the ingrained beliefs. Somehow I mistakenly felt this was the source responsible for attending to my God-bestowed endowment. Talk about baffled. To say the least, I could not make any sense of the nonsense that swirled in my mind.

I have to say that the baby did not go out with the bath water. Had they not provided the opportunity to be sceptical about a God who one minute was pleased with me, and in another is ready to strike me down- a God who would never forsake me was about to punish me and even finish me off, I would have stop thinking and ended up in an asylum waiting for that fateful day. I by-passed them and lashed out directly to this God and years later I have to admit it was a case of misidentity. I was attacking the wrong God! The quiet debate waged havoc.

Daydreaming became a creative tactic method of thinking for myself. In so doing, no one could assault what was really going on in my mind, or was it my heart or soul, perhaps all of the above. Anyway, after many sleepy days and mind-boggling nights with the zombie and much deep questions that erupted in my skull, I recognized the source. It was years of brainwashing religion and legalism. Ironically, the source that was supposedly responsible for taking me straight to God, heaven, or if all else fails, Purgatory or maybe straight to hell. Often enough God and the devil seem one and the same. It is very frightening to even begin to imagine the damage that this organized cult is doing. So who would have suspect or how many dare question God’s authority! It will take a lot of convincing and a lot of inner conflict and some may rather die than to risk reclaiming themselves. But there are those who at great cost, take on the necessary action to see the powerless as just that… coward liars and false prophets.

I had to see this for myself, and is it any wonder so many people dread facing their inner essence? Daring to embrace and truly find God is made to seem like too much hard work and to some extent, a ridicule.

I am glad that he knows my heart and so happy that I risk having the many fights that I had with Omnipotence. I am not supposed to question God, the God who endowed me with a trailer load of question to satisfy my curiosity and immense my wonder is threatening to deprive me the choice of safely fuelling soul. And to imagine that I almost gave that up. Oh my!

I often consider the church’s role in all the autoimmune and incurable diseases that seem to be purgatory even before death. Think of it… the body is wasting away even before life is no more. And the other systematically constructed soul wrenchers- the collective government, fails to recognize that when God gave them authority he never told them that he demoted himself to them or made his Law echoed in Matthew 7:12 “Treat others as you would love to be treated”, obsolete. One is demanding ten percent of what’s left after the other have taken first cut, even before God had a chance to bless and increase our harvest. As if that is not enough they have the share holding powers of the drug companies and so many little murders go on as a result. In the last few decades it has escalated to secret genocides of the masses in ways too unspeakable to fathom. I look at all these things and I think “ this devil- cunning as the one who fed the apple to Eve.

It is so crucial that individuals begin to realize the real culprits that cause havocs is their lack of self-responsibility to think for themselves. The more we rely on others truth, the more gullible we make ourselves as we throw our power to these source figures. It’s like doing just what Matthew 7 verse 6 warns us not to do: “Give not that which is holy unto dogs, neither cast ye your pearls before swine, lest they trample them under their feet, and turn again and rend you.”

God has not made any mistake in placing these stumps on our path and it is not to intimidate us but rather they are the catalyst to empower ourselves. All these dogmas, doctrines and in the case of the government their legal statutes are designed to manipulate Gods’ plan and an attempt to break mankind and rob us of the right to think, question and exercise our God-given human rights to freedom and to trap us into blaming God for our helplessness. Remember how the serpent got Adam and Eve? Compliance is a strategic ploy to deceive one into assuming loyalty, obedience and allegiance to gods instead of God. By complying with human laws and heresy, one is in effect, giving up choice to life and human rights in exchange for a life of fear and torture of manmade hell … go figure!