Character Building Challenges

I know that when God is busy at work mending, breaking, tearing down old ways and building, restoring and polishing me into who He needs me to be before He puts me where I need to be he means business. These past few weeks have felt like all He is doing is pounding away at my shell. I knew I could do with some tweaking but doe she eve need to plug along; I know He won't stop until all he can see in me is His Image.

That is why I moan and groan but refuse to give and run away from God's Beauty parlour. He is not just working on the outside, in fact He is not the least concerned about the physical, that is me wishing it were only there that I needed work. He is tugging away at layers and layers of dross that tarnished the spiritual condition of my heart. All this anger, resentment, dread of His wrath and turmoil sure left me tarnished. Am I ever glad that He could still recognize me as one of his disciples. Well consider the extent of the makeover so far, I am just happy that he did not refuse me, let alone call me a reject. I can only, at this point, imagine the part He has written for me in His plan.

I used to think that I was as good as I can get but Dear God, you know better and so I keep my promise to not run away from you anymore. I am just ever grateful that you know the intention of my heart all along and you very able to do the clean up. The longer I stayed away from you and the more I ran I got more and more in shape that only you can repair. That also meant the more work you have to do to bring me back to the person whom you designed even before I was conceived and for all this I thank you and praise. You are the Hero, My Hero and I will remain in your presence.

I have tried calling my shots but have been so far off the bulls' eye, the good thing is that you knew all this was going to happen and you made sure that they all led me back to you and no other. Now I begin to understand by what you mean when you said that you are a jealous God and you will not allow anyone to put you in second place to anyone or anything. Also, when you said that you will move heaven and earth for me, I finally know how much you really love me. No I love you, I love you not.... and in spite of all this you have never deprived me of my free will.